Yeah. It really wasn't my fault!

Kind of an, optical fault.

But I was kind of shocked to find out where I was headed after being so immersed in one of Meg Cabot's novels (borrowed from the school library, it's so new I bet I'm the first to have borrowed them - yes, I'm right, the date here shows that the book was bought a month ago!) and so when I looked up I was like OH MY GOODNESS WHAT AM I DOING HERE OF ALL PLACES.

Well, it was literally and mentally a place which I had use for transition.

And none of you know what I'm going on about anyway.

I just had to blog. Hand and mind itchy.

yes yes. I got a new template.

It's a blogger template. I had fun messing around with the widgets.

Save me so much time.

I'm happy.

But it won't last, yes.

Neh neh neh neh neh neh neh neh neh neh.

So tired. Please stop asking me why I'm not here nor there nor anywhere. I have a lot of things on my mind now.

BUT. With no purpose, I might as well just be a tree.

Oh wait. Even trees have a purpose.

I have a new cordless phone.

I went to Sentosa today with Kelvin Daniel BR Shaun and Shaun's friend.

一个人能够受多少压力呢？

What would it be like to be put through duress. I thought I hit the max during FO, but I'm sure I can go further.

The number of children being killed in a school bus accident is increasing year by year. I'm watching Channel 8 10pm news now.

Super random, Min.

It's the first time I have something in my mind, but I just can't tell anyone at all. I don't know why, but I just can't.

I think I might get sunburnt again. White again. No point leh.

It doesn't work that way, no, it doesn't.

I. Spent. A. Bomb.

I mean, it's not just today. It's the rate that I've been spending. Oh well. Body shop. Haha.

Not funny.

Seriously ah.

I think I must have been concussed or something.

Or maybe blind, not to see the embarrassment that was right in front of me.

This sounds so... cliche. But I can only go now, "HOW STUPID CAN I GET?"

Like, 真的受不了！

好讨厌这些回忆。真希望它们根本没有发生过。

饶了我吧！

好想把去年的事全都忘了。

But I had good memories last year too. Too many.

There was Trybe, and Funkies.

OF course there was school. The essentials of my life in TP. TPSU. HTM. OTC.

Many others.

It'd kill me to forget the whole of last year, actually. Moreover, I will die if I fail RHT again.

-_-

Anyways, here's a song to you. You, who isn't reading this anyway, who never fail to annoy me endlessly (actually a lot of people never fai... nevermind).

It's official.

I'm in love again.

With the hugest thing ever - my school!

When I first stepped into TP as a freshie (just a year ago), I thought, well, I travelled one and a half hours for this, here goes nothing...

And I said, then, I love TP.

Today, I walked up the stairs as a junior, Year 2, and I said, wow, I really love TP.

Except...

THERE'S TONS OF FRESHIES AROUND.

Hello? Dearest GLs, or any other Year 3 students, WERE WE REALLY MILLING AROUND LIKE ANTS WHEN WE WERE YEAR 1?

It's like, one look at them and you know they're year 1 students. They either over dress (cos they think everyone dress damn nice in poly) or they dress like primary school kids (those have no fashion sense at all).

Okay wait let me explain something. Today, Tuesday, was my first day at school as a junior. It wasn't yesterday because I didn't have lectures or tutorials to attend. Moreover I came early today for a non-existent tutorial class.

So yeah, freshies. Not to mention some people, freshies and seniors and fellow juniors alike kept telling me I don't look like me.

What am I supposed to look like? A 24/7 harried-looking, walkie-carrying, waistpouch slung from the shoulders, hair frizzy, FBT shorts-wearing, huge camp shirts?

I don't LIVE in FO, goodness.

Hmm..

So now all that is left.

Hello world! It's a long time since I blogged, almost gave it up.

Here's a summary of what I did for this holiday. Since holidays are ending. In no particular order:

1. Spent a lot of money
2. FO 08/09 (Fyrhtooooooo!!!!!!!!!!)
3. TVC `08
4. Funkies and Trybe friends
5. Lost my voice
6. Lost many things, like pens. During FO, that is.
7. Lost my spirit. Yes.
8. Worked at ComfortDelgro Bus. Good experience, and new friends. Love!
9. Lost and regained a friend.
10. Found an answer to a question I always asked ever since secondary school.
11. Did a lot of self-reflection.
12. Cried enough tears to last for another 18 years
13. Okay this is getting too emo
14. I should end it already.

Okay. So I gave up totally on blogskin-making for nearly a year already, but just now, I think I want to revive it.

Why? Because when I went to blogskins to search for a new skin to use.... they're all so.... cute.

Overly-cute. Kind of, too much?

My skins are only for my own eyes, cos 1) I'm quite lousy at it 2) It's nice to have a change for once.

Speaking of being lousy....

I realised I haven't actually excelled in anything.

I'm serious. Like, truly ever excelled in anything.

No offence to the names I'm about to mention, but I'm just trying to put my point across.

Vivien's got all her event management stuff. JIVE, it's called, right?

BR's got lots! I can't count. From Trybe to SPH and the both of them, Vi and BR, has got pretty good school results too.

Daniel's this pro in every sports he does. I haven't seen any sport he can't do, unless you count para para as a "sport".

Ethan's got his magic skills. They're amazing. Wait til you see him do tricks.

So like, yes, I do a lot of things... here and there... and don't say I have been a HGL, it was a good experience but wasn't exactly a positive one. It would have turned out better if not for myself, though.

When I mean excel, I truly mean excel.

Maybe it was that "talent" thing they were doing that day. Maybe it was how I performed during FO. Maybe it's because I'm too stretched over so many things I cannot excel in anything.

Sean said since he has come TP, his life revolves around TP and the SU friends.

Hmm, I don't know about concentrating on one thing. It doesn't seem to feel right. But maybe that's where it'll start.

I don't know la.... I know I have this defeatist attitude already, but it's my blog, cut me some slack, so that I have heart preparation when school starts.

Actually school started today, but I don't have lessons for today and it seems REALLY POINTLESS to travel one and a half hours to school for a one hour lecture and travel one and a half hours to Clementi to meet the TVC people.

I think one of my greatest (to me, la) achievements is that....

I don't have any lor. So simple.

Oh, well, at least the holidays ended with a bang. I think it's just as nice for holidays to end as well as start.

I'm happy the holidays ended. They were dragging a little too long.

OKAY YES I DIDN'T HAVE A GOOD HOLIDAY. BYE.

Hmmm.

It's 0035 on Day 3 of TP Freshman Orientation Workshop.

The most memorable thing so far is the briefings and debriefings that I have day and night and afternoon and over walkie-talkies.

Tired, but still can go on. (:

Fyrhto is just amazing, superb, splendid, no other words can describe how much I love Fyrhto!

But I still have a lot to improve on myself. Already the 2nd day over, and I've lost count of the mistakes that I have made. Min, please, buckle up!

Improve and move on. Improve and move on. Improve and move on.

Sometimes I feel that people can be so hypocritical.

They say something, but they don't do it.

They do something, and they don't mean it.

They mean something, and they don't say it.

So why?

Why are they like that?

I'm so scared of you, I don't know how to react when you crack a joke.

Please, showering a little TLC won't kill you. It's not just for my sake, it's for everyone's.

But they all say - 他是这样的。

If we can change for you, you can change for us. We can get scolded and change, but so can you.

Eh wait.

HAKIM JUST TOLD ME TO BLOG THAT HE IS DAMN CUTE. SO CUTE.

