it feels really horrible, when you've got so much to blog and you can't write it out cos you can't and you don't want to anyway but yet you want to but it'll create a catastrophie and i don't know whether i spelled that correctly anyway BUGGER forget it.

i'm going to TP tomorrow, for that TP rawks thing. this trip will determine whether i am willing to make that sacrifice every day for 3 years.

yes, i have been going down to the east for 1 year already. but on a weekly basis.

whether i can take it if i'm going everyday will be a different story.

so many people got jobs since i came back from malaysia. i've been stoning a lot.

feel so unproductive.

WHAT'S THIS. I NEED A BREAK. I'M GETTING A BREAK. IT'S OKAY TO BE RESTING!

yes it is. lol. nevermind. tomorrow i'll be getting some exercise.

you better get online quick, i need to ask you how to get to TP!

i love this song. used to, anyway. i love this guy. i love his sister too! lol. natasha and Unwritten. well enjoy people.

the video suck, if you ask me, actually.

If You're Not The One
by Daniel Bedingfield

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms