do you know what it feels like to have your heart broken?

to feel your chest being torn apart, your heart taken from the ribcage and thrown carelessly on the floor?

trampled upon by beasts of all sort?

well, not that my heart has been broken yet again by another y-chromosomed homo sapien, but this is how i feel when i go into a shop on sale and see something i know i can't buy.

thus, to save myself from pure torture and pain(i am getting good with words), i decided to buy SOMETHING as i went shopping in town today.

FINALLY! RETAIL THERAPY!

and a good time too, with the great singapore sale and blah blah blah.

with my shopping queen, tan lijie!

i know she won't be reading my blog anyway. so she won't know i called her a shopping queen. unless you tell her lah.

i'm just a shopping princess. novice at the game.

and henzy, kim teck, lan zi, kok, jy were there.

anyway, i didn't just get something. i got 2 things. haha.

from fox, a jacket. only cost 10 bucks. i think i would have cried and rolled my eyeballs around wisma atria if i didn't get persuaded to buy it.

this is like, perfect. this jacket goes perfectly with all my jeans. and my denim jacket can go with my dresses and skirts.

the giodarno one? reserve. it goess with everything.

and the black one? when it is a cold day.

there. got it planned prettily.

oh and bought a tank from BUM equipment. lijie has one too, she got hers yesterday. but hers is white. mine is brown. which is good, come to think of it. my cupboard already looks very white.

i think 70% of my tops are white. the rest are like one of each colour. one yellow, one light blue, one green, one dark blue. and one brown.

two now, then.

and your know whats so great about this tank, other then the fact lijie also has one?

my mom WON'T wear it!

cos the words in front are to fancy for her, apparently. GREAT. SHE WOULD SPOIL MY CLOTHES ANYMORE.

i mean everytime i buy something tight fitting she takes them and wears it and makes them all loose for me. not very lah. my mom is nearly the same size as me.

but she still makes them loose. and i end up giving them to her. sheesh.

and it's ok if i raid her cupboard, since (obviously!!!) i can't enlarge her clothes. she won't even know/remember i wore them.

that's where i got my bad memory too...

so anyway. there's my shopping adventure.

off to...nevermind.

Yesterday, during BS, I finally understood what meditating means.

Okay it is kinda my fault that I didn't make an effort to go find out.

First lesson of Christian Lifestyle! I'm glad I'm making progress.

How funny it is that I just updated my wishlist yesterday morning and then in the afternoon my good friend can come and tell me, "Eh, your wishlist haven't update."

*makes annoyed noise*

I want to start playing Sims 2 again. LOL. That icon on my desktop is attractive.

Man, it's raining cats and dogs out there.

I feel comforted by the fact that I'm at home, safe and sound and dry.

Physics tuition on Sundays is really, really a spoiler.

awwww crap. SIMS 2, I AM BACK!

i love that starry starry night(vincent) song.

hey you guys guess who this song was portrayed after.

clue: it's a HE. and HE paints.

i think it's highly obvious.

wanna hear how the song goes?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uLGY0DXMMH4&search=don%20mclean

it's a beautiful song with very beautiful lyrics.

and it's a very beautiful painting.

*winks*

i wished i have something to numb me.

or something to occupy myself

so that i won't think too much.

thinking isn't very healthy, when too much. it's just like having an overdose in panadol.

i watched x-men 3 on thursday, with kaikee, james, weijian, chris.

pretty cool. but where's the angel action.

nope. still haven't got it off my chest. i want angel action!!

and i rented sky high and monster inc yesterday, and watched sky high.

i realized something.

they ALWAYS use the geeky/not handsome ones for the lead role.

for example, harry potter. daniel radcliffe still looks a little geeky to me. even though it's alot better now, definately.

and don't get me started with the guy who acted ronald weasley, rupert grint.

and in sky high. i don't even remember his name. the offspring of the world's 2 greatest superheroes.

he looks geeky, period.

and in x-men.

who wanted to look at hugh jackman(wolverine) anymore???

and always, all the hot guys either sit one corner, be the enemy or die.

like in harry potter. CEDRIC DIGGORY CAN SHIVER ME TIMBERS!

but he died lah. and made me cry while watching HP4.

and in sky high, the hottie was that fire guy. but he's the archenemy of the lead.

although in the end he does become the lead's best friend.

and in x-men, the angel guy is like WHAO!

but i think he only acted for a few minutes.

and the fullest sentence he said was, "i heard that this is a safe place for mutants."

and a couple of other sentences but whatever.

well i won't spoil the movie any further for the other honeys who haven't caught the movie.

ooh. i've updated my wishlist. it's the holidays.

okay so that's not an excuse to start a new list.

but whatever.

off to BS!