So ya. Everyone take note. Hakim (FA for Venos) is super walao cute.

Poor Hakim still has to do work at night (morning, actually) when all freshies are home sleeping and GLs resting in sports hall and Min blogging right opposite him. Venos, give him your support :D

So far I don't have time to think at all (except for when I bathe, I think about how much shampoo I'm going to use so that I have enough for all 6 days), therefore I'm pretty good. Nothing for me to react to. Except cheering like xiao zha bor who ALREADY lost her voice.

I love you all.

Can I do something to make me happy, please? Actually I feel a bit sad now. Maybe because I'm tired.

Min's birthday list (as of 9th April)
1. A new bag for going out. *adopts bimbo voice* one of my 92788234 Chanel bags have torn, so I totally need to stock up! Don't you think so?

2. New shoes for camps

3. Mascara. Totally. Mummy is using it up (grrrrr). Check wishlist for details.

4. A new waistpouch because the one that I just got is FREAKING TOO SMALL PLEASE. 讨厌！

5. Uh. I want to play DoTA on my computer. Not just my laptop.

6. The Sims 2 plus ALL THE EXPANSION PACKS there is currently. (This is so easy to fulfil)

7. On my birthday I want to go and sleepover someone's house. Cos it's a FRIDAAAAYYY.

8. A new wireless mouse (A DAMN GOOD NON-CHEENA ONE PLEASE.)

DAMN TIRED CAN'T THINK GOOD NIGHTS.

Shout out to some darlings:

Bingrong, Vivien, Ethan, Thomas, Daniel, you guys, I actually miss you all LIKE SHIT. ):

Really. It was one of the 2 things I NEARLY cried over.

The other thing was because someone scold me. And that is just dumb. WAKE UP THIEW MIN MIN YOU HAVE A RESPONSIBILITY.

My horoscope says (Okay I don't really believe in them but sometimes they are so true) that I should clear up this misunderstanding with that friend and schedule a meeting with that friend.

Firstly -

WHICH FRIEND -_-

Secondly -

If it's THAT friend, no way. I think I gave that friend a lot of fat chances already.

Yeah. I waste my time already can! I mean, sometimes they never really do change. It's not my fault.

And since that friend doesn't read my blog, it's neither one of you (LOL quite common sense) so don't worry.

Thirdly -

I can't think of anyone else whom I need to clear up misunderstandings with.

Fourth -

Screw Friendster's horoscope, I want my snooze.

I had a lot to blog about, but they're all in my mind blog already.

so yah.


ROAR!

如要


讲话


真的


头痛


好想念已前的easyness. Where have it all gone? Just been what, 2 years, or more?

我知道今天的post会让很多人think slantways.

但是其实是一件小事情。

You know?

Of cos you don't know.

There are the full-timers. You know, they are always there, all the time, whenever you need them.

Then there are the part-timers. Not there all the days, but still, pretty good times.

And then there are the temporary staff (temps). They're there for a period of time, and poof, you don't see them until another time.

Full-timers = best friends
Part-timers = friends
Temps = Hi-Bye friends, AKA H-B friends, or for the sake of my fingers, the HBFs.

(Haha, like Head Boy Friend leh. But that's a bit meaningless.)

Oh whoops. I just stopped blogging for a while to read a certain food blog.

So anyway where was I? Oh, HBF.

Many I had, over the years that I started recognising the need of having a friend. Until I got so used to them.

But I do still wonder why such people exist. Like, you used to hang out so much, and it was so fun. And suddenly, everything just stops.

It used to hurt a lot too, but now all I do is just to wonder.

Curious.

March pay should be coming in soon, shopping list is up and ready (:

I wonder if you know what is going on. But you just won't admit it.

OH NO.

My favourite green converse bag tore today at the straps! Damn sad! Had to fix it with plaster.

Went out with Danielle, Rong-er and Vivi (HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH) to Selegie Road to have chicken rice and tau huay.

Went to play DotA too. Terrible. Period.

I have many friends.

I have quite a number of good friends

A limited number of close friends, you know who you are.

But I now know that I have this group I call the temperamental friends, and how much they actually can mean to me.

We don't hang out very often, but when it starts, we hang out forever. But suddenly it stops. And the cycle continue.

But I'll really be upset if one day I find out these T-friends aren't there anymore.

Oh gosh it's just past 2 am. I just feel like blogging, that's all.

It's been a long time since I stayed up so late.

Many people ask me why I want to get involved in SO MANY THINGS.

I don't like still. I may complain that I'm so busy ah so busy ah so busy ah don't disturb me la so busy ah blah blah blah..

But I still like this better than staying at home. Making new friends is so much better than adding people I don't know on friendster.

Although there is the money factor. That's why I so xin ku go and work OT now.

G'nights. I feel the tiredness already.

Go on imeem to listen to the soundtrack of The Leap Years. I have it in my account.

I think I've just used up a box of staplets this week.

In my whole life I've never got past 2 rows of staplets. This time, I have not enough of them. Stapling envolopes to invoices sure takes up a lot of time.

But it's my most favourite thing to do! Better than calling people up and asking this and that. I get to print many things and walk up and down the office photocopying documents and stapling them all and tying everything into a bundle, and that's not all.

I have to make many many bundles! More stapling and photocopying and printing!

I like looking at the paper going in neat and flat into the printer and coming out slightly curled and warm from the machine.

Sorry. But I'm weird, yes.

I hate it when people think that the world revolve around them. Like when they utter a single word, the world changes.

Sorry, darling. The world don't change. YOUR world, life, experience, impression on other people will change.

So they reverse it and they go "I warning you, ah, later I send my blah-ders come find you ah.." and so on.

So do it. Come and get your blah-ders. Don't warn me by saying things like you can but you won't, like you own the world, like the world revolves around you.

Sentosa again this saturday will seriously leave me black. Not dark brown, but black. With peeling skin.

Okay time to wash my dinner dishes. Not to mention my battery's almost flat.

Changed my blog song. As usual, it's a song I heard on the radio (Class 95) while daddy drove me home form work.

NO I'M NOT SOME PRINCESS. Daddy had to work OT too. He works nearby anyway.

My skin is peeling terribly.

My job makes me so sleepy and yet busy. Heck I have to OT.

My back is very itchy because the skin is peeling there too.

When can I have a break? Other than work, FO meetings, there's church. Isn't so bad. There's visitation. Okay. But I have to give tuition too. Grrrrr.

I want to play DOTA. I want to quit my $8/hr job. But they need people. I can't quit FO cos that's just plain dumb, with the camp coming up soon.

I can't drop tuition cos it's just damn terrible.

I can't just not go church, cos it's a lot more than just going church, you know.

About ministry...

Never mind.

So like, I know I said I wasn't going to blog, but after 3 days of working, I think my mind will burst if I don't let some of my thoughts out.





Do you know something about Min?





Everyday, as I go on with normal life, my mind automatically blogs. I think my thoughts writer-style, as if I was really writing a post. So let's share some of my mindposts with you today.

Cute little furball, ain't it?

Walking into office today, I saw this REALLY fat cat. It really had a big huge ass!

Main thing was it was walking as if it were a princess. You know, butt pointed up, shaking left and right as the cat ambled into the office like it was royalty, tail high in the air...

And I thought, man, that cat is sure fat.

So yeah. Haha. A slice of my life.

I love grocery shopping. Have I blog about this before? I think so, but it won't hurt doing so again, because I have a new subject to talk about.

Have you been to Toa Payoh Interchange's NTUC Fairprice? I say, it's HUGE! 2 levels, like Giant, and it stocks like everything from A to XXXXXIII. I mean it!

I was there today after work, buying some groceries for Sentosa tomorrow on (girls cook, guys buy drinks, so yeah) but I kind of got carried away, and spent like 17 bucks on groceries. Had to carry everything home too ):

But it's fun! There's like, a war going on in my head while I walk through aisle after aisle.

(In my head) "Hey! I can make pancakes tomorrow! There's pancake mix! New flavour!"

"Don't be crazy you don't have time! You need to be there at 8.30!"

"Awww...."

"Hey why don't I add lettuce into the sandwiches?"

"WHERE GOT TIME? MAI TU LAAA, PAY MONEY ALREADY!"

And so on.

So that's another part of my life. A teensy part, anyway. It's not everyday, nor week, nor month that I have time to actually do grocery shopping for half an hour.

Anyway, I should get to sleep now. Tomorrow, Bingrong's gonna be here at 6 am. APPARENTLY SO.

No wait, he said trust him. I'll trust him. And er, my alarm clock.

To the Funkadelic ladies going tomorrow (actually only Vivien, Babe and me): HEY SISTAS, SOAK UP THE SUN AND FUN.

To the Funkadelic hunks (Many many): Uh, don't finish off the food too early okay :P

To Thomas: AAAAAH WHY NEVER COME? IKILLU! grrrrrrrrrrr.............

To Min: drink lots of water. Going to Sentosa isn't exactly remedy for ulcers in one's throat.

And I end with this:

NOTHING.

African daisies. These are a lovely bright yellow, but I love the red ones.

Gave mummy one for her birthday about a week ago. Lady at the counter then told me the name of this extraordinary flower. It has stayed in my head ever since.

I remember one going to some nursery back in sec 4 with Lijie and her sisters to buy a bunch to give out as friendship day presents.

I think I must have looked pretty silly to bring a whole bunch of flowers to school to give out and go home with practically nothing.

Okay maybe it wasn't nothing, I just don't remember what I got. But I do remember I got a lot of chocolates from 1H10 this year for V/F day - thanks y'all loves (: And a balloon too.

It has been, what, a month? I've been so busy, time literally dissipated. Evaporated.

Taking vibes at each other isn't working, so I'm going to stop blogging. Maybe until school reopens, when I have some new things to rant about.

Anyway, some updates. Trybe V. Camp committee, Trybe runs and camps, Fyrhto HGL, children church visitation, Easter coming up, working at mummy's office. Emails after emails after calls after smses.

Yes, I'm still going to be busy. But since I don't like the stale life, I don't mind.

Work hard, Thiew Min Min. Make another mistake, and you end up in square one again.

THAT GOES FOR SCHOOL RESULTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (Anyway I passed everything. Everything significant, that is. Year 2, here I come!)

After all that have happened, I know that this is what I want and what I live for.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannnd ACTION! HERE I GO!

为什么要对你掉眼泪？

Another track from Olivia, called Lovers' Tears.

OKAY damn random. What have I been doing recently?

Mahjong. Chalet. Drink a teensy bit. Chalet. Big 2. Mahjong. Mahjong. Mahjong.

I lost money some more. Jia lat. But don't worry there was only ONE ROUND that I played for money. Just for fun.

(Names and situation may be slightly altered to protect the author)
Example 1:

I have this friend. Once I was supposed to meet this friend, but I ended up being late. He was being real sweet about it too!

Because he thought I was late, and therefore rushing for time, he offered to buy me something to eat first and then when we meet up we can eat. Cos he knew that I probably wouldn't have eatened anything.

Example 2:

I was with 2 other friends, out walking around town. Being a lady and all, naturally I walk slower than guys. So they were being nice and all, for my sake, walked slower and even followed my pace.

Little things guys do that girls should appreciate.

And which girls should also reciprocate.

But other guys should probably assimilate.

It's not over yet, this war.

You know what?

I think I'll reply a couple of tags from my tagboard and talk about my DOTA skills in this post.

First time: last year, during a CG outing where some shop had free LAN, so my whole CG was playing DOTA. For free.

Well, I was more like, clicking the mouse with ALL INSTRUCTIONS from my run.

"Click on this." "Choose that one." "NO! RUN AWAY! NOW!"

My second time (wa like first boyfriend second boyfriend like that) was, erm, about a week ago at Thomas's house. He introduced me to Warcraft.

WHICH I IMMENSLY DISLIKE. SO MA FAN.

Afterwhich Daniel, after finding out that he can play DOTA (actually when Thomas transferred the whole file to me I didn't know I had it), takes over my laptop and starts playing.

Of course I demanded it back and also demanded that he, erm, teach me how to play.

Another episode of instructions-only, but this time, I caught it! Well, slightly.

And Daniel was replaced by BR when the guys hooked my laptop up to Thomas' computer so that I can play WITH (thankfully not against) Daniel and whack some, erm, weird-looking-but-totally-whackable things.

And that is the start of my DOTA journey.

Honestly? I can't play for nuts. But it's fun. Hee (:

The End.

Hey hey world.

I know! I haven't been blogging much. Haha! But oh well. Been a bit, erm, busy. I'm serious! But it's busy going out and socialising la. HAHA.

1. Thomas' birthday + stayover (like 3D2N chalet like that)

Enjoyed it a lot! Thanks Thomas for having us over!

2. Spending most of my days with BR, Vivi and Daniel.

You guys cheer me up a lot (: ESPECIALLY BIRD COS YOU KEEP LEMON-ING ME. hahahahahahhaha sorry internal joke.

3. Duties as Fyrhto HGL

HEY FYRHTO I'M SORRY I'M KIND OF ALWAYS NOT THERE! BUT I LOVE YOU GUYS! YOU GUYS WILL SURELY ENJOY FO! :D :D :D

4. CG W450

Another big sorry to my dearest CGmates, cos I know I'm not often there too! But I love you all tooo! Many many! Heh heh!



SO ya all in all that was mostly what I have been involved in.

A bit tired.

Oh, throw in Viwawa. And DOTA. :P My latest obsession.

Bye for now!

It's different, being here again.

Feels that way.

I'm having a spilt headache now, probably because I stayed out these 2 nights.

It's all new, all new to me.

5 am and I haven't slept. I rock. I can't even stay up like this for exams, but all the eye bags for Coffee Prince?

Worth it.

left 4 episodes, though.

Someone. Prove to me that. Coffee Prince do. Happen in real life.

Korean guys. Not cute nor handsome at all.

But charming. Chaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarming.

The needs of a girl.

THE NEEDS OF A GIRL, OKAY.

HOW MANY GUYS OUT THERE KNOW THE NEEDS OF A GIRL? GEEZ! NOT EVEN IN COFFEE PRINCE, A FAKIE, WOULD KNOW THE NEEDS OF A GIRL!

I bet the director was a guy.

I'd like to beat up some people, including one who stays in Yishun.

If you want her to accept you for who you are, accept her for who she is before you open you mouth and talk.

I'm sorry girl. Coffee Prince got me worked up. Now I can't stop.

The needs of a girl. Yeah guys have needs. But it's not our fault if you don't want to tell us about them.

Cos you ain't much of help when we tell you about them!

What's marketing about? The needs and wants of a customer. That's all, big shit.

No guy can understand that. No guy. Need of girl = trouble.

We talk straight, you complain that we are insensitive.

We talk circles, you don't understand at all and you complain that we're insensitive anyway.

