Seriously ah.

I think I must have been concussed or something.

Or maybe blind, not to see the embarrassment that was right in front of me.

This sounds so... cliche. But I can only go now, "HOW STUPID CAN I GET?"

Like, 真的受不了！

好讨厌这些回忆。真希望它们根本没有发生过。

饶了我吧！

好想把去年的事全都忘了。

But I had good memories last year too. Too many.

There was Trybe, and Funkies.

OF course there was school. The essentials of my life in TP. TPSU. HTM. OTC.

Many others.

It'd kill me to forget the whole of last year, actually. Moreover, I will die if I fail RHT again.

-_-

Anyways, here's a song to you. You, who isn't reading this anyway, who never fail to annoy me endlessly (actually a lot of people never fai... nevermind).

It's official.

I'm in love again.

With the hugest thing ever - my school!

When I first stepped into TP as a freshie (just a year ago), I thought, well, I travelled one and a half hours for this, here goes nothing...

And I said, then, I love TP.

Today, I walked up the stairs as a junior, Year 2, and I said, wow, I really love TP.

Except...

THERE'S TONS OF FRESHIES AROUND.

Hello? Dearest GLs, or any other Year 3 students, WERE WE REALLY MILLING AROUND LIKE ANTS WHEN WE WERE YEAR 1?

It's like, one look at them and you know they're year 1 students. They either over dress (cos they think everyone dress damn nice in poly) or they dress like primary school kids (those have no fashion sense at all).

Okay wait let me explain something. Today, Tuesday, was my first day at school as a junior. It wasn't yesterday because I didn't have lectures or tutorials to attend. Moreover I came early today for a non-existent tutorial class.

So yeah, freshies. Not to mention some people, freshies and seniors and fellow juniors alike kept telling me I don't look like me.

What am I supposed to look like? A 24/7 harried-looking, walkie-carrying, waistpouch slung from the shoulders, hair frizzy, FBT shorts-wearing, huge camp shirts?

I don't LIVE in FO, goodness.

Hmm..

So now all that is left.

Hello world! It's a long time since I blogged, almost gave it up.

Here's a summary of what I did for this holiday. Since holidays are ending. In no particular order:

1. Spent a lot of money
2. FO 08/09 (Fyrhtooooooo!!!!!!!!!!)
3. TVC `08
4. Funkies and Trybe friends
5. Lost my voice
6. Lost many things, like pens. During FO, that is.
7. Lost my spirit. Yes.
8. Worked at ComfortDelgro Bus. Good experience, and new friends. Love!
9. Lost and regained a friend.
10. Found an answer to a question I always asked ever since secondary school.
11. Did a lot of self-reflection.
12. Cried enough tears to last for another 18 years
13. Okay this is getting too emo
14. I should end it already.

Okay. So I gave up totally on blogskin-making for nearly a year already, but just now, I think I want to revive it.

Why? Because when I went to blogskins to search for a new skin to use.... they're all so.... cute.

Overly-cute. Kind of, too much?

My skins are only for my own eyes, cos 1) I'm quite lousy at it 2) It's nice to have a change for once.

Speaking of being lousy....

I realised I haven't actually excelled in anything.

I'm serious. Like, truly ever excelled in anything.

No offence to the names I'm about to mention, but I'm just trying to put my point across.

Vivien's got all her event management stuff. JIVE, it's called, right?

BR's got lots! I can't count. From Trybe to SPH and the both of them, Vi and BR, has got pretty good school results too.

Daniel's this pro in every sports he does. I haven't seen any sport he can't do, unless you count para para as a "sport".

Ethan's got his magic skills. They're amazing. Wait til you see him do tricks.

So like, yes, I do a lot of things... here and there... and don't say I have been a HGL, it was a good experience but wasn't exactly a positive one. It would have turned out better if not for myself, though.

When I mean excel, I truly mean excel.

Maybe it was that "talent" thing they were doing that day. Maybe it was how I performed during FO. Maybe it's because I'm too stretched over so many things I cannot excel in anything.

Sean said since he has come TP, his life revolves around TP and the SU friends.

Hmm, I don't know about concentrating on one thing. It doesn't seem to feel right. But maybe that's where it'll start.

I don't know la.... I know I have this defeatist attitude already, but it's my blog, cut me some slack, so that I have heart preparation when school starts.

Actually school started today, but I don't have lessons for today and it seems REALLY POINTLESS to travel one and a half hours to school for a one hour lecture and travel one and a half hours to Clementi to meet the TVC people.

I think one of my greatest (to me, la) achievements is that....

I don't have any lor. So simple.

Oh, well, at least the holidays ended with a bang. I think it's just as nice for holidays to end as well as start.

I'm happy the holidays ended. They were dragging a little too long.

OKAY YES I DIDN'T HAVE A GOOD HOLIDAY. BYE.

