bloody hell, i can't even watch naruto in peace, without it popping out of my head. so freaking affected.
i don't even know why and what i'm frustrated about. and that's even more frustrating.
but this isn't about me. it's about the people around me.
i'm sure we all feel the same way.
you must think you're some royalty, like in the curse of the golden flower or whatever that shitty movie is called.
you'd like to be like that royalty, who messed with all the people around.
i've made sure i don't mention gender, and i'll keep it that way.
this is out of my hands, not my problem and all and yet it's affecting me.
why don't you stick your bloody spade in a bloody different world, you bloody poophead? like somewhere in bloody neptune?
i wish i can do the rasengan or chidori, and punch a big hole in that stupid face of yours and wake you up.
no man, i should humilate you. i should just kick you a hundred metres away just by flicking my finger on your forehead. i don't even have to get rid of a forehead protector cos there isn't one anyway.
stop telling people bloody lies about me too, or i'll use the desert coffin to crush your little brain. won't be able to concoct any lies. in fact, you won't be able to do anything.
here you go...mess with a naruto-addicted girl and you get bullshit.
from the rear.
Saturday, December 30, 2006
well well, i didn't have the time to blog about why i disappeared for approximately 3 weeks.
i was working as a promoter in bugis seiyu, where the colleagues rock, bosses suck and customers blow.
lol. i hated it. but i went through it. and i DID IT!
so yea now i can share my sales experience (and listening to christmas songs nearly everyday til after xmas) with you. but not in this post.
actually i have a lot of things to complain about. I REALLY HATE THE SECURITY THERE MAN. but no more. enough.
more details. i work as a promoter for Amanda, a woman's accessories brand from Korea during the seiyu christmas women's accessories promotion fair, from dec 15 to 28. i worked only in that period.
during the time, i had to endure weird customers, irritating store managers and critics from bosses.
all they want is money. well, i learnt some important lessons from this. best not to share this here. it's bad influence to people who haven't started working yet.
but as much as i hated my job (try standing from 10 am to 10 pm), i encourage you people to try sales jobs. you'll learn a lot of things.
during the start of the promotion period, i really cried every night. i was super tired from standing, and mentally my boss was stressing me to do MORE SALES! YOU MUST PUSH THE BLOODY CUSTOMERS! damn it, i was cracking.
but as always and foreverm, God was there to give me strengh and guide me. many times i wantd to give up, i'd just start speaking in tongues. and i'll feel very soothed.
i wanna thank God also for the many friends i've made there. they'll mostly promoters working under different brands, but we stick togethr and help and look out for each other. unity was strong among everyone there, and that was one of the important factors that made me stay in the job.
well, something else kinda stirred me too. listening to this particular song (it's a christmas song) made me remember a story, and a story i would like to share today.
it's based on a true story, but i made this fiction. if i used your name sorry. it wasn't intentional. and some of you may recognise the story.
Last Christmas by Min
"Now presenting, the secondary four prefects of 2003!" Applause rang out around the hall.
"Pssst! Hey, there little pretty! Our friend here wants to get to know you!"
Eleanor squirmed in her seat.
"Hey, hey! we're talking to you there, girl with the red hairband! Don't be shy! All Cedric wants is your number!"
"Shut up, okay! We're in the middle of prefect investiture, you know!" Eleanor snapped back. The dark boy grinned, and nudged his partner, who turned red and looked away. The people around them started giggling.
"Aw man, bro, she's rejecting you! Come on, do something!" His teeth showing under a curled, mischevious smile, Arnold nudged Cedric again.
* * *
"Damn you, that was really embarrassing, Arnold! You could have been a little more subtle!" Cedric groaned as they walked out of the school hall. "Now she'll never talk to me!"
"Hey, at least now she knows of your existence," Arnold chortled. "You should have seen your face! You went redder than her hairband!"
"Oh come on, Arnold, stop making fun of Cedric! We're supposed to be helping him!" said Yolanda. "But don't worry, Cedric. I was sitting beside Eleanor. All she said was that Arnord was a crazy nutter - speak of the devil!"
"What, am I the devil?" Eleanor had walked up to them. Cedric jumped, stepping onto Arnold's foot. "Wait, what were you saying about me, Yolanda?"
"What? Umm, nothing. What's up Eleanor?" Stammering, Yolanda managed a weak smile.
"Oh, okay. Mind if I borrow your phone? Mine's flat, and i gotta call my dad. He's supposed to be picking me up."
Arnold muttered, "There goes your chance of sending her home..."
"Oh!" exclaimed a wide-eyed Yolanda. "Mine's flat too! But you can use Cedric's phone, right, Cedric? Cedric?"
"Huh? What? My phone? But yours was fine just - OUCH! What did I do?" Yolanda had pinched him. Grabbing Cedric's phone out of his hands, she passed it to a very confused Eleanor.
"Just use it. Cedric won't mind." She gave a big smile.
"Uh, okay...I won't take long, Cedric." Glancing at him, she dialed her home number.
"That was awfully smart, Yolanda. Terribly clever." Arnold said, slighty awestruck, after Eleanor walked away. "Better save that number there, Cedric!"
"But she didn't mean to give it, I, I better not take it."
Yolanda hissed, "Hey, don't tell me I did that for nothing, okay!"
* * *
"Hello, looking for?"
"Uh, hey, Eleanor."
"Who's speaking?"
"Uh, Cedric here..."
"Oh, hey Cedric! What's up?"
"Wannchaforwhile?"
"What? Haha, Cedric, speak a little slower."
"Well...You wanna chat for awhile?"
There was a pause on the phone.
"Sure, I don't mind."
One could possibly hear the smile on Cedric's face.
* * *
Eleanor screamed. And again. There was a loud splash, and she reappeared out of the water, laughing. A huge splash came from behind again, this time causing both Yolanda and Eleanor to shriek again.
"Cedric! You didn't have to push me down the slide!" Eleanor squealed. "I was just getting ready!"
"And you didn't have to make such a big ruckus when you got off the slide, bro!" A fully drenched, spluttering Arnold appeared from under the water surface. "I think you hit my nose..."
"Come on, Arnold, change your excuse. You've used that far too many times." Cedric grinned. "Come on, enough of playing slides for the day. We better get changed, best not to stay out long in this November wind."
* * *
November changed to December, but the friendship of the four did not change. Soon, it became very obvious that Eleanor liked Cedric, and many a times did Yolanda and Arnold try to get the both of them together. But they were too shy, too shy.
"Say, that wasn't such a bad movie eh, guys? So where to now?" stepping out onto the road, the four of them looked at each other.
"Let's go look at christmas trees! Come on come on!" the girls clamoured.
* * *
December turned to a grey January 2004, and school started again. Busy with prefectorial duties and CCA, Eleanor soon left the company of the three, them being a year older.
And something happened, just within a few weeks of school reopening, that changed the course of everything...
"Hello?"
"Hey Cedric! Haven't talked to you for quite sometime, so I thought I'd call you."
"Oh, it's you, Eleanor. Uh, can I call you later? I'm kind of busy - "
"Who's that, Ced?" A voice, sharp and clear, and sounding just like a girl, issued from the background.
"Umm, Cedric?"
"Later, Eleanor."
Never once was the phone dial so depressing to hear.
* * *
*beep* "You have a new voicemail message."
"Yolanda, it's Eleanor. Hey, we haven't met up in a while. I was thinking we should, and I called Cedric, but...well anyway, could you help me ask Cedric and Arnold, since you three are in the same class? i'll be waiting for your call."
"Cedric, you jerk, finally picked up the bloody phone, did you? Eleanor has already left me 3 missed calls and a voicemail. When are you going to tell her the truth?" Yolanda practically spat the words at him. "You are the most horrible person in the world! You knew she liked you, you should have asked her, but you made her wait and now you're with Jessica! What is your problem? Wait, who's that? Ced, you're with her right now? Damn you! Cedric you better not hang up-"
The phone went dead, and Cedric sighed. He didn't want to hang up either, but...
* * *
*beep* New SMS received.
"Cedric, what's going on? Why isn't any of you three answering my calls? This is getting irritating, you know? Just tell me what happened!"
"Dammit, you should at least have the f**king courtesy to reply, Cedric!"
"Look, Cedric, I know about Jessica already, okay. I saw you guys together already. Don't mind me but you're a moron without me saying it. Just don't make it worse by telling Yolanda and Arnold to stay away from me!"