Okay, only Daddy. Daddy always knows I need money :D

Happy Leap Year. Watch The Leap Years.

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Coffee Prince.

Coffee Prince.

Coffee princes?

Coffee Prince.

Total addiction. Now I know why people like to watch Korean dramas.

The cutest girls, the weirdest guys.

The craziest stories.

All these stories. All these love.

Can it really happen in real life? Like, would a guy have so much creativity to actually do something like that in real life, or it has been NG-ed by the director countless times?

After exams all I can do is to watch Coffee Prince, go singing with Funkies, spending time with my friends, go get a job, cook dinner, go meetings

and

is that all?

Too many one times, one time too many.

I won't be that stupid little girl who nearly failed secondary 3 again.

Hey look, everything is purple.

Spoiled little brat. Must everyone give you your way. Don't think apologising can get you out of this. I'll make you pay. Oh, guess what, I already did. Grow up, you're taller than me already. Act your age. When I was your age I went shopping in Tampines. You don't even know how to go IMM.

Stupid you for eating my breakfast ):

Yes! Online shopping is what I'm going to spend my time doing during the holidays.

Umm, that is, if I have the time.

My schedule's planned 2 weeks ahead already. I need to run faster to catch up with time.

I wish I had an excuse for everything.

Then I can worm out of things easily.

But that will be a life too boring for me.

See? The battle in my brain.

Anyway, I spent this morning watching Juno.

I meant from 2am to 4 am.

Juno is nice. I regret not watching it on the big screen.

Come on Min. Convince yourself: If everyone followed your way in life, you'd be so bored, you'd order people around just for fun.

No one has to do it your way. No one needs to treat you like some high-and-mighty princess.

The only person who can do that is.... yourself.

SO PLEASE STUDY STUDY DAMN DAMN DAMN HARD SO THAT YOU CAN GET OUT OF POLY WITH PROPER GRADES AND GET HIRED BY SOME HIGH-CLASS COMPANY WHO WILL GIVE YOU LOTS AND LOTS OF MONEY FOR JUST SIGNING SOME PAPERS EVERYDAY AND A BIG FAT BONUS WHEN YOU TAKE A STEP OUT OF OFFICE TO SAY HI TO SOME PEOPLE FROM CHINA AND INDIA AND WITH THE LOTS AND LOTS OF MONEY YOU CAN BUY MUMMY A BIG TERRACE OR BUNGALOW SO THAT SHE CAN HAVE HER DREAM HOUSE AND KITCHEN (which incidentally is what you want too) AND DADDY DON'T HAVE TO GO BACK TO MALAYSIA AND RETIRE LEAVING YOU AND LITTLE BROTHER IN SINGAPORE MAILING MONEY BACK TO THEM EVERY MONTH. YOU CAN SPEND MONEY ON ALL THE LITTLE SHOPS THAT YOU LIKE TO GO SO OFTEN BUT HAVE NO MONEY TO SPEND ON THEM ON ACCOUNT THAT YOU DON'T GET MONEY FROM..errm never mind about this part.. AND DADDY WON'T GIVE YOU LOTS OF MONEY NOW COS YOU'LL SPEND IT LIKE WATER. YOU'LL BE ABLE TO GIVE LITTLE TREATS TO ALL YOUR FRIENDS EVEN THOSE WHO DON'T NEED IT, COS IT'S SOMETHING YOU ALWAYS WANTED TO DO BUT IS UNABLE DUE TO, YES, AGAIN, THE SHORTAGE OF MONEY NOW AND YOU'LL BE ABLE TO SPOIL YOUR COUSINS AND NIECES AND NEPHEWS SILLY AND IF YOU EVER HAD A KID SHE OR HE WILL NEVER BE IN LACK AND HAVE A LOW SELF-ESTEEM BECAUSE HER OR HIS PARENT WOULD NOT BUY HER OR HIM TOYS THAT HER OR HIS FRIENDS HAVE. WITH LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS OF MONEY YOU CAN TREAT YOURSELF LIKE A PRINCESS BECAUSE

NO

ONE

IN

THIS

WORLD

CAN

DO

THAT

EXCEPT

YOU!

Sorry. Rant day. But thank goodness the phone calls have stopped. Or I would have seriously consider "falling down" from the flight of stars outside my house to break my ankle or something and get admitted into hospital and I won't have to take OB and marketing too and NO ONE WILL BE ABLE TO CONTACT ME cos I'll be in too much pain to remember to bring my handphone to the hospital.

Oh and I can "forget" to tell mommy to bring it for me too.

OH WAIT, I know I know! Since I sound so darn crazy on my blog post already, I'll just pretend that I'm mentally unsound! They'll send me to IMH! I won't have to take OB and Marketing! And no one would call me to ask me to do something, because I'm mentally unsound!

No wait, I don't have time for that..

Normal teenagers revel their handphones.

I freak out whenever mine rings.

Guess what, I'm unique!

Kudos to you if you finished this blog post, including that chunk of words there, because after I read it through I'm totally inclined to send myself to IMH.

One more thing. If you want to talk about me like that in your blog, Jeremy Ho, be a man and put my name in.

I feel like shopping online. Looking at all the pretty clothes and bags, I want to splurge on them.

Okay.

Yeah I think a lot. I like to think, actually. I'm not as bimbotic (ho ho ho) as what some people think I am.

I'm watching duo mao mao on channel U as I think.

It's not your fault, it's not anyone's fault. I just like to think that, sometimes....

I don't know what I'm doing all these for.

Everything. From the waking up to the turning on of the heater switch in my kitchen to charging my handphone everytime to smsing so much....

There goes my phone. Ringing again. Leave me alone for a while, won't you all?

I hate muting my phone when it rings, but it's that or hanging up on people, which I find totally stupid. Because that will make the person call again, and that totally defeats the purpose.

What am I blathering about. Out of point.

(Anyway, take a hint: when I don't pick up, sms me la! DON'T CALL AGAIN -_-''')

Oh wait, this show is damn funny. I can't believe the celebs actually tricked the kid out by telling him the show is over.

So funny. It actually takes things off off my mind.

Oh no, that won't work. The stuff still exist.

So where was I? Oh, I was saying I don't know really what I'm doing everything for.

To live? Cool. I should live more glamorously.

Heh heh heh.... 可能太现实了吧。

DON'T call. My. Phone. Yes there went another one.

10 seconds left for 躲猫猫!

Oh there it goes. 五月天输了！这样容易都找不到！

Sighs. Here I go.

And you're probably right too. I'm irresponsible, unaccountable, inwhateverable, unyaddayaddable.

Like, do you think I'm STUPID or what? Sorry to say this, yes, you have a shitload of responsibilities there, and SO DO I.

Also, I started out longer than you did, in terms of this responsiblity thing, not that I'm holding anything against you. But just watch how you say things to me.

I know you are busy, but you don't really know how I feel. Cos different people have different ways of reacting to being busy. You have no right telling me to stop thinking that I'm the most busiest person in the world and blah blah blah.

Because, number 1, I do not think that way, and number 2, you think like that too. Sub-consciously.

(Actually, that part contained a lot of expletives. I have to restrain myself a little.)

(Actually, again, expletives are quite fun. That is, when you hear the way people use them. Especially people, okay, guys, in lounge who are playing fooseball. I get a stitch at my side laughing at them curse at that pink little ball. Or their opponents. Or the plastic men attached to the handles.)

Where was I? Oh.

Sighs. I don't know about this, but you're going overboard. Maybe I am too.