Hmmm.

It's 0035 on Day 3 of TP Freshman Orientation Workshop.

The most memorable thing so far is the briefings and debriefings that I have day and night and afternoon and over walkie-talkies.

Tired, but still can go on. (:

Fyrhto is just amazing, superb, splendid, no other words can describe how much I love Fyrhto!

But I still have a lot to improve on myself. Already the 2nd day over, and I've lost count of the mistakes that I have made. Min, please, buckle up!

Improve and move on. Improve and move on. Improve and move on.

Sometimes I feel that people can be so hypocritical.

They say something, but they don't do it.

They do something, and they don't mean it.

They mean something, and they don't say it.

So why?

Why are they like that?

I'm so scared of you, I don't know how to react when you crack a joke.

Please, showering a little TLC won't kill you. It's not just for my sake, it's for everyone's.

But they all say - 他是这样的。

If we can change for you, you can change for us. We can get scolded and change, but so can you.

Eh wait.

HAKIM JUST TOLD ME TO BLOG THAT HE IS DAMN CUTE. SO CUTE.

So ya. Everyone take note. Hakim (FA for Venos) is super walao cute.

Poor Hakim still has to do work at night (morning, actually) when all freshies are home sleeping and GLs resting in sports hall and Min blogging right opposite him. Venos, give him your support :D

So far I don't have time to think at all (except for when I bathe, I think about how much shampoo I'm going to use so that I have enough for all 6 days), therefore I'm pretty good. Nothing for me to react to. Except cheering like xiao zha bor who ALREADY lost her voice.

I love you all.

Can I do something to make me happy, please? Actually I feel a bit sad now. Maybe because I'm tired.

Min's birthday list (as of 9th April)
1. A new bag for going out. *adopts bimbo voice* one of my 92788234 Chanel bags have torn, so I totally need to stock up! Don't you think so?

2. New shoes for camps

3. Mascara. Totally. Mummy is using it up (grrrrr). Check wishlist for details.

4. A new waistpouch because the one that I just got is FREAKING TOO SMALL PLEASE. 讨厌！

5. Uh. I want to play DoTA on my computer. Not just my laptop.

6. The Sims 2 plus ALL THE EXPANSION PACKS there is currently. (This is so easy to fulfil)

7. On my birthday I want to go and sleepover someone's house. Cos it's a FRIDAAAAYYY.

8. A new wireless mouse (A DAMN GOOD NON-CHEENA ONE PLEASE.)

DAMN TIRED CAN'T THINK GOOD NIGHTS.

Shout out to some darlings:

Bingrong, Vivien, Ethan, Thomas, Daniel, you guys, I actually miss you all LIKE SHIT. ):

Really. It was one of the 2 things I NEARLY cried over.

The other thing was because someone scold me. And that is just dumb. WAKE UP THIEW MIN MIN YOU HAVE A RESPONSIBILITY.

My horoscope says (Okay I don't really believe in them but sometimes they are so true) that I should clear up this misunderstanding with that friend and schedule a meeting with that friend.

Firstly -

WHICH FRIEND -_-

Secondly -

If it's THAT friend, no way. I think I gave that friend a lot of fat chances already.

Yeah. I waste my time already can! I mean, sometimes they never really do change. It's not my fault.

And since that friend doesn't read my blog, it's neither one of you (LOL quite common sense) so don't worry.

Thirdly -

I can't think of anyone else whom I need to clear up misunderstandings with.

Fourth -

Screw Friendster's horoscope, I want my snooze.

I had a lot to blog about, but they're all in my mind blog already.

so yah.


ROAR!

如要


讲话


真的


头痛


好想念已前的easyness. Where have it all gone? Just been what, 2 years, or more?

我知道今天的post会让很多人think slantways.

但是其实是一件小事情。

You know?

Of cos you don't know.

There are the full-timers. You know, they are always there, all the time, whenever you need them.

Then there are the part-timers. Not there all the days, but still, pretty good times.

And then there are the temporary staff (temps). They're there for a period of time, and poof, you don't see them until another time.

Full-timers = best friends
Part-timers = friends
Temps = Hi-Bye friends, AKA H-B friends, or for the sake of my fingers, the HBFs.

(Haha, like Head Boy Friend leh. But that's a bit meaningless.)

Oh whoops. I just stopped blogging for a while to read a certain food blog.

So anyway where was I? Oh, HBF.

Many I had, over the years that I started recognising the need of having a friend. Until I got so used to them.

But I do still wonder why such people exist. Like, you used to hang out so much, and it was so fun. And suddenly, everything just stops.

It used to hurt a lot too, but now all I do is just to wonder.

Curious.

March pay should be coming in soon, shopping list is up and ready (:

I wonder if you know what is going on. But you just won't admit it.