"Eleanor, I'm really sorry..."
She never stopped crying, until she fell asleep.
* * *
Another Christmas came, accompanied by the usual cold weather and Christmas carols. It played on the radio, and she turned up the volume.
"Last christmas, I gave you my heart. But the very next day, you gave it away. This year, to save me from tears, I gave it to someone special."
Eleanor smiled at Shawn, who took her hand.
Last Christmas I gave you my heart But the very next day you gave it away This year To save me from tears I'll give it to someone special
Once bitten and twice shy I keep my distance But you still catch my eye Tell me baby Do you recognize me? Well It's been a year It doesn't surprise me I wrapped it up and sent it With a note saying "I love you" I meant it Now I know what a fool I've been But if you kissed me now I know you'd fool me again
Last Christmas I gave you my heart But the very next day you gave it away This year To save me from tears I'll give it to someone special
A crowded room Friends with tired eyes I'm hiding from you And your soul of ice My god I thought you were Someone to rely on Me? I guess I was a shoulder to cry on
A face on a lover with a fire in his heart A man under cover but you tore me apart Now I've found a real love you'll never fool me again
Last Christmas I gave you my heart But the very next day you gave it away This year To save me from tears I'll give it to someone special
A face on a lover with a fire in his heart A man under cover but you tore him apart Maybe next year I'll give it to someone I'll give it to someone special.
thanks very much if you read til here. enjoy the song. pics and post on prom night will be for tomorrow.
Monday, December 04, 2006
i spent my day: 1. eating 2. watching tv 3. doing the laundry 4. using the computer 5. watching a movie (open season) 6. eating 7. using the computer
hahaha.
End Of Me by Marion Raven
Hey Stay with me As I'm getting naked Stripped down to the bone
Hey I'm afraid This could get ugly And I might leave here alone
This is not a mistake It's the dawn of a new day Anything goes from now
This is the last of illusions This is the final trace of innocence If I'm caught in the middle I know it will be the end of me
Hey Talk to me Don't play me with your silence Whisper it in my mouth
Cause this is not about hate It's the start of a new way Anything goes from now
This is the last of illusions This is the final trace of innocence If I'm caught in the middle I know it will be the end of me
This is not a mistake It's the dawn of a new day Hey, this is not a mistake Stay with me
Hey Stay with me As I'm getting naked
This is the last of illusions This is the final trace of innocence If I'm caught in the middle I know it will be the end of me The end of me
Yeah...
Sunday, December 03, 2006
okay. more pics of TP Rawks!
i randomly put these pics. i don't have so much time to like organize it. lol.
after Jam & Hop on friday. the two people in front, fiona and nelson, both PLs. at the back from left, people from ZHSS, SJI, YTSS, and of course YISS.
this was after a very wet session of dragon boating at bedok reservoir. TP is right beside the reservoir. cool. it's a beautiful place.
see how random are my pictures. this is BEFORE the Jam & Hop, at the running track right outside the hall where we had the J&H. the whole GREEN team! lol. lijie and i are in the right hand side bottom corner. can see? hahaha.
this is a "painting" we (lijie, amanda, candy, two other girls and me) did at the design school on the second day. the theme was freedom. if anyone can guess correctly why we painted the butterflies over the freedom words..i applaude you. haha.
i think enough intro-ing the four of us. the two guys at the back, from left andy and derek. PLs for green 6(G6).
and that's all for TP Rawks. haha. if i get more photos...i will..leave them in the com for me to enjoy. i think you guys had enough.
had a great time worshipping and praying today. i love the old worship songs.
i love singing in chinese too! though not very well. hahaha.
and today, my parents left with my brother to malaysia to settle his IC.
and i'm all alone at home.
anyone wanna go out tomorrow? cos i can totally stay out! lol
oh.
okay. i've decided to start giving tuition. i know i don't have fabulous results, but i can make sure my tutee gets good maths grades.
so ask around for me, i can teach maths and sciences for sec 1 to 3. sec 4 can, but not advisable. not even advisable for sec 3. unless it's maths.
yea. i haven't decided on what i will charge, but it won't be high.
i don't have that zi ge anyway.
once a week each subject, one and a half hours each lesson.
do keep an eye out for me. ask your cousins. or even siblings. neighbours.
best if they lived in the west too.
thanks!
Saturday, December 02, 2006
RIGHT! THE CRAZY GIRL IS BACK FROM HER 3 DAY NON-OVERNIGHT CAMP AT TP! Early Mornings, Hot Hunks And A Sizzling Dance Floor here's another story for my dear friends to enjoy: my time at the east of sunny (not so sunny now) singapore.
well. seeing the fact that i'm chatting on msn right now while watching a Stay At Home Saturday Movie (Shrek 1), i won't go into details, unlike what i reported to my dad (while mentioning all the TP good stuff). so, here's some pictures.
well. four buddies. two 2 pairs of buddies actually. many of you will recognise lijie. and me. haha. from left, Amanda and Candy from yishun town secondary. two characters from Green 6 team @ TP rawks, the team LJ and i were in too.
Pack Leader(the student union leader from TP of our team): GREEN 6 OEI!
Green sixers: OEI!
PL: GREEN 6 OEI!
Green sixers: OEI!
PL: GREEN 6 OEI!
Green sixers: SAK SAK OEI!!
sorry got carried off.
these pictures were from the IT school. they designed this...neoprint program. take your pics by the web cammie, and design it. just like a neoprint booth.
and the guy we were "banging" (hahahahahaha! though i doubt most of you won't understand what banging is lol.) is the guy helping us with the program. sorry, i forgot what your name is, but thank you for your help and hospitality while we were at the IT school!
what? what thing?
AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
amanda & candy: crazy girl. there, she's at it again.
Lijie: what? what happened?
haha. so there. i don't have many pictures of the event yet, as i didn't bring my camera. but amanda and candy did, so i'll be getting pictures from them.
and you guys can see what i mean by hot hunks.
and early mornings were like 6 am. have to reach TP by 830 am.
oh, the sizzling dance floor? well on the last day of TP Rawks, friday, we had this Jam & Hop thingie. kinda like clubbing minus the scantily clad girls and alcohol and drugs. but double, triple the fun. cos you have crazy PLs and CLs to spice it up.
and yes (yea, yea whatever), i danced crazily. i have a hurting lower back and abdomen now, thanks to it. i boogied, jimmied, hopped, sang, screamed, rocked, jumped, you name it, i did it.
nearly, i guess. haha.
so i'll post the rest of the pics when i get them. haha.
and you can see the hunks.
THERE ARE SO MANY OF THEM!
but i got only pics of SOME hunks in TP. you gotta be there to see the rest of them!
*big smile*
YES, YES, there was one that quite took my breath away lah! okay? fine!
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
it feels really horrible, when you've got so much to blog and you can't write it out cos you can't and you don't want to anyway but yet you want to but it'll create a catastrophie and i don't know whether i spelled that correctly anyway BUGGER forget it.
i'm going to TP tomorrow, for that TP rawks thing. this trip will determine whether i am willing to make that sacrifice every day for 3 years.
yes, i have been going down to the east for 1 year already. but on a weekly basis.
whether i can take it if i'm going everyday will be a different story.
so many people got jobs since i came back from malaysia. i've been stoning a lot.
feel so unproductive.
WHAT'S THIS. I NEED A BREAK. I'M GETTING A BREAK. IT'S OKAY TO BE RESTING!
yes it is. lol. nevermind. tomorrow i'll be getting some exercise.
you better get online quick, i need to ask you how to get to TP!
i love this song. used to, anyway. i love this guy. i love his sister too! lol. natasha and Unwritten. well enjoy people.
the video suck, if you ask me, actually.
If You're Not The One by Daniel Bedingfield
If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today? If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way? If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
I never know what the future brings But I know you are here with me now We'll make it through And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am? Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed? If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head? If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life? If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don't know why you're so far away But I know that this much is true We'll make it through And I hope you are the one I share my life with And I wish that you could be the one I die with And I pray in you're the one I build my home with I hope I love you all my life
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today 'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right And though I can't be with you tonight And know my heart is by your side
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am Is there any way that I can stay in your arms
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
well. for those who have seen the tags, i must say that was a very nice welcome.
*sobs* and no one else wishing me a good trip...
nevermind.