Actually I'm very guilty about this. I mean, about everything I said. I know I can be really harsh.

I need a break. So do everyone else.

It could be OB and marketing's fault, ha ha.

But you know, wanting to care about people can be done in more efficient ways.

Countdown to Micro: 2 and a 1/2 hours.

Current no. of study hours: 15 (not a lot huh)

I wanted to blog, because of, yes,

SINGAPORE WON THE BID TO HOST THE 2010 YOUTH OLYMPICS!

This is gonna sound so bimbo, but up to this year, I never knew there was such a thing as the Youth Olympics (see how much I love sports?), but when Daddy told me about it, I was all, yeah, whatever, leave it to the kids in Woodlands (Sports school in Woodlands, if you didn't know) to bother about it.

Until he said it was either Singapore or Moscow, and I got slightly interested, because Singapore being a new country and all and haven't hosted much except the SEA games, to my knowledge. In terms of sports, that is.

Well I feel very happy. Read today's Straits Times, the article is smack on the front page. Wonderful.

And actually, I don't have a lot to say except..... THOSE IN THE TOURISM INDUSTRY AH, GET READY, YOU GOT 2 YEARS TO PREPARE!

Including me, cos, I graduate in 2 years.

I got a little tired of posting Olivia's songs on my blog one by one.

So I put up the whole playlist instead! :D :D :D


I don't think I'll ever get sick of listening to her songs over and over again. Heh.

Upcoming -

1. Micro exam this friday

2. OB next monday

3. Marketing (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) next wednesday!

All major papers! Except for micro, I have a very high chance to fail the other two papers. TOUCH WOOD.


But really.


So I must really study! I studied marketing yesterday. (Just for records - take note study hours: 7 hrs)


And today I'll continue with marketing. I CANNOT fail marketing. Not even if you give me a million bucks to fail marketing.


Hmm, wait. Maybe I will fail marketing if you gave me a million bucks. Cos I don't have to work anymore. I'd just quit school.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

Okay, I'm fully addicted to Olivia and this album.

First Of May - Olivia

When I was small, and christmas trees were tall,
We used to love while others used to play.
Dont ask me why, but time has passed us by,
Some one else moved in from far away.

Now we are tall, and christmas trees are small,
And you don't ask the time of day.
But you and I, our love will never die,
But guess we'll cry come first of may.

The apple tree that grew for you and me,
I watched the apples falling one by one.
And I recall the moment of them all,
The day I kissed your cheek and you were mine.

(chorus...)

When I was small, and christmas trees were tall,
Do do do do do do do do do...
Dont ask me why, but time has passed us by,
Some one else moved in from far away.

Sweet little song, ain't it?

Stayed at home the whole day, I finally have a day to rest before I start mugging shit.

It's more like, I wished you'd ask for a change.

I know what I want. It's more of putting it across.

Going for a Trybe camp this weekend, at Vision Farm.

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No. That's all I have to say.

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Bought her album on wednesday. Love her voice. Beautiful. Olivia, with Sometimes When We Touch.

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
Id rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
In what you say or do
Im only just beginning
To see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I want to hold you till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through all the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
Im just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I want to hold you till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

I remember this song from yesteryears! This one was of the favourites of my mom when she sang karaoke.

I heard this song while passing by a store in MS, I was seriously drawn into the shop by it.

Bought it with little hesitation. Ask Bingrong. He was laughing at me.

You may not like that fact that she is singing songs that other people came up with and sang, no originality and blah blah blah....

But I like her voice. So screw it. Stop arguing with me. Stop it. I hate it. Your pride knows no limits.

WOOT I'm back. Ok. Obviously!

I was totally bombarded by the slew of moblog messages from my dearest cell group members the moment I switched on my handphone while crossing Singapore Immigration. Goodness.

In a nutshell, I shopped, ate, shopped, slept, ate, took care of little babies and kids, ate, snacked, slept, shopped, slept, shopped, and slept.

I spent quite a fair bit, especially when I was in that HUGE GIGANTIC ENORMOUS OVERWHELMING shopping mall in Damansara, called One Utama.

It's like Marina Square plus Suntec City plus Raffles City!

I'm serious! The layout is like Marina Square, where there's this huge bridge over the wide road and it consists of many high-end labels you'll find in Marina, Suntec and Raffles City.

Of course I didn't go to those shops, I'd spend all my money in one go.

I bought an eyeliner, a hairband, some other accessories, blah blah blah....

Ok ya I lost track of where I spent my money.

Anyway, photos another day. I supposed to be sleeping now.

Long time no blog!

Just a quick little update on my life -

1. Projects are over (THANK GOD AH)

2. Exams are coming, after CNY (......)

3. CNY: I'm leaving for Malaysia, from this wednesday to sunday!

4. I'm going to dye my hair. I give up on the will-spoil-my hair notion. As my hair is already spoilt by that stupid perm I had the year before.

Hey wait. The year before. SO LONG AGO. T_T

5. Bought a lot of new clothes, including those that my mom bought for herself (someday she'll give up on wearing them and they'll end up in my cupboard. I'll give it about a month.)

6. Still got lots of Ringgit, cos of last year, I didn't spend a lot. So this time when I go back it's shopping time.

7. I got a new mouse. CHEEE NA. But it's wireless.

8. I need a job.

9. I need to start studying.

10. And a Happy Chinese New Year to all who are celebrating.

Much loves! Next update will prolly be after CNY plus pictures, unless my hands are itching to blog on Monday and Tuesday.

Okay. Oh my gosh. My head is still reeling with emotions.

No, silly, nothing happened to me. I just read and finished a book, that's all.

OH MY GOSH.

Why did I go to the school library today and happened to have chanced upon The Princess Diaries, Volume VIII - Princess On The Brink?

I should have guessed it from the title - Princess ON THE BRINK. MIA. SHE'S ON THE BRINK.

It was terrible!

Okay technically speaking Meg Cabot has not lost her wonderful writing skills. The book is beautiful.

But.

MIA BROKE UP WITH MICHAEL! WHY? SHE KISSED J.P! WHY? LILLY HATES HER? WHY? (Actually that was because J.P. was Lilly's boyfriend)

Most of all.

THE STORY ENDED WITH MIA EMAILING MICHAEL AN APOLOGY! AND IT WASN'T MUCH OF AN APOLOGY, HER EMAIL WENT "I'M SO SORRY, MICHAEL."

Are there torn pages in this book? Like, missing pages? It's new, but someone could have ripped the last pages off out of fury. Or something.

No. The book's whole.

I finished this book on the train from Tampines to Bukit Batok, including the time when I just stopped right outside BB MRT cos I wanted to finish the last few pages of the book. I nearly want to bawl my eyes out, too.

I mean, if you told me that in the 4th or 5th (I happen to have book 1 to 5) or even the 6th or 7th book that Mia and Michael (oh look, M&Ms, reminds me of the time I had a M&Ms craving back in sec 4) would break up I would laugh my ass off.

But they did. Because Michael - never mind.

Yeah. Never mind. Everyone of you now is probably thinking I'm insane, or didn't even to bother to read this post.

I was laughing at Mia's silly antics on the train.

And I started crying when she did, too. Of course I didn't have tears rolling down my faces and plenty of wet splotches on the book.

But my eyes were so full with tears that I had to BEG MYSELF to please, do not cry on the MRT. Everyone will think you are even more insane when you laughed at a book.

This reminds of the time when I got the last Harry Potter book, and I read it all in one day, practically crying myself dry.

But that was at home. And the last book was tragic. It was inevitable that people had to DIE.

