happy?

sad.

happy?

sad.

happy?

sad.

final conclusion?

sad.

yes?

no

yes?

no

final conclusion?

no

had english today.

don't wanna talk about it.

don't wanna talk about anything.

just so depressed

i mean, it wasn't my fault right? i didn't want to.

or maybe it is.

its just that i didn't know what i was doing and now i totally regretted everything and i can't do ANYTHING about it can't do ANYTHING to stop it and i just wanna curl up and hide from all the things in this huge endless cruel world that we live in and the thunder is rolling and lightning striking and i'm going totally out of point.

yea.

and they aren't much help i mean how could anybody be so mean even if you don't like the person you don't have to be so mean it hurted you know? yea it hurted when i found out the truth. and still you wanna lie and cheat me. and behind i'm don't know how much has been going on and i am such a total idiot.

and nobody really cares not even he does cos i can totally count the number of messages i got from him this week with my ten fingers and its getting worse and worse and i wondered if i should even have made that dammit suggestion to call her that night and i would have never known you and i would never known them and i wouldn't have been such a mess.

and i shouldn't have agreed. agreed everything. right from the beginning.

my fault my fault and mine alone.

and to make EVERYTHING ELSE WORSE **** totally do not know i exist at all.

and i'm still short

and exams are here

and i just don't wanna live anymore.

so the exams are here.

well not exactly. english paper this friday. it end exactly one week later with chemistry on friday.

and guess what?

I WON'T LIVE THROUGH THIS EXAM WITHOUT FAILING!!!

haix.

oh well. the four of us are such a laughy bunch. we should call ourselves the crazed.

i hate maths

bought an OP skirt. although i did say OP is an everybody brand and blahah blah yadda dadda but i still went against my word

well toodles. gonna go study. and i don't think i'll be posting until next friday.

or maybe not.

ahaha.

finally finished the SS project.

right girls?

erm. i think so lah.

had to go home today to get some stuff before going back to school. and along the way back to school (i walked) and i saw this bus ad.

i've seen it plenty of times but didn't really noticed it. so i took a real long hard look at it today.

it's the one about Dove body shampoo. about imperfections in some women. like whether they look like a guy or whether their chest is too big or too small.

about the too small one. there was two options : flat or flattering.

so for those peeps who think they have a flat chest, lets put it this way. you have a flattering chest.

LOL. i KNOW what you are thinking xinfang!

if i remember i'll tell you tomorrow. *winks*

and here's a website for you guys to peep. its pretty interesting.
Spot The Difference:
http://members.home.nl/saen/Special/Zoeken.swf
Can you spot the difference? click on the link to see!

and...

oh well. that is reserved for the next post. =)

bye bye!

and remember, min loves you! (taken from a TV show, guess guess!)

TINKY WINKY!

DIPSY!

LALA!

PO!

TELETUBBIES!

TELETUBBIES!

SAY HELLO!

EH-OH!!

just reminiscing old times.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAIKEE!!
HAPPY BELATED TO DARLING XINFANG!!! (the reason for the darling is because i forgot it was your birthday and didn't post it up on 14 sept til today XD)
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MINISTOR MENTOR LEE KUAN YEW!!! (lol it was yesterday. so cute right? heard it over the news.)

i don't think i've missed out any...

ok. went swimming with mummy fengru.

now i've got 3 tones of brown on my skin. first my bikini tan. then my one-piece tan.

no peeling skin this time. i took precautions.

argh. addicted to sims 2. again.

i so love marching. have you seen how the band is marching now? see it when the exams are over. haha

can't wait!!! first time i can't wait for something regarding band!!

outta here. sims 2. =P

gonna make this short.

1.presented for that ******** SS project. ( i don't feel like swearing today, haha.) lijie you were great, really! =)

2.spent 2hr+(i think) in jurong point. only 1 person knew what the heck i was doing there. right? *winks*

eh. maybe two.

3.****** gas finished when i was smack in the middle of cooking!!! had to wait for more than half an hour for that guy-with-the-gas-cylinders. and when he came up he was like mumble grumble mumble.....grumble mumble grumble...

HELLO??? whatever happened to you is totally YOUR PREROGATIVE. so not my problem.

4.falling asleep. so, ciao!

the trouble with love is....

there is such a song. love. a big word with plenty of trouble.

i always see many i-love-you-dear on msn nicknames

and many of those i-can't-live-without-you-can't-breathe-without-you those kind of nicknames.

so let's come to the big question. is people of our age, i.e. 13-17, suitable for relationships?

i left out 18 cos i think 18 is counted suitable. since the government thinks pretty high of them (you know, M18). and NC16 isn't valid at all cos even PG movies have "na bei" in them (watch One More Chance by Jack Neo. count the number of times nabei was mentioned).

maybe we should wait and see instead of getting into BGR now.

then again. getting into BGR earlier increases your expriences with heartburn and all that.

so we're stuck in the BGR dilemma.

i don't wanna hurt you, you don't wanna hurt me, i can't stand you, and you can't stand me...

i won't be there by simple plan. as you've guessed i'm listening to music.

i wanna play sims 2!