Curled Bob, Heeled Feet And An Uneven Bitumen Road a tale of a city girl going back to her roots i did look forward to my Msia trip, but then again, as inferred from the title of this post, there are many things that don't go along with yours truly in sunny msia. here are snippets of the lovely stuff.
this was part of my welcome committee upon reaching Ketari Gardens (estate where i stay). stupid noisy barking-forever and barking-mad dog who never stops barking and everything and anything even throughout the night.
a couple of hours after we arrived, my uncle and family from KL reached. upon reaching, my little cousin of four who just woke up grabbed her winnie the pooh. she's just clamouring to be taken. so i grabbed my cam. "jia xian, smile, don't move arh, jie jie take photo. jia xian don't move! don't move!" hao bu rong yi, i managed to take the photo. phew.
and what did the little boys do while the girls went around taking photos? "there, there, go there! press X 2 times then O! jump on top! no! go there!" kid in blue, big bother of jia xian hollering at my bro (in white). "kor kor, i want to play..." my youngest guy cousin, hidden in the picture, whines. "later then play, we play first." the second brother says. sigh.
"jie jie, play see saw with me. i want to play the swing also." "jia xian careful arh, don't run too far arh" imagine me running after a kid with one hand busy on a camera, an eye on jia xian and the other eye one the road out for cars. just a couple of hours into msia and i've gone into my usual job.
little tyke ran after me to my room when i went in to change and brush up for dinner. "jie jie, what is that you put on your face? mei mei (pretty in chinese) arh? jie jie i don't need right? i mei mei right?" she talks a lot you know. i don't even know what she's saying. i just mumble back..ya..ya..
"then you fold here...and press here...and voila!" some shots of my maternal cousins.
"huh, take photo? don't want lah...later..." but i took it already. lol. sister of previous babe.
"what, you want to take a photo? sure. here's smile. pretty enough? of course pretty!" my BHB mom. lol. this was breakfast on monday.
"smile when you take photos! must show your teeth, then handsome. come on, smile!"
"now, there, doesn't that look better? must smile!" i must have told my brother a million times to smile when he takes photos, but he NEVER does. why huh? i realize it's a guy thing. a lot of guys think it's cool not to smile, i guess. sheesh.
this are some really comfy seats i found in the HKSH bank in malaysia. i was waithing for my dad to settle some dunno whats. i love these seats. lol.
and here's the fun part...on tuesday i met up with all my aunts and cousins from my mother's side, and we went shopping. i didn't do much shopping, i had to look after my niece. she's quite sticky, if you know what i mean. but i bought the mascara from maybelline (the XXX one) i wanted, and the pink eyeliner (lol pink fascination). and after that i went to my aunt's house to make this : okay not exactly. that's melted chocolate. it's heavenly. i piped it into this: lovely ain't it? lol. shaped choco on a stick! it was fun piping it. tiring. my cousins had a ball of a time. haha.
my favourites. of course i made them. lol. for all the people who have saliva drizzling down their shirts, i'm sorry. i didn't bring any back (how the heck am i suppose to bring them back without them melting????).
my 2 cuzzies, they were making the choc-on-a-stick too. while eating the melted choc. lol. look a like, don't they? they ain't twins, cuzzies too. just the same age.
and this is the end product! i really feel like making plenty and selling them. so pretty. i didn't want to eat them lol.
my niece. cutest baby of all. and the sticky one. i think she just woke up. lol. she actually calls me ah yi, aunt in chinese. so old...
the choc-on-a-stick making team! except my niece there. she wanted to be in the photo. as you can see they're all kids. i'm the only teen. the rest of my motherside cuzzies are adults. my niece there, her mom's my cuzzie too.
dinner time, after choc making. and this part's a little creepy.
if you see properly..there are NOBODY else in the restaurent. NOBODY. my family was the only one there. i was sitting at one side, near the wall, and i took these shots. good food though. i'm a food maniac so i didn't get food shots since i was busy eating lol.
it felt good to see this : the singapore immigration. it meant i was home after sitting in the car for so long. lol.
last picture. guess what's this:
overall, i loved the msia trip. took me away from technology for a change. but i really don't like the toilets. lol. not even in my own house.
and why are the roads so uneven????? sheesh. i must have tripped a million times. and i know it's not because i was wearing heels.
then again i bought a zillion things at hald the price. lol.
this is a super long post man. i totally have to go. lol. thank you if you have even read until here. XD
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
now, min can post more le, cos min is finishing her exams tomorrow! ending with a blast : a.maths paper 2 and chem paper 1 & 2. what a day.
not only i permed my hair, i got a new digicam over the weekend. not me : my mom.
man, i wanted to choose. but nevermind. she got an okay brand (olympus) so i have nothing to say.
i wanted to post some test shots up, but i am to lazy.
i should rename myself. lazy should be my middle name.
i'm getting worried about my holidays. i think i'm over planning. not that i'm planning too detailed.
i'm adding too many things to my schedule.
i'm going to malaysia this weekend, til next wednesday.
when i come back, i'm going out. activities already lined up : 1. sentosa (always number 1) 2. shopping trip not only with friends also with mom 3. wild wild wet 4. badminton games (not that i am very good anyway) 5. 2 chalets, one cg and one class. 6. not to mention the Trybe activities i want to go
all these over a span of 3-4 weeks, in which after that i may get a job.
and all these money spent, in a time of arise and build.
must save yet spend.
well. let's see.
i can do it. no problem. just put God first. the rest will fall nicely into place.
this shows fwen stefani when she was still with no doubt. i love this song. it's quite old though.
Run, Running all the time Running to the future With you right by my side
Me, I'm the one you chose Out of all the people You wanted me the most I'm so sorry that I'm falling Help me up lets keep on running Don't let me fall out of love
[Chorus:] Running, running As fast as we can I really hope you make it (Do you think we'll make it?) We're running Keep holding my hand It's so we don't get separated
Be, Be the one I need Be the one I trust most Don't stop inspiring me Sometimes it's hard to keep on running We work so much to keep it going Don't make me want to give up
[Repeat chorus twice]
(The future)
[Repeat chorus]
there..lovely ain't it.
PRIME TIME NEWS: THIS AUTHOR WAS BRAINWASHED IN SIGNATURE PARK TODAY.
Min Gets Brainwashed okay. fine. so i got my hair perm a few days before planned. but i'm going to malaysia soon (must miss me! XD). i may not have time after the exams.
1. Attaching the electrodes: what she's (the hairdresser-Irene) doing there is rounding my hair around this heater stick AKA electrodes (in blue and green) and securing it with rubber bands.
2. Sending an SOS (to no avail) haha. i was caught smsing. anyway, Irene added this cloth thingie, i think to protect my scalp from the heat.
3. Attaching the wires the scary part! the wires of the machine (as seen) are connected with said electrodes.
i tell you, this is the hot and important part.
it's darn heavy! my neck totally could not support my head! i was leaning on the chair and the back was supporting the whole thing on my head.
it's literally hot. kinda burning, at first, cos my hair was wet and the heat was evaporating all the water which started steaming my head. quite killing lol.
but after awhile the water evaporated off. then the rubber bands started snapping one by one. piak piak piak. ouch ouch ouch. and these were the remnants of the rubber bands. you see the curled red worms things? yep. those.
4. Cute onlooker (who didn't know the photo was taken) curious little adorable baby! 18 months and very active. followed her mom/grandmom (i don't know, didn't see, the electrodes were on my head already) to the hairdresser. so here with the rubber bands snapped, the hairdresser used clips. of course, she had removed the heater thingie. i had to sit there for an hou before she took it off. now, i had to sit there to let it cool off.
and so on and so on. after getting cooled, she added this liquidto soak my hair in and washed it off.
and i was done!
credits to DAVID! for the pictures. thank you. for sitting there 4 hours after you cut your hair. lol.
the end. must sleep now.
Friday, November 10, 2006
i know i've posted this song before, but i was just listening to it. lot's of stuff. What Can I Do by The Corrs
I haven't slept at all in days It's been so long since we've talked And I have been here many times I just don't know what I'm doing wrong
What can I do to make you love me What can I do to make you care What can I say to make you feel this What can I do to get you there
There's only so much I can take And I just got to let it go And who knows I might feel better If I don't try and I don't hope
What can I do to make you love me What can I do to make you care What can I say to make you feel this What can I do to get you there
No more waiting, No more aching No more fighting, No more trying
Maybe there's nothing more to say And in a funny way I'm calm Because the power is not mine I'm just gonna let it fly
What can I do to make you love me What can I do to make you care What can I say to make you feel this What can I do to get you there
Love me...
i'm up to my nostrils with exams now. pretty okay recently.