But this is Mia and New York. It was NOT inevitable. She could NOT break up with him in the first place and NOT kiss stupid J.P. (actually it was an accident) who anyway should NOT have offered to bring her to watch Beauty and The Beast (Mia's favourite show) with seats for the top box just to cheer both of them up.

But Meg Cabot wouldn't have any readers left, as the people who grew up reading her first few books of Princess Diaries would have (like me) grown up by now, and wouldn't be really entertained with how Mia spends her time having princess lessons with Grandmere.

THIS IS NOT AN OBSESSION! STOP LAUGHING AT ME!

Anyway, about what I said, that reading books is like having sex. I retract that.

AND rephrase it.

Reading a NEW book is like a virgin having sex. You know, The First Time?

Not that I know what that feels seeing that I'm still a big V (and if not for the pregnancy thing that comes along with it actually I think - never mind) but that's what I feel when I read a book that I have not read before.

It's like, the first emotions, the first time you're reading something like this, and everything makes you want to go to the end (I just plain want to find out what happens in the end man).

But the 2nd and 3rd and consequent times, hmmm, not really.

That's why I don't really read books for more than 2 times unless I own them.

This post is really long. Thank God for blogging, I think I've recovered from the shock already. Dinner time.

Jude Deveraux

Have you heard of her? After spending 2 wonderful days alone in the school library (not the whole day, of course) reading 2 of her books, I feel like a new woman, hahahahahahahahah!

Reading her books are like reading a mature version of the love and fun found in the Princess Diaries combined with mysteries from Artemis Fowl.

I am serious. Though her books are filled with lust and sex (I'm not that inclined, by the way), her stories of time travel (Legend, 1996) and the unfathomables of men and women are very, very very intriguing.

I mean it! Read Legend. You can't borrow it now from the school library since this book is right beside me now.

Reading is my 3rd love. You don't have to know who/what are the 1st and 2nd. But give me 12 hours in a library (best with no air con so that it isn't that cold) with NO ONE disturbing me. That is nearly heaven, lol. Nearly.

Throw in a really comfy sofa.

The girls in her stories are pretty similar. Temperance O' Neil from Temptation, 2000, and Kade Long from Legend are very the same - they don't really trust men, even the ones they really love, and somewhere some how they are deluded into thinking they love someone else or they don't love anyone at all.

They are usually thrown into difficult situations, and it is in these situations the strong spirit of the girls are brought out, and it is heartwarming to read that they end up with good lives and loving husbands.

Do you know reading a book is like having sex?

I'm not kidding.

When you just start reading a book, it's like a budding romance. It might start off slow, and there's a lot of details to everything. Throughout the book the interest deepen, and there is a desire to want to finish the book otherwise I'll go bonkers not knowing what happens in the end.

Ok I think I don't want to go into details.

BUT my point is that I love reading books.

And that I'm in the middle of BCS class.

Actually, what happens in her books are pretty impossible. In both that I've read, the men try all sorts of ways (not evil, but they do lie) so as to ensure that the woman they love would stay at the side.

The women is usually the main person in the story.

But anyway. It doesn't look like this is real in the 21^st century. Does this happen to you? A guy likes you so much he's willing to lie to you for it?

I don't think men now are noble enough to do that. Actually I rather they don't lie.

Legend is good. Temptation is good for a lovers' story, but Legend is good for a mystery.

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I guess reading is my sanctuary, my way of running away from all the busy stuff and all the pain and loneliness.

Sometimes, the feelings protrayed by those women, I can relate to them. Cos sometimes that's how I feel.

Actually reading the books gives me a 3rd person view of my own situation.

It's not easy.

I can hear it.

The voice of my inner being, the good one, calling out to me.

"Thiew Min Min, stop living in DreamLand!"

"Stop pushing the snooze button on your life alarm clock!"

Funny, I think I just did that.

I'm tired, and I want to slide into dreams of nothingness, where things like this won't pop into my mind when I'm taking a bath in the middle of the night, which has become a routine for me recently.

I like this song on Sabby's blog. She posted it up recently, but cos I like it (it's really unique) and the movie from which it's from looks interesting so here it is.


Anyone Else But You

Your part time lover and a full time friend,
The monkey on the back is the latest trend,
Don't see what anyone can see,
In anyone else,
But you

Here is a church and here is a steeple,
We sure are cute for two ugly people,
Don't see what anyone can see,
In anyone else,
But you

We both have shiny happy fits of rage,
I want more fans, you want more stage,
Don't see what anyone can see,
In anyone else,
But you

I'm always tryin to keep it real,
Now I'm in love with how you feel,
I don't see what anyone can see,
In anyone else,
But you

I kiss you on the brain in the shadow of the train,
I kiss you all starry eyed,My body swings from side to side,
I don't see what anyone can see,
In anyone else,
But you

The pebbles forgive me,
The trees forgive me,
So why can't, you forgive me?
I don't see what anyone can see,
In anyone else,
But you

Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu
I don't see what anyone can see,
In anyone else,
But you.

I HAVE TO WATCH JUNO! Anyone willing to take me? ): Take me out of this busy time, and into a nice cinema, preferably with comfy chairs and a huge screen.

Sorry for the lack of updates, they're attributed to many deadlines and work.

New year, new vision, stick by it, girl.

Don't let the material change the characteristics.

I'm in Raffles City's Starbucks now, finishing up on BCS. I'm done with my bit, and waiting for the rest to finish up on their part, and then I'll start on another part.

Confusing? It's ok. It doesn't apply to you.

HO ho ho.

This internet connection (wireless@SG) is not very stable. So I have to blog quickly.

Well, it's been quite busy for me, but with just one more project and presentation to go, it should be fine.

No, I'm fine, really.

最后的机会把自己的生活搞好。

不要后悔！向前看。

Meantime I have plenty of other things to distract me.

Aw shit who am I kidding.

I got this from Jackson's blog! Quite surprised that he has this sorta stuff in his blog, but yeah.

Actually, not all of these are true.

this is really sweet........

When a Girl is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.

When a Girl is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.

When a Girl looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering how long you will be around.

When a Girl answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ... she is not at all fine.

When a Girl stares at you ... she is wondering why you are lying.

When a Girl lays on your chest ... she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a Girl wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.

When a Girl says ' I love you ' ... she means it.

When a Girl says ' I miss you ' ... no one in this world can miss you more than that.

Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person

....

Find a Guy . who calls you beautiful instead of hot. who calls you back when you hang up on him.

Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who ... kisses your forehead.

Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats. Who holds your hand in front of his friends.

Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.

Who turns to his friends and says, ' That's her!! '

Sweet aite! Vivian ma chea wei, my dear girl, you-know-who should like, see this.

Then he'll, ya, appreciate you better. :D :D

Don't worry, Sabby and I appreciate you too :P

But honestly to find such a romantic guy who isn't a sticker, let you have freedom at the same time, not easy.

Looking at them (won't say who, better not LOL), I wonder if she has time for him. Like, all her time are with us!

Well not all, but I do wonder.

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Family means a lot to many of us. This Chinese New Year, are you going to spend it just like any other year?

Renuion dinner, gamble with cousins, shopping....

Why not do a little something special? Have a little family activity to bond everyone together.

Ah, done with dinner. Now, to work (:

What's left:

• BCS, plus presentation


• OB (tomorrow) plus presentation


• Jap role play


• Commsk 2 summative test

Oh well. God grant me greater capacity to handle everything! (:

I'm not going for DnD, nor I don't think I can make it for the class chalet. I'm sorry everyone! This holiday I will work my ass off.