Starry, starry night.
Paint your palette blue and grey,
Look out on a summer's day,
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul.
Shadows on the hills,
Sketch the trees and the daffodils,
Catch the breeze and the winter chills,
In colors on the snowy linen land.

Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.

Starry, starry night.
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze,
Swirling clouds in violet haze,
Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue.
Colors changing hue, morning field of amber grain,
Weathered faces lined in pain,
Are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand.

Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.

For they could not love you,
But still your love was true.
And when no hope was left in sight
On that starry, starry night,
You took your life, as lovers often do.
But I could have told you, Vincent,
This world was never meant for one
As beautiful as you.

Starry, starry night.
Portraits hung in empty halls,
Frameless head on nameless walls,
With eyes that watch the world and can't forget.
Like the strangers that you've met,
The ragged men in the ragged clothes,
The silver thorn of bloody rose,
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow.

Now I think I know what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they're not listening still.
Perhaps they never will...

so so so many things to blog about.

today we had this STUPID chinese mock exam. we have to do another 2 more papers, tomorrow and the day after.

totally sucks. i wished i didn't take chinese. or that i take chinese B.

wheeeeeeee! watched CCS move 2 while ironing today lol. LOVE THE ENDING!!

here i go again...

lol. ok. no more CCS.

YEA RIGHT.

wait til you see my next skin.

probably in june.

okay. this is something i wanted to type out for a long, long time.

okay not that long lah. since my birthday, anyway.

my list of prezzies!

Prezzies Min Got For 2006
in order of when she got them
1. Lovely, Sweet 16 perfume from Lijie, Sze Han, Xinfang, my dearest mates! nevermind that you didn't get the adidas one. i love this one. lol.

2. Robinson's voucher from relatives.

3. ang pao from my dad.

4. a trip to sentosa with a bunch of the wildest people i know! "from" kaikee, james, jinyu, and chris!

5. 2 pairs or earrings. from somebody. which nobody reading this knows who.

6. another 2 pairs of earrings and nail art from qiaoying and farhaan, my oka-san and oto-san. haha.

7. Hillsong CD. from Henzy. thank you thank you! haha. wanted to get it. haha.

8. Reliant K CD. from my beloved cell group! whee.

9. laced denim jacket from my beloved mummy! even though i chipped in a little. haha.

there. see. effects of tithing.

tithing is important, my dear friends.

so if you haven't started, i hope you will take a step of faith to do so.

good night.

long time since i last posted.

okay let's start from thursday.

in a nutshell, i got myself a daddy and mummy, there's still band(shit), and i baked cupfins.

chocolates. they were supposed to be muffins, but i put them in cupcake moulds. and there you have cupfins. or mufcakes. whatever.

there's this really sweet love story on channel U now. so funny! and lovely. lol.

and on friday. we multiplied.

well i'm both happy and sad.

i don't know to be which. but suddenly i don't have time to be either.

saturday was fun. went to party world with henzy and some people from his church. wheeeee. sang to my heart's content.

and today, sunday, went to service.

i suddenly don't have the mood to do anything but sleep.

stupid stupid rashes.

min hate rashes. rashes are itchy and yucky.

wheee!!

i just love it when i do stuff like this. don't know why.

i went to teck whye sec today.

helped out with thumbs up(TU).

had a GREAT FABULOUS RAWKIN' TIME!!

i just love it when i can meet new people. whoooo!

all the funny people you can know from all walks of life.

yes i'm a new-people-person

did you know teck whye sec has a lift?

lol. and i'm like just one year older then the people we facilitated.

most of the people in my year have gone through thumbs up right?

i'm, sure you have a vague idea of the fun we had.

i'm hyper! lol.

SUNNY BUNNY SENTOSA!

sunny until i look like i've got blusher on, after the whole day at the beach.

well maybe because i went rollerblading in my two-piece too.

luckily, we didn't have much accidents.

jinyu said he would fall at least 5 times.

why would anyone want to predict how many times they will fall?????

james, you're really really fast.

and you guys buried me!!!

and jin yu.

not together lah. sheesh.

ahahaha kaiii where are the pics of what we did to jin????? get them soon!!! must must MUST post them up!

oh. we promised not to arh?

oh well. more details ask me/james/jin/kaikee/kok personally.

maybe jin won't be so happy to tell you, though.

our stars for the day won't swim to the little island though.

kok and jin.

sissies...