MY RESOLUTIONS
I WILL
-PASS EVERY SUBJECT
-PAY ATTENTION IN CLASS
-IMPROVE ADDITIONAL MATHS(need help ! yelp!)
-DO NOT SLEEP IN CLASS
-IMPROVE HUMANITIES
-go disneyland haha! just kidding.

i'm so gonna be emptied this week.

went to the national library. the new one.

its really boring. nice, but boring. expensive looking, but boring. to me, i guess.

and its near bugis. for peeps who wana go. mrt bugis. its just beside bugis junction.

boring boring day.

i hate HATE social studies.

been skipping posts recently. gonna become a habit soon

this song is so cute. i don't know what song it is, but its from a movie called spirited away. whatever it is.

on wednesday. some people came over to "repair" the windows. you know, those casement windows thingie that the government has been harping around about.

made such a mess. had to spend the whole day cleaning up. lucky my mom was around, otherwise i would have been totally lost.

on thursday. some peeps came over. no they're not here to fix other things. szehan, angela, lijie, desmond(xin fang's lil bro, though not very little), sebastian(desmond's friend), and farhaan. did i miss out anyone? oh. and xin fang. haha. she was late.

we were SUPPOSED (me szehan lijie xinfang and farhaan) to do out SS project. ended up with only xinfang lijie doing while we played cards.

sorrie babes. hehe. XD

and now i'm stuck at home alone.

and i have exactly 6 days left to squeeze my brain juices dry.

oh, send me a clue! anything!

hey you guys know that dou jiang you tiao song by lin jun jie ritex..

dou jiang=soyabean milk youtiao=youtiao(duno what in english)

so the song says youtiao and soyabean milk is inseparable, only when they are together it tastes good.

i take the youtiao as the hunk and the milk as the babe.

so to eat it you have to dip the youtiao into the milk.

and the youtiao literally sucks up the milk before you eat it.

moral of the story? always be the youtiao. so you won't get eaten up, like themilk gets eaten up by the youtiao.

harharharhar. i'm just bored.

last friday
went out with xf. so funny. we went to this restaurent. and we were like idiots. okay just me lah. fine.

things that happened:we "ordered" ice lemon tea. so "sweet" rite? we missed out the little jug of sugar water. and we didn't even know it was sugar water. lol. and we (okay, xf) asked one of those guys (what are they called?).

he was like, oh, you want another one? "erm, but what is this?" oh, SUGAR WATER. and while we were eating we were like hahahahahahAhahahaHAHAHAHAHAHA! all the time.

went home at 10+. haha. actually wana stay at xf house. SOMEBODY didn't let me. hmpfx!

saturday
not much happened. went ngee ann poly for the wonders of science competition thingie. don't ask. we got merit. you go gurls!

after that was the band's performance at that bball court right outside school. we were TERRIBLE.

sunday
no need to mention. tch!

monday
staying over at xf's house. in the afternoon we had band. after that the class bbq. i spent my time bbq-ing for people. sorry for those who had uncooked food, didn't get their orders. and thank you for the peeps who keep pouring drink after drink after drink for me. i think yutong, lanzi, daniel, xavier, desmond were some of the "few".

finally gave up bbq-ing (i was terrible) and played cards til 11+.

then went to fang fang (muahaha =PpP) house.

then slept at 1+

tuesday(or today)
band at 9. nearly late as we (fang and me) woke up late. i woke up around 6+ but didn't want to move at all. something woke me up, i don't know what. whatever it is, THANK you, cos i'm damn tired now.

had to wear my pumps to school. who called me to be such an idiot who should have wore shoes to the bbq yesterday so that i will have shoes for band today.

those damn heel bite hard. hermione lent me her shoes (finally, relief!) for awhile. so E-M-B-A-R-R-E-S-S-I-N-G.

violence should NEVER be used solve problems. KEEP THAT IN MIND.

well i left out something.

at the performance yesterday a group of sec 5 (i don't know/remember which class) did a little skit, which after that they sang a song called more than words.
and here is it.

More Than Words
by [i don't know]
Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you

More than words

Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you

More than words

yesterday was celebration for teacher's day.

had to dance. actually i knew that i had to dance long ago just that i didn't have time to update this pathetic blog which is just as pathetic as my life.

wore white tee and jeans.

so boring! like everyone else were pretty young ladies and gentlemen and i wore a boring white shirt and jeans!

and it was SO embarressing on stage. its bad enough performing. its even worse when you don't know WHAT TO DO!

anyway after that sh, lj, xf, cy came over. we had a karaoke session. or actually, sh, lj, and me had a karaoke session.

although you might not be seeing this. i'm sorry yea? i just don't know how to tell you that. so hopefully you come online and see this.

crap. you don't even know this blog exists.

and today is teacher's day. school holiday. stuck at home with housework to do. chores chores chores.

i watched anastasia last night.

the 21st century fox version.

its about this royal family of imperial russia, called the Romanovs. during the revolution, the whole family of Romanovs were killed. all. except for one little girl.

lazy to continue. watch it yourself.

in the movie they prounounced paris as par-ree. not like us, we say pa-ris. but par-ree sounds nicer.

i've so many things i wana scream out. but if i do i'll really be in trouble.

scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream

scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream

At The Beginning
from the soundtrack of Anastasia
We were strangers, starting out on a journey
Never dreaming, what we'd have to go through
Now here we are, I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me, I was going to find you
Unexpected, what you did to my heart
When I lost hope
You were there to remind me
This is the start

And life is a road and I wanna keep goin'
Love is a river I wanna keep flowin'
Life is a road now and forever wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I want to be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers, on a crazy adventure
Never dreaming, how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand, unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

And life is a road and I wanna keep goin'
Love is a river I wanna keep flowin'
Life is a road now and forever wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I want to be standing
At the beginning with you
Knew there was somebody somewhere
I need love in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing is going to tear us apart

And life is a road and I wanna keep goin'
Love is a river I wanna keep flowin'
Life is a road now and forever wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I want to be standing
At the beginning with you

Life is a road and I wanna keep goin'
Love is a river I wanna keep goin' on
Starting out on a journey

Life is a road and I want to keep goin
Love is a river I want to keep flowin
In the end I want to be standing
At the beginning
With you