i went out today.

suntec city. went to watch THE ISLAND

ewan mcgregor totally rocks!

but the story isn't very interesting

not at all

simply sucks.

then went walking around the place.

the island is about this bunch of siao mental docs who mess around trying to be God.

they clone people or "products" for the real people who are filthy rich and just will do anything just to "stay alive".

then these clones, one which is acted by ewan cutie, finds out about this cloning thing

won't spoil the surprise for any people who are gonna watch, though.

the end. i'm so tired.

i wished i could turn back time.

study hard, become one of those geekettes i always make fun of in mrt and buses and end up being a doctor or lawyer.

all of these, all of you would not have mattered so much to me.

and i would not have put all of you in my heart

where even if you hurt me so bad i still can trust you with my life

i won't have boyfriends

haha

i'll probably be in river valley or swiss or commonwealth

if i studied then

geekette geekette geekette.

that's what i would have been

fashion senseless freak.

i WILL change the future since i cant change the past.

ok fine. my da yi mah came for a visit.

bleahx!

i took this pic last year. with some help. more than one year later it is transformed into pixels.

this skin sucks man. big time

but i made it kekex..

went to shenton way today. or actually. a walk up and down maxwell road.

wanted to go to a bestway building. lost the way. my fault ok, henzy and xinfang and choyihchoyiu!

ahah! i typed correctly lehx, fang!

yea whatever. we spent nearly two hours in that funny little corner of singapore.

time when i reached home : 8+.

cos i left there like, 6.30??? which was actually my curfew! LOL.

some people are so camera shy. and some people are so in love with themselves. so i found out today.

remember the "pet shop"?

along the way we saw this kindergarten/childcare/whatever place. plenty of CUTE kiddies inside!

adorable. and they were like waving.

and some mean guy had to go and say like looking at pet shop, you know, choosing them pets outside the windows. "Eh, this one how much ar?"

LoL

the end of my day. tired ok. walking does you lots of good though.

good nitex! =)

what did i do?

in a matter of 1 day my life changed.

from peaceful to hectic it bacame.

and now it sounds like a poem!

you're the only one i trust.

you're all i have, all that's left to me.

don't let me lose my trust in you like i have lost my trust for everyone else.

messed up me

oh my gooodness...

yo babe babe babe you do what you want and i'll do what i want. chill k. no nid so fierce.

spent time on choral reading stuff. omigod. only lijie and i were doing

lijie!! i still duno whud to do!! =(

shucks.

i want to be 1 again.

no more worries.

oh no.

that is bad. very very very
BAD!
and why is it such a horror.

cuz this isn't the way it was suppose to end!

i am supposed to be OUT OF THE PICTURE.

its all my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault!!!!!!

i'm so confused....

i don't know what to do.

can't confide in anyone. if anybody else knows i'm fully gonna dive off the benjamin shears bridge.

not like i can't swim though. haha.

upset upset upset.

ahhhhh!!!!

guess guess guess guess what!!!

who was listening to class 96 at ard 9.23 pm?

i made a dedi to everyone!!

and yaz(the dj) actually read it out!

best thing that happened to me all week!!!!!!!!!

aww shucks. i don't think anyone heard it though.

but i never had a dedi read on radio before!

too bad. i was only testing it out. so i didn't mention names.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

so i'm no longer only a sucker and a reject.

apparently i'm also an idiot(haha), a bloody bitch, a story-composer/story-teller, beach lover(is there anything with loving beaches?), bu-shuang causer, trouble-maker, fucking hell bitch(jeez. you spelled it wrong lady. its fuck. not fuk. and its bitch. not b*tc*. jeez.), a flirt.

and that people just keep quiet when i'm around too. wow. so brave and noble people. lol.

whatever. i have an "interesting" life. want me to tell you another story too? at least i'll score so much better than you in english. haha.

no wait. mrs lim asked me to "be proactive" today(got called to the principal's office for not handing in that darned letter).

rephrase=i lead a wonderful, colourful life full of joy and bundles of love, peppered with the usual chats with friends and the occasional surprises life has in store for me.

so proactive.

Hollaback Girl
by Gwen Stefani
Uh huh, this is my shit
All the girls stomp your feet like this


A few times I've been around that track
So it's not just gonna happen like that
Because I ain't no hollaback girl
I ain't no hollaback girl [x2]


Ooooh ooh, this my shit, this my shit [x4]


I heard that you were talking shit
And you didn't think that I would hear it
People hear you talking like that, getting everybody fired up
So I'm ready to attack, gonna lead the pack
Gonna get a touchdown, gonna take you out
That's right, put your pom-poms downs, getting everybody fired up


A few times I've been around that track
So it's not just gonna happen like that
Because I ain't no hollaback girl
I ain't no hollaback girl [x2]


Ooooh ooh, this my shit, this my shit [x4]


So that's right dude, meet me at the bleachers
No principals,no student-teachers
Both of us want to be the winner, but there can only be one
So I'm gonna fight, gonna give it my all
Gonna make you fall, gonna sock it to you
That's right I'm the last one standing, another one bites the dust