=D

skither hither, tumble rumble, we bladed to this 7-11 in palawan(we were in siloso) and had "lunch".

cup noodles.

the 7-11 was cold lah. sheesh.

okay this aren't details you should know.

i'm getting itchy all over...

suhnnie suhnnie suhnnie

oh bunnie why bunnie. how long ago it was, bunnie.

yes, i shall call you bunnie.

how long ago was it? and you still won't let it rest.

let's see...hmm..8 months...8 MONTHS?????

nearly a year already, bunnie!

i thought you would have dropped me like a hot potato and scooted off to one of those girls you were always talking about. not that i minded.

but it seemed like you didn't, huh, bunnie.

you know really, that was sweet. like sweet. kinda sad, but still sweet.

and i don't know what you want me to do about it.

you're a little behind times bunnie.

too bad, if you read my blog, you would know what i want for my birthday.

but then again, if you WERE reading this, i wouldn't be typing this.

my dear cupcakes who know who bunnie is, please don't tell him i have a blog! sheesh.

sigh. how am i supposed to explain everything to you? it's too long. and i can't take another long talk over the phone up to 3 am.

i need my beauty sleep.

can't you understand? it's for your own good. and my sanity.

if i went on i would have lost my mental stability and blew up at you and thus putting you in depression or something and you would probably kill yourself, since you're given a BIG opportunity to, seeing the place you work in.

jeez.

screaming aloud wont help
but it makes me feel better
nothing compares to this
why are we still here
shouldnt we have moved
but still we stay
i cannot be with you
let me go

this is a little late, but better late then never huh.

talking about being late...i've got a story coming up..

well anyway. i finally booked tickets. at Jurong Point. so i went to collect(using my dad's credit card, duh)

well the guy at the counter gave me a Look.

like i was too young to hold a credit card

i never said it was mine. lol.

well MI3 isn't fabulous lah.

i still don't know what's that stupid rabbit's foot.

guess it's military secret or something.

and the story is like, same old story bah.

that's why i said it sucks, zilah.

but if you're watching for some great agent action, you got it.

and after the movie, went to the crystal jade whatever to eat.

my mom always go there. she doesn't seem to mind the fact we have to WAIT and queue up for half an hour just to eat some la mian.

but it's nice anyway. won't complain haha.

and on saturday! had a great service! whee.

but went home pretty late.

on sunday, had this mini lunch with my dear dear dear girl pals.

we played mahjong and cluedo.

sad bah, xinfang. we'll playing again another day.

and i was so blessed on sunday!

lijie, xinfang, and szehan gave me this perfume.

nope, not adidas nor JPG, but it doesn't matter cus i really love the bottle!

super pretty! thanks girls i really really really LOVE it!! =)

and my uncle gave me this $100 robinsons voucher, can be used in alot other places too.

wheee! SHOPPING!

wells. oh. my story. about being late.

I WASN'T FREAKING LATE!!!

but i got called to the front...=(

i've never had detention in all my four years of secondary education! and i planned to keep it that way!!

sigh. stupid.

Why Must We Be Early For School?

cos if we're late, we will get detention and have to do stupid and useless and time wasting things like writing essays which aren't even read and checked anyway so whats the point hmm?????

but i can forgive..

COS TOMORROW IT'S OFF TO SENTOSA!

sayonara!~

stupid GV....all i want to do is to book some stupid tickets to MI3 but apparently so does a lot of people in singapore...

so the whole thing is lagging..

i've got my dad's credit card RIGHT HERE!!

*giggles*

he's got so many, all he had to do was to pick one.

but he's such a meanie, what's the point of having so many cards if you spend anyway??

you know, somebody should tell them they're really REALLY bad in english...

their swearing makes me puke!

all they go is to fuck this and fuck that...

but come on, there's a lot more to life then fucking things!!!

or apparently when they're in love.

so clueless.

"I love him/her. He/she is my dear."

WAKE UP, DEARIES!

there's a lot more to life then meeting a guy online and calling him "my deardear" the next day!

sheesh. they don't know it but they really sound like they lack love.

they not only lack love, they lack a good english command.

and brains.

i am so gonna watch MI3.

and x-men 3

and the da vinci code!!

i've read the book already anyway. so who cares?

it IS really interesting! if you look at it the maths and science way.

i mean, isaac newton must have a hell lot of brains.

maybe he could donate some to them.

i don't care, i don't care, i'm gonna play to my heart's content.

in spite of all the remedials bogging my fun down.

STUPID GV!!!

can you hurry up??????

i want to go and watch POS!!

HOW CAN YOU GUYS NOT TELL ME JEREMIAH IS IN POS????????

i only knew when jephthah told me last saturday...

lol. it's really a little unexpected...from a guitar guy..

i hope he doesn't see this. although i know the chances of him seeing this is like ZERO.

unless you guys go and tell him lah...you better not arh...

heh heh heh.

we'll know who's in where next saturday...i'm excited yet sad at the same time.

can somebody tell me more about multiplying?