Father i thank you very very very much for manageable papers!
phew.
you know, it's just like air. you never notice it, but it's there.
and when air gets fierce and starts moving into wind, onely then you'll realise the extent of it.
it becomes a natural disaster.
hey, poor thing on the tagboard, you can find Blogger's CEO's email on www.blogger.com i'm sure. at least at the help section. you sure need some help.
all th e best and God bless to all secondary four peeps. taking o'levels. and the sec 5.
Thursday, November 02, 2006
another day in my life. in a nutshell, i studied (STUDIED! WOW!), i played the com (duh), and i had BS at BK @ WM.
that's a lot of brackets and initials.
let's get counting...
8 more chances of wearing the school uniform. i'll miss it. muahaha. cos i'll never wear one again.
7 more exam days.
6 more days to that day where i would have to make a descision whether to go for TRYBE or SYTYCS (the LYL zone event).
5 more days to the weekend.
4 more months til i get my results.
3 more weeks to my 6-days-in-a-row chalet "marathon" (class & zone).
2 1/2 more weeks to going back to malaysia.
2 more weeks til i perm my hair and to F-R-E-E-D-O-M.
and 1 more day (or half a day) to cell group.
why am i blogging again?
oh, cos i kicked my brother off the computer chair.
what? i let him play since 8. as you can see, it just past 10. 2 hours is sufficient. and i bet you he played in the afternoon.
i like that channel 8 show at 9pm. i don't really remember what it's called. but who cares.
it's the one with fiona xie in it, with her being such a bitch.
why did they cast her as the bitch? i must admit she did a good job. but why her? hello, bitches aren't supposed to be pretty.
exactly. that's why they're bitches.
you know what, i just realized i was typing without looking at my fingers. i was fully staring at the computer screen.
be amazed by the prowness of my accuracy!
okay. that's a sign that i should stop blogging.
oh, one more thing.
it really is the trend to get a boyfriend from school now, cos i couldn't walk to west mall without meeting at least 10 couples from schools like YISS(DUH. you have to diss your own school before dissing other schools. ooops, i forgot. I GRADUATED!), BVSS, HGSS, to name a few.
not that it's a bad thing lah. but it's kinda of funny to watch them flirt with each other.
useless, seriously.
what was it i wanted to blog?! i forgot!
oh, i have a new found love. it's called CROSSWORDS.
kinda saw mt brother doing it that day. got caught on, and kinda couldn't stop.
what, that shitty wonderful project superstar is on again?
wow! i so GOTTA(pui!) watch it!
i need to buy a chamber pot too, to put beside my sofa as i watch!
good night, people. good night to my prince living in NI.
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
i've finally decided to post something.
i'm so sick of having so many things stuck in my head but unable to tell anyone cuz i have no idea how to put everything into words.
so many things going on.
my mom's listening to 97.2 FM while she irons, and even though i have my headphones on listening to the cranberries crooning, i could clearing hear the song blaring out, as if it is right beside my ears.
ever since i knew how to appreciate music, songs have a very big impact on me. it is currently the only thing which can make me emotional without actually saying anything (it's a SONG, see?).
so anyway, the song (in chinese) went: "you're just too soft, just too soft. you hide everything hurtful inside you. you put on a strong front and..."
memory fails me here. anyway it's not very easy to translate chinese into english.
Sidetrack: guess what chinese song it is. hahaha.
yea and the song totally describes me. and i don't wanna put on a strong front anymore.
i mean, yea, everything is going on perfectly for me. everything. you name it, it's good.
just that slight problem which can cause huge catastrophies (hope i got that spelled right).
oh bull shit, it's not like anyone will understand anyway.
damn you, damn you, damn you, damn you.
everyone was right. i should have listened to them.
if you realised, there's actually a pattern, like a polymer and i'm just one of those damned monomers.
dang, you didn't even learn organic chemistry and if you did you would have forgotten by now.
why did you have to lie to me?
i have a reason for saying all guys are jerks you know. do all of you think i just like to say it?
all the guys i've met are jerks! one after another.
you think i like having such a past behind me? there's a reason behind it.
everytime i try to convince myself that it's just one guy in the whole billion of the world population, but everyone of you are the same.
i wonder who will be the next monomer.
this wasn't meant to be, hasn't meant to be and will never mean to be.
when you're gone..
but you'll sleep forever now
and i am waiting for you
Friday, October 13, 2006
why, it's friday the thirteen.
and 11 days from my last post.
i actually managed to force meself to stop blogging.
actually there wasn't a need to. with my (NEW! i know you know. i just wann asay it again) guitar and old (but still rocking) piano, i'm getting some progess on those fingers of mine.
and of course, i'm playing.
xiao jie, o`level no need study mah? still play play play??
no need, i've got God.
no lah, of course i still have to study! even if you want God to make miracles in your life, you have to make places for Him to do so!
so my cupcakes from CG who are running the O'level race, study hard and let God work His mighty miracle through us!
have His great faith!
and jia you!
i should now really continue blogging.
don't stop, don't stop.
ARHHH! I WANNA PLAAAAY!
pooooeey.
Monday, October 02, 2006
BE MORE SENSITIVE! BE MORE SENSITIVE! BE MORE SENSITIVE! BE MORE SENSITIVE! BE MORE SENSITIVE! BE MORE SENSITIVE! BE MORE SENSITIVE! BE MORE SENSITIVE! BE MORE SENSITIVE! BE MORE SENSITIVE! BE MORE SENSITIVE! BE MORE SENSITIVE! BE MORE SENSITIVE! BE MORE SENSITIVE! DO YOU WANT ME TO MAKE YOU WRITE LINES?
or type lines, in this case?
how would you feel if you were in his place?
just shut up for a change!
Sunday, October 01, 2006
yuuuum...the delectable taste of snowskin mooncare melting in your mouth...irresistable!
i went to Ikea today, and got 2 clam-on lamps, on which i've clamped on my study table (it's orange) and the other i clamped on my bed (this one's white).
had quite a bit of trouble with the one i wanted to put on my bed. it couldn't seem to fit in anywhere.
see, my bad's originally a double-decker bed, and now even though i'm the only sleeping in it the second "story" is still there, with th supporting mesh. now, this mesh is blocking everything, and the only way to fix my lamp in the right position is to cut the mesh.
which i did, in a sense.
using a pair of pliers (author pauses here to take a bite of mooncake), i pulled out the hook supporting the mesh, creating a section where i could move the mesh away from the main bedframe. and stuck the lamp though. and VOILA!
another bite of mooncake.
now there's the problem of a dangling wire, right in the middle of nowehere. so i secured the wire onto the bedframe using that...plastic...ring...thingie...which you can "break" and it lights up for a few hours...got them from the planetshakers ultraviolet party (i think only keith and henzy will know what i mean).
well nevermind the details, let's talk about mooncakes.
i have 2 left in the fridge to myself, seeing i'm the only one who eats this "messy goo which sticks in your teeth", which was what my dad called it.
it doesn't stick!
well whatever.
Ikea @ alexandra is pretty small, compared to the one in PJ, malaysia. i love the one in malaysia.
no, i love both. i love Ikea. and my dad says (he's the Resident Engineer for Ikea @ tampines) i'd love the one at tampines even more. smaller, but comparable to Ikea @ PJ.
when i get a house, or when my mom lets me refurbish my room, i'm gonna get everything from Ikea.
as much as i can, anyway.
what the...
that little kid, in jay chou's ting ma ma de hua mtv...
SO CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
lean meat, lean meat, lean meat.
guess i'm not the only one with a "problem".
you poor things, you'll get through it fine, don't worry.
meat pie, throw at you.
why are all boys + men + old ah kongs i.e anybody with testosterone like this?
clueless. about EVERYTHING. from umbrellas to mrt to..nevermind.
i said i would complain anymore.
no more, no more, no more.
OH DAMMIT I'M LOSING IT.
and you know what's the most terrible thing?
you could be reading this.