Yes, Min is going to work her ass off.

I can do a lot of things to do for you God, tell me what you want me to do!

But.

Grah.

我不是一个人。记得，你也不是一个人。We have God with us. He's just there, waiting for us to to open our hearts to him.

I am not alone. I have God with me. (:

Poo poo day.

I have 15 mins to leave the house and get to school on time.

I haven't changed, nor eaten my breakfast.

Nor have I finished my assignment due in 2 hours (i.e. when I reach school)

All I feel like doing is to blog, though. Screw the others.

What about... what about what?

I wish I stay near school, so now I would still be sleeping. My only progress is that my contact lens are on. The ever ai mei-ness in me.

Sometimes I do wish it doesn't have to be this way, my life, but then, that's what makes life move.

I'm 18 this year. Apparently I can learn to drive, and go clubbing, and watch M18 movies, and buy alcohol and blah blah blah blah...

What's the point? There's only one thing in my mind.

"18! So old! Umm, can I have a car?"

:D

I feel so much better now.

Like, after cell group. Because we had ministry today.

Jessica spoke over my life, she was so right about it. I think I cried a little over one litre of tears (sorry for the pun), but yeah. haha.

God is good! I have nothing else to say. (:

He's always there when we need him, knocking on the door of our hearts. Only when we open the door to let Him in can we feel His presence and hear His word.

Min's List of Really, Really Tireds

1. I'm really, really tired of projects
2. I'm really, really tired from waking so early everyday
3. I'm really, really tired having to work with some people but thank God that's going to be over soon
4. I'm really, really tired of Japanese
5. I'm really, really tired of Microecons
6. I'm really, really tired of thinking so much
7. I'm really, really tired of having to do so many things
8. I'm really, really tired of having so many appointments
9. I'm really, really tired of having no money for this and that

but most of all,

10. I'm really, really tired of being really, really tired.

And I guess everyone else is, with all the deadlines coming up. I don't have any right to complain.

But this is my blog, cut me some slack.

Woke up so early to do transport for children's church later.

Thank God that I finished the songsheet for cell group later. I like today's one, haha.

Actually I had a great time last night when the full-time funkies met up @ Causeway point. We had our usual bout of being really crazy. Of course there were photos.

I don't have them. As usual, Vivien has them. I've got them Vivo ones, and guys I promise to blog about the Vivo trip in our blog soon.

Even though last night was such a short meeting time (only 730 - 930 pm) at least we managed to spend some time with each other, and that's really important (:

Okay gotta go change and have my breakfast.

Look at this blog.

So much love! Food = love. Don't hesitate. Take a look at this lady's blog, and feel the love radiating through her blog posts.

Have you ever read something so inspiring?

Well it's certainly a lot more interesting than the 2 little girls sitting in front of me trying to put on make up for each other. Ugly.

Glutenfreegirl have many gluten-free recipes in her blog, suited for those who cannot eat gluten (HTM students, we learnt this in FBfun). They are very interesting, and look scrumptious anyway.

Things like this always happen, something unexpected. I was on the main page of Blogger reading about how they came up with a new way to arrange Blogger for languages read right-to-left, when I saw, on the right, a list of blogs featured.

This blog's name looked appealing, so I took a quick peek.

And discovered something new! (:

Oh, I so wanted to shit about micro econs today, but my teacher totally offered me the PERFECT solution.

So now, my life's a BIT better. Just a bit.

You know it's like, I totally know the solution, but I'm kind of not doing it? Quite dumb, right?

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. rrr. rrrrrrrr. rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

I wish you bluebirds in the spring
To give your heart a song to sing
I wish you health
And more than wealth
I wish you love

And in July a lemonade
To cool you in some leafy glade
I wish you health
And more than wealth
I wish you love

My breaking heart and I agree
That you and I could never be
So with my best
My very best
I set you free

I wish you shelter from the storm
And a cozy fire to keep you warm
And most of all
When snowflakes fall
I wish you love

Actually, I don't think anyone around me listens to Lisa Ono. She's this Jap jazz singer. Bought the CD in 2001, and since I was a young little tot then, I didn't know how to appreciate it other then "so relaxing to listen to".

Now, grow up le, 18 years old le.

OH MY GAWD DAMN OLD.

Sean said, Min, if you don't like being busy yourself, why plan ahead of time?

I said cos there are activities what.

But honestly? I don't know. It's a reflex reaction I have (to plan ahead, that is) when things come my way.

HTM, can.

No, cannot.

I'm gonna lose my self-control anytime.

It's 7.46 AM as I'm typing this.

Why am I up and online so early?

This is what you get when you don't want to do your work at night - you wake up early the next morning to chiong.

I want my breakfast man. Sigh.

Today, it's a heavy, heavy, heavy day.

很多时后，我们要为身边的家庭和朋友着想。为自己而做出的决定，有可能会影响到别人。

我知道是我对不起你，但是你比许要懂：你不是自己一个人在痛苦。

It's up to you whether you choose to believe that or not.

Pride.

It marks on our actions, and our desires.

Pride is the beginning of many falling-outs, and the end for many beginnings.

I thought over it and got my answer.

Pride.

Sometimes you may think that you've already put down your pride, but all you did was to just use that as a convenient excuse.

What is putting down our pride?

Is it giving up all for something important?

Giving up embarrassessment to kneel before God.

Doing what's different for something extraordinary.

Facing the norm to do the unique.

Oh I'm back. Something very funny happened just now.

I was standing at my sink, and washing my dinner stuff. Then I was there, thinking, why my stomach so pain ah, even though I don't feel like going to the toilet?

I thought over that for a long time.

Then... I realised...

It's not my stomach pain can. It's cramps la. Cramps. Period. Cramps. Ya?

Stupid. took me a whole 5 minutes to realise that.

Fast Facts About Min's Sunday.

I woke up really early. Cos I slept early last night!

Pst. Tan preached about Forgiveness today. Learnt a lot, like actually, FORGIVE NOT EQUAL TO FORGET LEH. wah. That one was a total shocker.

Want to see more? Call this number...ah no la. HAHA. Just MSN/SMS/email me.

I wasted 1 hour of my life at Jurong Point today. ALONE. Finding Popular.

I found it at the basement. Jurong Point sure changed a lot. No more Liberty supermarket.

I wasted another half an hour and 5 bucks at Raffles City Starbucks.

I got my period (Bad news).

I got my period (Good news).

I just finished dinner.

I hate being emo. LOL. Emo = min? NO LA. YOU FAIL ABC AH.

I got cramps now.

I need to go do my cue cards for tomorrow's presentation.

I'm gonna sleep by 1130 pm.

That's 2 blog posts in Chinese, and I'm already sick of it. I think I'll go bilingual.

就是说，在写日几时两个语文都用。

Finally had a bit of time today to spend with my mom, only to be called to go off for ministry.

I actually cried over that. Pek chek!

Actually, I cry over anything these few days. But HEY! I haven't been able to spend time with my family properly for a long time already.

I'm serious. Ever since my dad started working again he's been coming home late, and I've been going home late from school and everything.

Sigh. I make a terrible daughter.

I make a terrible friend too.

I haven't been spending time with Funkadelics, with TPSU subcomm, with Scythia, with Fyrtho.

How to survive FO like that! Aiyo.