A few times I've been around that track
So it's not just gonna happen like that
Because I ain't no hollaback girl
I ain't no hollaback girl [x2]


Ooooh ooh, this my shit, this my shit [x4]


Let me hear you say this shit is bananas
B-A-N-A-N-A-S
(This shit is bananas)
(B-A-N-A-N-A-S)


Again
This shit is bananas
B-A-N-A-N-A-S
(This shit is bananas)
(B-A-N-A-N-A-S)


A few times I've been around that track
So it's not just gonna happen like that
Because I ain't no hollaback girl
I ain't no hollaback girl [x2]


Ooooh ooh, this my shit, this my shit [x4]

here's a song dedicated to all you girls out there. yea. i ain't no hollaback girl.

wait a minute. given your standard of english, i bet you won't even know what hollaback girl means. or even this lovely song. muahaha.

you probably don't even know who Gwen Stefani is!

i feeeeeeeeeeeeeel good after bitching man.

ok. now i've really put myself in hot soup. wait for the next chapter of the "blog-fight"(not cat fight).

ok disappeared for awhile. kinda busy

number 1 issue. them. is he right or are they right? was i wrong or was he right? i mean they are not showing anything. well. actually its not much of a difference isn't it.

number 2 issue. i am in trouble. with a certain thing called love.

number 3 issue. I HAVE FINALLY GOTTEN THE BOOK! HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF-BLOOD PRINCE! i have been waiting and waiting and waiting! finally! now halfway through the book! yeah!

number 4 issue. eeek. he kinda creeps me out.

number 5 issue. i suck

number 6 issue, i am a reject. right, ladies? i mean, thats what you think. well. haha.

what have i been like for the past few days
-i cant concentrate
-bad bad bad bad DREAMS. plenty about school. won't say out why they are bad, though. or actually, can't. ask me personally.
-can't study
-distracted
-moping
-tired
-don't know whats going on in lessons (due to sleeping)
-sleep during school time. alot
-and no teacher realise i'm sleeping. *ponders*

i don't know whats happenning to me! i DON'T want to sleep in class but i feel so tired. and whatever the teachers say in scool i just can't seem to concentrate. i'm distracted. and i don't know WHY!!!!

can't stand it any longer. i feel like ending it all!

but why end when i don't even know WHY???

wo bu kai xin le. why?

i duno. even if i want to kai xin also cannot.

but. sheesh.

i feel like a pregnant woman.

I AM SO NOT PREGNANT!

but my mood has been like, UP, down, UP, down..

and i'm getting a little too big there

my tummy i mean.

i want to talk to somebody. anybody.

=(

oh

why?

i think its true

what's true?

that i'm ** **** **** ***

WHAT?! how could you??

exactly! how could i? it will be total betrayal to the lady!

what to do?

jeez...

i hate me and i'll never forgive me even if they do!

i'm going crazeee....

but still...

*sigh*

up.down.left.right.my.life's.a.mess

From The Bottom Of My Broken Heart
by Britney Spears

Never look back, we said
How was I to know I'd miss you so
Loneliness up ahead, emptiness behind
Where do I go

And you didn't hear all my joy through my tears
All my hopes through my fears
Did you now, still I miss you somehow

CHORUS:
From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
You were my first love, you were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose
From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time may find me somebody new
You were my real love, I never knew love
'Til there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart

i found out that this song totally symbolised it. whatever it is. except the the rest of the song which i cut off. to know why, click here.

because the rest was out of point.

ok. end of toodling.

i still can't forget it.

i try and i try...but whenever it appears i can't help thinking over again

whether i was wrong or i was right that does not matter as i have made my decision and that decision was already carried out.

but..

i still can't forget that day.

you try it. i'm sure you won't either.

and now only one (or two) person know what i'm spewing.

right gurl (and guy) ?

imagine trying to sleep at night but you can't cos you're crying and crying and crying and the pillow's wet and you nose is blocked and you can't breathe.

there's no one to talk to. no one who will care.

black.bubbles.heart.break

broken.

i have to forget it. its messing me up. and my life.

i have to live again.

when was the last time i blogged, man?

went to city hall today with adeline and derrick. actually i felt EXTREMLY extra. won't do it again if i had a chioce. ooops. hope they aren't seeing this.

we went window shopping. i told derrick window shopping is bad for me. very bad. as usual i am right. i saw this skirt at BUM equipment. pink. 3 tiered with a layer of mesh. it was so NICE!!!!!! it totally caught my eye!

i love it. and thanks to window shopping i found it. and now i want it!

*poutx*

*POUTX*!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it cost $33. i think.

its so nice! i'm trying to find a pic of it.

no success. too bad.

gunbound!!!!

haven't been blogging for long. have been real busy.

yesterday went out with adeline, derrick, henzy, and jia hao.

we actually wana go bugis junc. but we didn't have the time. so we went causeway.

just walk walk around lor. abit sianx arx.

oh yea. the day before, friday was youth's day celebration.

some teachers acted for us. it was pretty good but i wont go into details.

i'm so darn bored.