Sunday, September 24, 2006
aiya. i didn't explain myself properly.
currently in church, we are undergoing a churchwide bible study series called Making Marriage Work.
totally irrelevant to us youngsters. but still, it's pretty interesting.
(aiyo, that jay chou aiyo song is playing.)
where was i? oh, i learnt many interesting things too, including the uses of sex (not biologically). hahaha. like it was God's will, way before Adam and Eve had eaten that apple, for married couples to enjoy sex.
too much info for you? nah. look at it in a biblogical way.
stuff like when married, a couple has to "leave" their parents and be joined to their spouses. check genesis 2:24. around there. haha.
and yesterday, a couple of thousand married couples renewed their marriage vows. today, too, will this renewing be going on in service.
so where does the emotional map come in?
well in one of the lessons pastor talked about communication, and this emotional map can be used to write a letter to your other half so as to improve communication between spouses.
writing one to yourself is another way to make sure you don't become "emotionally shut down".
like i said in the previous post, obviously i am not emotionally shut down (and somebody is super aware of that huh, mr aiyo?) but still i wanted to try writing a letter. and you have to be totally honest to yourself.
it's my way of telling you guys how i have been feeling lately too. not exactly a bad thing, but it may not be a good thing anyway.
so to non-CHC peeps who think i need help, nah, chill! just being honest and frank with myself. you wanna check out that marriage series? sure. pop me an (why is it AN, not A, sms?) sms or gimme a nudge in msn. you could try the emotional map yourself.
to CHC buddies, you have give it a try. be totally honest with yourself. you'll feel a lot better. for the first night i slept with out funny dreams.
ever since that darn prelims started i had dreams every night. they aren't scary or nice, just weird.
people pop out in unexpected places. i don't remember any dream, but i know they were all weird.
not those spiritual attacks kind either, though. i used to have these dreams, not not continuously for 2 weeks!
anyway, do you think i have too many youtube vids in my blog?
answer that question in my tagboard, i'm off to making a skin.
Thursday, September 21, 2006
OTHER WAYS OF USING THE "EMOTIONAL MAP" 2. Use the Emotional Map to write a Letter to yourself. when you feel guilty, depressed or angry at yourself, wirting a Letter to YOURSELF is a powerful self-healing technique. Use the Emotional Map to fully express yourself in the Letter. This is a helpful means of ensuring that suppressed or repressed feelings do not make you emotionally shut down.
although i know that i'm definitely emotionally shut down, this is a good time to try the Letter. and i'm sharing it with all of you. sorry if it's hard to read.
Dear Min,
ANGER - you're are more than an idiot, you don't even have a heart! i'm really angry at you - do you think you're the only one living on this Earth? there are other people to consider, other people to care for, not just you yourself! and then all you can do is to keep complaining that nobody cares for you and you can't trust this person that person but in the end your bare your whole soul to whoever it is and then you get hurt and the whole cycle repeats itself! min, why can't you just accept things the way they are? you can't put them back to what it was like then. it's all changed! min, can you just stop saying mean things to people just to please yourself? why do you onlying know how to think for yourself? grow and start being like a real person! and do you really think you're so pretty, so amazing, so clever, so good? you freaking not! get a life and stop harping on these stuff!
HURT - it hurts me when i see you being left out from other people, min. but you must know this is yout own fault. if you'd know how to love people fervently and think about what your are going to say this will not happen. it is painful to see you withdraw from doing everything you love whenever you faced rejection from your peers. i know how your feel when you aren't getting want you want but still you have to put people first, not yourself. i know you are always on the verge of tears whenever somebody scolds you, and you try so hard to hide it. i feel sad when you keep hiding your sadness and disappointment from other people, that you don't want to let them know. you should know that even so, your friends will still know what you really feel. it hurts to see you criticise yourself so much to the point of going crazy.
FEAR - min, i'm afraid for you. i'm afraid you'd go on hurting yourself like this and affecting people around you. i'm afraid you won't be able to change your thinking and affect your life all the way to adulthood. i'm afraid that if you don't come out to the open about what you really feel, more people will just misunderstand you and you'll try to solve the problem but it will all get mixed up again. i fear that you won't be able to love someone again, because of all your past hurts and failures. i'm scared that you will try to keep pushing to be your best and won't take anything for granted because of the past chances you were given and did not make full use of.
REGRET - i'm sorry that i allowed you to turn out this was, that i brought you to be like this. i'm sorry that i wasn't there to help you when you were at the lowest time of your life. i'm sorry that you didn't have a satisfactory secondary school life and you were hurt by many people in many ways. i'm sorry for making you an insecure person depedant on praises of other people. i'm sorry that you're so sensitive to rejection. i'm sorry to keep making you strive to be the best and hurting you in the process. i'm sorry i don't let you know how important you are actually to me and not giving you the love you really deserve. please forgive me for putting you through all these troubles!
INTENTION - i want you to start loving people, but also start loving yourself and caring yourself in the right way. i want you think of other people's feelings before you start shooting your mouth of and consider the consequences first. i want you to know that rejection from friends may not exactly a bad thing and that you should be so affected by it. i want you to know that there are people there to support you, just that you should ask the right people and you can also depend on your family. i want you to trying loving people in truth again, even though you think you can't.
LOVE - min, you should know that i love you, and that Jesus loves you even more than you can imagine. you can brighten people's lives in the right time, and you actually make a difference in the world. thank you for being honest with yourself and other people and daring to come out and write this letter. thank you for willing to learn and accept the truth. i hope that you would take my advice and live life peacefully to the fullest without overexerting on yourself.
wow. it's a huge risk to post this. just a request. if you have only bad things to say about this, keep it to yourself. i can't take anymore rejections.
lijie, here's your song! takes awhile to load.
if you read through the lyrics, it's so true. but it's not right to wallow in it. love hurts?
my best buddie wants me to dedicate this song to her. but sorry lj, can't access youtube so i'll put the song on another time.
The Trouble With Love Is by Kelly Clarckson Ooooohhh… Oooohhhh ya Mmmmm
Love can be a many splended thing Can't deny the joy it brings A dozen roses Diamond rings Dreams for sale And fairy tales It'll make you hear a symphony And you just want the world to see But like a drug that makes you blind It'll fool you every time
The trouble with love is It can tear you up inside Make your heart believe a lie It's stronger then your pride The trouble with love is It doesn't care how fast you fall And you can't refuse the call See you've got no say at all
Now I was a once a fool it's true I played the game by all the rules But now my world's a deeper blue I'm sadder but I'm wiser too I swore I'd never love again I swore my heart would never mend Said love wasn't worth the pain But then I hear it call my name
The trouble with love is It can tear you up inside Make your heart believe a lie It's stronger then your pride The trouble with love is It doesn't care how fast you fall And you can't refuse the call See you've got no say at all
Every time I turn around I think I've got it all figured out My heart keeps callin And I keep on fallin Over and over again This sad story always ends the same Me standin' in the pouring rain It seems no matter what I do It tears my heart in two
The trouble with love is (the trouble with love) It can tear you up inside (it can tear you up inside) Make your heart believe a lie (Make your heart believe a lie) It's stronger than your pride (The trouble with love is) It's in your heart it's in your soul (It doesn't care how fast you fall) You're losing all control (And you can't refuse the call) So you've got no say at all The trouble with love is (Oooo….ya) It can tear you up inside Make your heart believe a lie (the trouble with love:)
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
actually that post below, dated 19 sept, was a post from sunday. typed it on sunday, but didn't upload. oops. haha.
now i'm typing today's post.
see this picture?
my bud and me, rachel, last year christmas at the 7-11 at expo.
i got the balloon from the fair that day, where they were giving out free balloons and i LOVED THIS ONE SOOOOO MUCH!
it's a heart shape, with a little pink teddy bear shape (at the right side, you can't really tell) with a blue handle. you can't see that one either.
but the main focus isn't the balloon, and my buddie rach.
no lah there's nothing wrong with rach. i was just scanning through my photos when i saw this and thought of rach.
yea. that's all. haha.
okay i was finding a picture to post. haha.
anyway, now i need to figure a way to turn on the computer but go to that login page/window so that the whole family won't excess my files, my account being the admin, and use the evidence found against me.
just kidding. there isn't any. so those of you who want to blackmail me can go kiss my a**.
no wasn't kidding.