其实我自己也不知道我到底在忙什么东西。

每天从学校回家，累到半死的样子。爸爸妈妈看了也不知道要跟我说什么话。

今天终算听到一件非常好的喜事，Jess is attached! Don't know who the lucky guy is other then his name is Samuel, but I know Jess would be very happy with him. She looks happy today (:

I SAID SUCKIN' TOO HARD ON YOUR LOLLIPOP oh LOVE'S GONNA GET YOU DOWN.

Mika 的歌全都很特别。

Here's a list! Haven't made one in a long time.

What Do Min Feel According To What She Wears.
Of course I have these colours for tops. Duh. My cupboard is right beside me and it's open.

Red - Cheery
Green - Anytime colour. It's my favourite.
White - Down-to-earth.
Black - It's a cold day.
Orange - Naughty.
Pink - Even Naughtier, even playful.
Purple - Sombre.

Jeans - Dress down day, or it's really cold.
Skirt (long) - Dress up day
Skirt (short) - Naughty day
Leggings - Comfy day
Dress - VERY dress up day.
Big shirts - Stay-at-home day.
Shorts - Same.

Make up - I woke up early that day (Obviously I do not wake up early at all).
Hairband - Little girl day.
Heels - I feel low (emotionally la. not physically).
Flats - Comfy, happy, secure.
Slippers - Carefree.

I like lists. I can type endlessly.

如果真的已我想象中一样，我真的会“一无所有”。

好了，就此离笔。哈哈！As if I writing composition.

这几天都很早回家。

好久没有这么早回家了。但重是觉得生活中少了很多东西。

要把心里的话说出来真不容易。

只过了几天就有这么大的改变， 其实有一点难接受。

张敏敏，你要阵拙起来，要保守所做出的决定。

别在想往事，已经2008年了!

华语好失败呵！):

我要去煮晚餐了，妈妈回倒家了。

为何要去想往事?

我今天在学校时，想起很多事情。

但是，现在我想通了。

能用华语写日记真好玩。是今天朋友教我着么做。

我发决到两件事。

第一，当我用华语写日记时，好 serious!

第二好像被你们看出了。其使我的华文很差，懂的字不多，和小年级的学生差不远，哈哈！

哎呀其使我只不会写，是会读。所以用电脑打字非常容易。

。。。

对不起。

其使，我的心是不舍得这么做。但是我真的没有选择。

I feel a really heavy weight on my shoulders.



No, I feel several.



WHAT IS WITH HTM, ANYWAY? WHY THE HECK DO WE HAVE SO MANY MODULES AT ONE TIME?



Anyway, I wanna say something about 2008.



I didn't blog about a Happy New Year, so here's my (really late) 2008 post.



Dear 2008,



You came and started with a bang, but I didn't know you were there. See, too caught up with everything to even celebrate.



2008, I hope you'll be even better then 2007. I had the best times of my life for 2007, but I know that 2008 will be even better.



However, 2007 had a bad ending, so I hope I'll have a better ending for 2008.



I had a pretty bad start to 2008 too, so I hope 2009 will be much more...happening.



Oh, 2008, I'm 18 this year. Not that it will make a lot of difference, just probably some things in my life will be, uh, easily obtained. Well, easier then in 2007.



I hope I won't spend as much money as I did in 2007, but I think I'll spend even more money.



I think I'll also need a part-time job.



2008, I pray that you will be full of happiness, craziness and most of all relaxation cos SURE GOT A LOT OF PROJECTS IN SEMESTER 2.1 AND 2.2.



Also, here's my New Year's resolutions.



1. Get a job.

2. Take better care of my laptop.

3. Sleep earlier.

4. Eat properly.



I think those are the ATTAINABLE ones. You can forget about the rest. They never do come to pass.



Yours Sincerely, Min.



Anyway, I'm in the freezing library now. Screw those admin people for closing down the study rooms for Open House. What are the kids gonna do in them? Squish together like sardines in a can?

Actually, I don't have any right really to say that I'm tired.

Everyone in HTM is tired! Marketing is something like FBfun. So strict. And it's due this friday.

So jia you everyone! Don't give up cos you're tired.

Look towards the holidays that are coming! 2 months. Well, around there!

We'll be able to have fun!

All the hard work will be paid of surely.

This sounds more like I'm trying to reassure myself.

It'll be over soon.

How am I supposed to explain it?

There's just so many things I wanna say, and so many things I wanna do.

But I don't know how to say it in words.

Oh man. So sad.

I was watching Wang Zi Bian Qing Wa, and I seriously watched til I cried. So sad! Imagine someone whom you used to hate lost his memories, fell in love with you, got back his old memories but forgot the new ones and only retained the fact that he hated you.

SOBS.

Lots of people judge their relationships according to all these love serials.

Anyway, here's a word puzzle.

"Serious organised, really enthralled, gosh, radical, entertaining, TOTALLY.

My decision. "

No prize for the winner, though.

Anyway, I hate people forcing me to do things I don't wanna do. But I hate it even more when I don't have to guts to tell that someone I don't wanna do it.

Easily manipulated, you could say.

Sometimes I'm really curious about how I make my decisions.

At times I am so rational, and yet when the crisis hits I'm at a loss what to do. Decisions are made hurriedly and thus, they end up not being the right ones.

Sometimes because of some situations some decisions have to be made, no choices are given. And when it comes to that, no one will be happy because the ending is not what anyone wanted.

Today Pastor talked about focus. To focus on something, and not get distracted by any means, will lead to success.

There are decisions to make.

Meetings, marketing, meetings, project, meetings, hotels, meetings, havingtotahan, meetings, showoffs, meetings, proudshittyassholes...

AHHH

I NEED TO GET IT OFF MY CHEST.

I HATE IT WHEN YOU'RE IN MY GROUP. YOU ALWAYS ACT SO BIG AND MIGHTY. TO YOU I HAV NO CONTRIBUTION, BUT THAT IS BECAUSE YOU SHOOT DOWN EVERYTHING I SAY. HELLOOOO...???

I'M JUST MAKING A POINT, JUST MAKING A STATEMENT, YOU DON'T HAVE TO MAKE A JOKE OUT OF EVERYTHING.

and like a small kid i will say..

I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU GET OUTTTTTTTTTTTT OF MY LIFE YOU SUCKER!

what is wrong with _____ anyway? idiot.

Happy New Year.

Have a great 2008, people.

2007 was good, but it will be even better in 2008

2007 was terrible, but 2008 will be smashing.

I don't know how to use words to describe anymore.

Hello? Are you there?

But I'm not.

I can't.

And it doesn't have to be that way for all of us.

Have a good day celebrating, people.


It's Raining On Prom Night
From the Grease soundtrack

I was deprived of a young girl's dream
By the cruel force of nature from the blue
Instead of a night full of romance supreme
All I got was a runny nose and Asiatic flu

It's raining on prom night, my hair is a mess
It's running all over my taffeta dress
It's wilting the quilting on my Maidenform
And mascara flows right down my nose
Because of the storm
I don't even have my corsage, oh gee
It fell down a sewer with my sister's ID

Yes, it's raining on prom night
Oh my darling, what can I do? I miss you
It's raining rain from the skies
And it's raining real tears from my eyes, over you
Oh dear God, make him feel the same way I do right now
Make him want to see me again -

Oh what can I do
It's raining rain from the skies
It's raining tears from my eyes over you
Raining, ooh tears from my eyes over you
Raining, ooh raining on prom night
Ooh raining, ooh tears from my eyes over you
Ooh raining, ooh raining on prom night...

Some cute girl sad cos she can't go to the prom night cos it was raining, HAHA!