i'm so sick of having so many things stuck in my head but unable to tell anyone cuz i have no idea how to put everything into words.
so many things going on.
my mom's listening to 97.2 FM while she irons, and even though i have my headphones on listening to the cranberries crooning, i could clearing hear the song blaring out, as if it is right beside my ears.
ever since i knew how to appreciate music, songs have a very big impact on me. it is currently the only thing which can make me emotional without actually saying anything (it's a SONG, see?).
so anyway, the song (in chinese) went: "you're just too soft, just too soft. you hide everything hurtful inside you. you put on a strong front and..."
memory fails me here. anyway it's not very easy to translate chinese into english.
Sidetrack: guess what chinese song it is. hahaha.
yea and the song totally describes me. and i don't wanna put on a strong front anymore.
i mean, yea, everything is going on perfectly for me. everything. you name it, it's good.
just that slight problem which can cause huge catastrophies (hope i got that spelled right).
oh bull shit, it's not like anyone will understand anyway.
damn you, damn you, damn you, damn you.
everyone was right. i should have listened to them.
if you realised, there's actually a pattern, like a polymer and i'm just one of those damned monomers.
dang, you didn't even learn organic chemistry and if you did you would have forgotten by now.
why did you have to lie to me?
i have a reason for saying all guys are jerks you know. do all of you think i just like to say it?
all the guys i've met are jerks! one after another.
you think i like having such a past behind me? there's a reason behind it.
everytime i try to convince myself that it's just one guy in the whole billion of the world population, but everyone of you are the same.
i wonder who will be the next monomer.
this wasn't meant to be, hasn't meant to be and will never mean to be.
when you're gone..
but you'll sleep forever now
and i am waiting for you