:) don't be sure i was typing ass, i could be typing air for all you know.
silly windows. and MAN now that my com is back i so wanna play sims 2. but i can't find the CD/returned it already. i can't remember which one. so jeremy if you happen to be reading (and around this date i.e 19/09/06 also lah if one year has passed already forget it lol) can you tell me whether i returned the CD.
yup. that's about it.
you know, recently..okay not recently. for a long time i had this thought : all of us have a chance and a choice.
and seems like many of us made THAT choice, including me.
all of us must have had a chance, or not, even princess over there wouldn't have gotten one.
i mean, sheesh, it's called clothes, try some.
now none of you will have any idea of what i am talking about, in exception of one person. so let me mumble since it says there GEMINIAL not [your name here]
and him! oh man. if i was evil i would have said they were a perfect match.
but i am not, just mean (tee hee).
oh, whatever. no point, no point.
this is funny..
this is funnier!!!
fart this! XD
VIDEO MARATHON! enjoy.
(i feel like singing that "baby i'm back" song. but nevermind.)
yes, the piece of extremely-entertaining-but-spoil-easily gadget is back, sitting like a prince (i merely assume it's a male, since a male created it) on his throne (at the bottom of the table hahaha) and running like clockwork (wonder when it'll fail me again).
i sure use a lot of brackets.
whatever. i changed to a DVD-ROM, and will spend my days figuring out how to burn DVDs (wasn't as easy as i thought it was, turns out).
updates, schmupdates. i still have to do it.
one word: prelims
two words: (preliminary exams...haha just kidding) oh no.
three words: where's my computer (when i need it)!
four words: whatever, don't wanna study.
five words: (in exam hall)shit, dunno how to do.
six words: (still there) wah lao, why set so difficult???
seven words: (once in a blue moon, meaning NEVER) hahaha this is super duper easy man!
eight words: i never study so hard before for exams!
nine words: finally, major exams are over liao! pop the champagne!
ten words: celebrate what lah, o'levels haven't over yet then happy liao!
yea, this was pretty much has been going on. simple. prelims. and i'm halfway through, with the simple stuff left to do so no need for intensive studying. there's more to come next month.
had fun during the september holidays, though. went out a little, swimming and stuff, and to the beach on friday (and missing my chem tuition. no one knows, except for my tuition teacher and friends).
it was a pretty surprising day, that's all i have to say.
maybe it was a good thing i sent my computer for repairs during the holidays and those (@#$%!) people kept it there for nearly a fortnight (TURNED ON!) so that they could find out what the heck was wrong with my computer. so i would have no choice but to study as there wasn't anything else i could do.
i tried. but ended up either sleeping or on the phone. pfft.
and now, a piece of good news: my mom is going back to work! i tell ya, it's nice to have a mom at home, who can do stuff and you don't have to rush and stuff.
but she gets bored nesting at home and she starts taking it out on my when she nags. and it's extremely annoying. i CANNOT stand it.
so, she may be starting soon. hopefully. please please please. she's been at a tantrum at me now, for about 2 days already. she's darn childish. and my dad too. and my brother. you know, there's a lot of things that make me different from them 3.
1. i don't have dimples.
2. i am computer literate, but only because i bothered to learn.
3. i am musically inclined. i know my brother is in band. but he has no intention whatsoever to furthur pursue any form of art now.
4. i am extremely, well, noisy, when compared to them.
5. i am the only one who can operate (cos i bother to, apparently) the dvd player, amplifier and any other appliances that needs to be "yan jiu"(what's it in english huh. can't seem to remember) before using. why can't they work it out themselves. it's annoying, when i can't work it out and they make it my fault. and when i work it out and have to break my teeth explaining (this is totally about the other female in my family) AND have to endure somebody complaining that i don't teach her how to use that's why she don't know how to use. no, i do teach. you don't bother to TRY. and now we buy a new printer and i want to teach you but you say "only when i need it then i'll learn" AND WHEN YOU NEED IT I AM PRACTICALLY COMMANDED TO TEACH YOU EVEN THOUGH I'M BUSY AND THE WHOLE BLOODY CYCLE REPEATS.
nevermind. complaining, again.
there's a whole bunch of other differences but whatever.
i bought a new CD recently, called Cancer Warriors: When Voice Become Song. it includes songs (beautiful, meaningful ones) by our local artists like Ronin, West Grand Boulevard, Electrico etc. i don't remember the rest.
if you've been tuining into 987 fm recently, you would have heard some of the songs, like the one by WGB and the one by Ronin feat Fiona Xie.
lovely songs. i bought it to help the Joan Chan fund. you know, that girl who died of cancer.
she fought a strong battle and put up a strong defence.
this cd includes a song title joan, sung by joan's friends.
there's also a song by Sun Ho, with Ronin. i love that one. it's really meaningful.
don't take too long to say "i love you" to the ones you love cos time has a habit of slipping away
go on, support the breat cancer foundation and the joan chan fund, churchmates. get it from attributes now.
and guess what i found in youtube?
just that the guy videoing kept moving his hand. but you can pretty much hear the song.
the one by Sun is better though hee hee. but Ronin sure is good.
Sunday, September 03, 2006
song marathon! some of the old favourites, starting with a new song from high school musical (i feel like a DJ), breaking free.
i want to watch high school musical. kinda reminds me of grease. well here is the second song - at the beginning. i loved anastasia the movie. however, in this vid...weird guy with weird eyebrows...
old, old, super old song (what is this, new to old) by 2 of our mediacorp (then TCS) artists. i don't even know who the girl is. but all of us know the guy. i can play this song on the piano. and i WILL master it on the guitar.
the guy looks so fierce. he's better looking now lol.
Sunday, August 27, 2006
270th post. and lots more to come.
was watching service online a few moments ago. inter-esting. guess what pastor was talking about today?
the beautiful thing about SEX.
no details. this will be discussed face to face among us.
hahaha. but this is so hilarious.
men, you can start rejoicing. women, get ready.
and reading the book of the song of solomon, especially chapter 4 or 7.
apparently the most erotic book in the bible (not my words!)
some of you here may be looking at my blog in astonishment, you know, the wide eyes, gaping mouth....hey, it's true. go to cityharvest.com to watch the marriage seminars.
yesterday's service was on PILs, and that was funny too.
in fact, the bible makes it VERY clear on sex between couples, adultery and fornication.
so actually, this marriage workshop has been asn eye-opener for not just me, i'm sure but many, many other people.
countdown to prelims: 3 days for english (not that this matters) and a couple more weeks to the rest (now this matters).
countdown to end of o' levels (which is on november 16, FYI): 81 days, roughly 3 months.
current mental state: screw the prelims.
predicted mental state after prelims: shit.
plan/action now: what study? it's nearly lunchtime. shuuddddaap.
and i actually want to score A1s for my maths and sciences, at least A for english, at least B for humanities and i don't give a hoot about chinese unless my some work of miracle i get an A and it affects my L1R5/L1R4
honestly i've been going around talking about tourism and how i WILL go to poly but now with the exams that close, i'm having second thoughts.
i don't want to spend 3 years doing something and then work in that sector and find out how much i hate it (cos that always happens to me) and then waste my time and then get to university only to choose another course and probably waste another 4-5 years on it (luckily i don't have to go NS or this post will be longer than it already is).
nooooo...stop complaining.
okay.
the world is beautiful.
you know having the exams so near puts me in another light. i'm actully graduating soon.
and the whole graduation song plays in the background and people are crying and running around hugging everyone and...
haha.
talk about remembering, i have a lot to say. but no time. so i leave you with this song...guess what song it is?
Graduation(Friends Forever) by Vitamin C
And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives Where we're gonna be when we turn 25 I keep thinking times will never change Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back No more hanging out cause we're on a different track And if you got something that you need to say You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down These memories are playing like a film without sound And I keep thinking of that night in June I didn't know much of love But it came too soon
And there was me and you And then we got real cool Stay at home talking on the telephone with me We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair And this is how it feels
1 - As we go on We remember All the times we Had together And as our lives change Come whatever We will still be Friends Forever
So if we get the big jobs And we make the big money When we look back now Will our jokes still be funny? Will we still remember everything we learned in school? Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man? Can we ever find a job that won't interfere with a tan? I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye Keep on thinking it's a time to fly And this is how it feels
Repeat 1
i'll miss secondary school life.
Saturday, August 19, 2006
okay. planetshakers ultraviolet party. a big, huge, fun thing which happened....last week. right. last saturday.
so shoot me for not blogging about it. i forgot. lol. and i don't go online on weekdays, except friday, which shouldn't be called a weekday. but whatever.
it was a last minute plan which cost me an angry dad, not that i care. henzy told me about it nearly a month ago, and i, worry bro, kinda forgot about it. but i DID want to go. heh.
so, innocently (waha. overstatement, i know) little me, walking to hall 8 for service from hall 4A (library sale. you can't get me away from books. especially when it is a SALE), when i saw that blue (i think so) gigantic advertisement about it.
was checking out the date when i realized, hey it's....today!
!$%#%^%!#!
called henzy immediately...(fast forward)...and called my dad blah blah blah (concerts end late, of course he was angry) and so i ended up at the max pavillion for (wooo hooo) a great time of praise and worship!
to go into details would mean i have to stay online for another half an hr, but in half an hours' time i'm meeting the cg.
and i haven't changed....
well i defintely had fun, anyway. that's the most important thing.
and now i leave you with two of my favourite songs.
Going Crazy by Natalie
great vocals. i love this song. and i love the ending. she sings that her guy is gone, and he told her (on TV!) that he'd be home soon! ain't it sweet?
Almost Here by Brian McFadden and Delta Goodram
this song is so sad. lol. but it's really great, lovely lyrics. that's why i put them in. brian mcfadden from westlife. i used to love westlife a lot.
Boy: Did I hear you right 'cause I thought you said Let's think it over You have been my life And I never planned Growing old without you
Shadows bleeding through the light Where the love once shined so bright Came without a reason Don't let go on us tonight Love's not always black and white Haven't I always loved you?
Girl: But when I need you You're almost here And I know that's not enough And when I'm with you I'm close to tears 'cause your only almost here
Boy: I would change the world If I had a chance Oh won't you let me Treat me like a child Throw your arms around me Oh please protect me
Girl and Boy: Bruised and battered by your words Dazed and shattered how it hurts Boy: Haven't I always loved you
Girl: But when I need you You're almost here And I know that's not enough And when I'm with you I'm close to tears 'cause your only almost here
Girl and Boy: Bruised and battered by your words Dazed and shattered now it hurts Boy: Haven't I always loved you
Girl: But when I need you You're almost here (Well I never knew how far behind i?d left you) Girl: And when I hold you your almost here (Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted) Girl and Boy: And now I'm with you I'm close to tears Boy: 'cause I know I'm almost here Together: Only almost here
pretty, lovely songs, hmm?
Sunday, August 13, 2006
yesterday was a great day!
went out, early and bright, to a ballroom somewhere in raffles city (at the hotel there) for a tourism seminar. with kim teck, samuel, yu tong, wei cai and desmond.
wasn't bad, not at all. in fact, i am now even more determined to go into the tourism sector.
the guy (don't know what's his name, sorry sir) from Sands, who won the Marina IR project, came and talked to us with slides from the presentation they presented to the government. imagine! and WHOAH Marina Bay Sands is cool. you should have seen the pictures. won't tell much, since it's very troublesome and you'll find out in 2009 or sometimes there.
people from PATA, STB came and spoke too. and oh, a person from at-sunrice too.
overall, i am thoroughly convinced tourism is THE one for me.
lol pastor just said something funny (watching service online).
by the way, watch the marriage sermons. you're not married but you'll find out a lot about marriage.
after going for the seminar, we went to marina square foodcourt to eat lunch. love the lemon fish. i don't know what fish but it's nice.
then went to the arcade to watch weicai (hahaha) and desmond pit their driving skills against each other. weicai kept losing, i gave up rooting for him. lol.
after that went for service. sorry for making you, jy, wait but the walk from marina square to citylink mall to city hall MRT took longer then i thought. heh.
spent time at that national library sale. staring at the long queue, thoughts of mountains of books waiting to be read, sitting in my room immersed in books of mystery and love with a lovely cup of honey by my side flew out of my head.
settled on reading a Fearless book. nearly finished it, in 45 min (somebody was so shocked) but winnie called and i had to drop it. oh well. i could guess the ending already, since i read enough Fearless book.
BY THE WAY, JY, i am NOT scary. my specs are thick and my english grade good because of years and years of reading and reading. back in primary school and up to about secondary 2 i read like a pig who loves eating.
practice makes perfect, heard of it? want to read like me? sure. read 24/7. i used to stay up at night just to complete reading a book which i jut HAD to know the ending. one example: Harry Potter.
btw pastor's wearing the same shirt from yesterday, just that today's shirt is black and yesterday's orange.
wahaha pastor's so funny!!!
sorry. back to reading.
honestly i don't mind my specs cus i got good things out of it. people used to say, you rewad so fast, how can you get the gist?
but after all this years of reading, i've learnt where are the irrelevant parts of a story where you can just skim over and laugh about and where are the parts to pay attention. you'll learn how to pick up all the key points/words too.
the only thing i don't understand is WHY my summary is this bad.
i actually practice summary you know. really practice it. cos my summary's the one always dragging me down.
somehow i always fail summary.
luckily chinese doesn't have summary writing. i will DIE instantly.
this marriage seminar is really good.
Mark 12:30 And you shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your mind and with all your strength.
success! for somebody who can't memorise stuff, this is good!
the role of the wife: helper.
the role of the husband: leader.
i need those sermon outlines. i hate my printer.
no. i don't hate it. i immensely dislike it!
I Wish I Was A Punk Rocker by Sandi Thom
Friday, August 11, 2006
I PASS MY CHINESE 'O' LEVELS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
that's all. haha.
hanging out at rach's now.
you know, yesterday i took a walk down memory lane to about 2-3 years ago
dug out all my old stuff that i kept from that time, including the whole stack of neoprints i took.
i don't think anyone has this much neoprints. or any couple, in this case.
and then i found it.
actually i totally forgot about it, since i never wore them. i used to hate it.
but now i like it a lot. just mine though. not the other one.
wearing it right now. can see it glinting. lol.
haha.
it was the best and the worst time of my life, those years.
i was a devil in an angel's disguise.
it was that bad, yes.
i'm waiting for those neoprints, JY, you were supposed to email them to me!
crazy neoprint addiction...
i want to go shopping.
and i want ***
Thursday, August 10, 2006
well hello.
it would have been a perfect day, if i didn't have to lie about it. oh well. give and take. heh.
anyway, since it's on my blog now and the chances of my blog being read by my parents (or just my mum actually) is zilch, so, i can fire away.
went to causeway point today and watched Click, with james, jin yu and weijian.
i didn't want to go out at first, today, but now i feel that LUCKY i went out today.
Click is a VERY good movie. VERY. won't spoil it though, but i tell you it was worth watching. it looks like some of those stupid just-for-laughs movie, which i thought it was, but it isn't.
dang just go watch it. i can't tell you how fabulous it is without spoiling the surprise element.
oops. i just said it.
he he he.
before the movie we hung around causeway for about an hour...and i saw IT..
yes, it, a new item which i WILL be adding onto my wishlist.
it's soooooo pretty!
my black tube-with-butterfly-detail dress, one day i WILL own you!
and i saw what i finally been finding, that half cardigan with long sleeves, at 77th street. hmm.
anyway, i didn't know guys like taking photos. i don't know about other guys, but james, weijian and jin yu sure doesn't mind. lol.
we look a little like the black eyed peas kind, just that i can't sing as well and fergie(whatever her name is), of course.
reminds me of the good times long long ago.
i'll scan the prints up, someday.
neoprints cheat your feelings.
they make you look nicer then you really are.
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
he's online.
freaky, isn't it?
after what my friend told me last night, i was like forget it.
but i don't understand it.
how can anyone look that...different?
it's like, perfect man.
nevermind.
Thursday, August 03, 2006
this is a nice song. yellow. i don't know why it's called yellow. but sure is sweet.
i want to swim.
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
Yellow by Coldplay/Tanya Chua Look at the stars, Look how they shine for you, And everything you do, Yeah they were all yellow,
I came along I wrote a song for you And all the things you do And it was called yellow
So then I took my turn Oh all the things I've done And it was all yellow
Your skin Oh yeah your skin and bones Turn into something beautiful D'you know you know I love you so You know I love you so
I swam across I jumped across for you Oh what a thing to do Cause you were all yellow
I drew a line I drew a line for you Oh all the things you do And it was all yellow
Your skin Oh yeah your skin and bones Turn into something beautiful D'you know for you I bleed myself dry For you I bleed myself dry
Its true look how they shine for you look how they shine for you look how they shine for you look how they shine for you look how they shine for you look how they shine look at the stars look how they shine for you.
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
okay.
in a nutshell, i watched 2 movies twice (pirates & superman, hope my parents aren't reading my blog they will KILL me), relatives from USA are here and i'm not exactly enjoying that (the very reason for my MSN nick, hope they don't read my blog either), school = tests + tests + tests + homework, painted an office black without a single drop of paint on me (i hit other people. accidentally. sorry veggie. and the rest of the people i dripped black paint on. and white, for the shirts. lol.), silkscreened my own Trybe shirt (what a disaster...), saw deliverance for the first time (i don't know what to say for this) aaaaaaaaaaand...that's all.
i watched pirates of the caribbean 2: dead's man chest with james jin yu weijian. and i rate it..3/5. 1 extra star for orlando bloom. stupid, long, draggy movie. luckily the grand cathay has grand seats so that your butt wouldn't hurt that much after sitting for 2hr+. that was 2 saturdays ago.
i went to watch again, the nest day, with my dad and bro. i couldn't exactly say no, right? nearly fell asleep watching the same thing over. doesn't hurt watching orlando bloom again, though.
*sheespish smile* sorry but i still prefer orlando bloom to sexy johnny depp. captain jack sparrow has too many admirers. he doesn't anymore. loved the part hwere he was flirting with elizabeth though. soooo funny.
and superman, you guys knew i watched it during youth day long ago. watched it AGAIN, with my family, at the omni-max theatre. last sunday. i must say, it's a different experience. pretty cool. catch a movie at the omni-max theatre if you can.
and my mom came back from m'sia some time last week. what a relief. the house was getting disorganized. lol.
and my cousins just came in from m'sia last sunday. they're so....ang moh...kinda irritating. not the accent. the attitude. why did i have to have a "hipstah" for a cousin?
the sisters are pretty okay. well anyway. i'm sure we'll get along. i plan to make them my good buddies. and succeed, too.
school? what else? don't talk about it.
what's Trybe, you ask? well TU changed their name, not offically i think, to Trybe and had new logo and shirts and stuff. that's why i was painting the office over with black so that artist Trase can go do his stuff on the wall. lol. can't wait to see how it turns out.
i love meeting new people. and i love that prata shop in tampines.
maybe i should go live in tampines. savvy? (too much pirates. lol. thanks a lot though, henzy, for the pirates influence.)
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
hey babes and hunks. sorry for the lack of updates, leaving you stuck with orlando bloom's photo and paris hilton's stupid song. this is dues to a technical fault of my computer. but somehow my brother can use the computer.
which is why i'm blogging from his account and trying to do CME homework.
what a day.
don't have time to blog though. said i'd let my bro use.
when i get my laptop.....
*saunters away*
Sunday, July 16, 2006
Praise the Lord.
yesterday, 2 great things happened.
1. Thumbs Up @ Yuan Ching Sec Sch
2. City Harvest Church saturday service.
woke up early just so that i could bathe. for a long, long time i hadn't bathe in the morning.
very, very refreshing. but cold. even though i used hot water.
i was still late for meeting henzy and jasper at BB mrt though. i really have to get that punctuality thing up and about.
jasper seems to be a big punctuality guy. i hope he doesn't see this. jasper, please, when you go to henzy's blog, don't click on the links and find my name on it.
Yuan Ching is one dynaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaamic school. i mean D-Y-N-A-M-I-C. you won't understand what i mean until you're there. that's why they tired henzy out, if you read his blog. i got 1E3 and two coolest lead facilitators - benjamin aaaannnnnnd..jovita!
i don't know if i spelled that right.
nevermind. jovita's indonesian, and she's freally great. she covered all sorts of stuff on being the best you YOU can be. and benjamin wowed all the kids there.
yes. look and them and i feel so old.
and there were fruits for recess! usually halfway through the run we have a break for the kids, and Yuan Ching apparently provided food for the facilitators. from what i heard from dy, one of the TU guys, YCSS is the only school which provides food.
or something like that. don't really remember.
well anyway, after the run a bunch of us went down to town for lunch at takashimaya basement.
you know, for 3 days since thursday i hadn't had a proper lunch. i was fasting on thursday, and on friday there just wasn't time, and yesterday, breaktime was at 1030 and lunch at 330. lol.
so at takashimaya i had yong tau foo, 6 items with that funny yellow noodle thingie..usually, as you guys know, i won't be able to finish it and probably leave a whole bunch of noodles floating in the bowl of soup.
finished it. cleaned it. except for the soup. i still want my hair.
you can imagine how hungry i was. and i had been craving for mian tang(noodles soup in chinese, just soup and noodles) for the whole week.
however, i eat very slowly, as you all know too, and so to finish that bowl of noodles to took a looooong time.
thus, for the first time in my life i was late for service!!!!!!!! =(
BUT i did make it. spent a little time searcing for the cell (kinda embarressing walking around when people are praising). but lucky jeremiah spotted me and "saved" me. heh.
faith = revelation + personal conviction + action
listening to sunday service online.
hmm. my blog it getting boring.
let's do something fun!
Min's List of 5 Hottest Guys (to her) In A Specific Movie NOTE: to HER 5. Soler they're twins. i know they're not in any movie. BUT they're really hot! they have mixed blood. eurasian and a whole lot of other kinds of blood. and they're really good singers too. Soler scores 7/10.
4. Robert Pattinson Cedric Diggory in Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. he stole Harry's love, apparently. and he died in HPATGOF! =( i cried when watching the movie, too. Robert Pattinson scores 8/10.
3. Chad Michael Murray woooo. i can melt. he acted in A Cinderella Story together with Hillary Duff. they're a cute couple together. and he looked great in a "prince" suit! Chad Michael Murray scores 8/10
2. Sean Biggerstaff this guy got me hooked onto HP. acting as Oliver Wood, the Gryffindor Quidditch Captain in HP 1, Sean Biggerstaff can shiver me timbers whenever he wants. he scores 8.5/10!
and now...
1. Orlando Bloom HOTTIE ALERT! Orlando Bloom in LOTR, as the handsome arrow-shooting elf, Legolas Greenleaf. sorry to all the LOTR fans but the reason i wanted to watch LOTR is because of Orlando. that goes for Pirates of the Carribean too. hmm. yes. Orlando Bloom in POTC as Will. here. looks a lot more mature doesn't he? of course, being the top hottie, he scores 10/10!
doesn't anyone of you wonder why there isn't a 9/10 ?
heh.
here's a nice song. i know, WHAT, PARIS HILTON, NICE?? but really this song is nice!
just that the mtv is kinda slutty. but just listen to the song.
Stars Are Blind by Paris Hilton Just hanging here with you Cuz I don't find too many guys That treat me like you do Those other guys all wanna take me for a ride But when I walk their talk is suicide Some people never get beyond their stupid pride But you can see the real me inside And I'm satisfied, oh no, ohh
Even though the gods are crazy Even though the stars are blind If you show me real love baby I'll show you mine
I can make you nice and naughty Be the devil and angel too Got a heart and soul and body Let's see what this love can do Baby i'm perfect for you
My love, ohh oh
I could be your confidante Just one of your girlfriends But I know that love's what you want If tomorrow the world ends Why shouldn't we be with the one we really love? Now tell me who have you been dreaming of At night at home? oh no, ohh
Even though the gods are crazy Even though the stars are blind If you show me real love baby I'll show you mine
I can make you nice and naughty Be the devil and angel too Got a heart and soul and body Let's see what this love can do Baby i'm perfect for you
Excuse me for feeling This moment is critical Might be me feeling It could get physical, oh no, no no
Even though the gods are crazy Even though the stars are blind If you show me real love baby I'll show you mine
I can make you nice and naughty Be the devil and angel too Got a heart and soul and body Let's see what this love can do Let's see what this love can do Baby I'm perfect for you
Baby I'm perfect for you
Even though the gods are crazy
Even though the stars are blind
Even though the gods are crazy
like i said...if you show me love of baby i'll show you miiiiiiiiiiineee...