3 posts in a day! sheesh...

okay. i have officially finished all the 70 episodes of cardcaptor sakura on youtube, except for about 10 that wasn't uploaded.

10 is ALOT.

so. i'm hopping over to that rental shop near my house to rent it!

and since i finished around 60 episodes in less then a week, it should be easier on TV!

since all i have is 12 days, anyway.

i'm all geared up and ready for this June hols!

well i have other activities planned too, which involves going to the beach. DEFINATELY.

and this Kelong thing....

hmm. a friend asked me. W330 people, do you remember justin?

invited him over for the christmas bbq.

well well.

and i'm going to KL too.

*gushes* the ending was so sweeet!!

although it didn't really went the way i expected it to..

Li Shaoran: Sakura..I like you *runs away*

*Sakura looking dazed for a few days*

Li Shaoran(after school): Can we talk? My mom called. *mumbles mumbles and runs away again*

^{he ALWAYS runs away in critical situations!!!}

Tomoyo: Sakura, I've heard that Li's flying off to Hongkong..and he's never coming back to Tomeoda!(That place in Japan where this all takes place)

*Sakura cries, and apparently with her tears creates a new card(i felt like slapping her left and right and shout WAKE UP GO TO THE AIRPORT RIGHT NOW but that's too emo)*

(At airport) Sakura: SHAORAN!!

Li: Wha-?

Wei(Li's bodyguard/kungfu teacher/guardian/mentor/a lot of other things!): Here, take this *passes something to Li*

Sakura: Can I have that bear?(bear was handmade way way WAY long long LONG before this by LI!!! ain't he sweeeeeeeeeeeeet? he can cook and all too!!!)

*Li passes bear, smiles*

THE END.

i told you it was a weird ending.

and sakura says something like we'll see each other again right?

okay so maybe i compressed the who scene abit.

but most of the time they were going around looking embarressed around each other anyway.

there's alot of lesbian and gay action in this show, i can't believe it!

1. Tomoyo LOVES Sakura(luckily, Sakura likes Li. or i'll call the producers up!)

2. Tomoyo's mother LOVES Sakura.....'s mother. (see the weird situation??)

3. Yukito LOVES Touya(this is crazy. Touya loves someone else, anyway. 2 good looking guys! sheesh.)

and this is the killer, the one that made me go crazy from laughing.

4. Yue LOVES Clow Reed!!!!

man. i'm practically typing the whole 70 episodes out.

hmm. i might as well create a shrine...

no NOT THAT SHRINE.

it just means a website dedicated to whatever you want to dedicate the website to.

heh. guess wwhat i'm creating for?

correct!

min you CRAZY LITTLE GIRL!

I WANT A ONII-CHAN!!!!!

but it's like impossible..

i've just read my all my recent posts.

and i really sound like an idiot.

nevermind.

EXAMS END OFFICIALLY TODAY FOR ME!!!

stupid physics paper. MCQ also that hard.

whatever.

back to my cup noodles.

hey. this song. you guys know that lonely song? from so long ago. love it! ^^

happy day!

seems like all i can talk about is CCS.

okay. i'll talk about exams.

what do you get when you pair an idiot up with an exam she didn't study for?

a failed exam, that's what.

i think history will repeat itself...if the form of my results.

last year, i actually got a 39(39!! sheesh!) for physics and i managed to scrape through chemistry...

i think that's gonna happen again..and again...

you know, now i've watched all the way to episode 50+.

crazy ain't it!

lol. 20 more epis to go!

i even wanted to rent the VCD. but i think there's no need for it.

now if i can just a picture of Yue, you guys will just know why i LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE CCS!!

*dazed face + big smile*

by the way Yue is the real form of Yukito, Toya's best friend.

long story. heh. and yes, its the same Yue as in moon in chinese. his power comes from the moon, apparently.

i've found another reason why i like CCS!

sakura's new power is from stars!

okay nevermind.

back to geography....

happy studying...3 more days...

AHHH TOYA KINOMOTO HAS A GIRLFRIEND!

okay i know most of you won't know what i'm talking about in this post.

so if you're not interested in cardcaptor sakura, you can go links and choose another blog =)

so. toya apparently had a girlfriend, when he was in junior high(he's now in high school) who is now sakura's temporary maths teacher.

and that he can see things that people can't see.

and she can predict things in the future.

by "hunch-ing"

they're so lovely together!

i did say you won't know what i'm talking about right?

go watch episode 25 onwards! then you'll catch the drift.

i'm at 28. right now. =)

confessions of a girl in love with anime.

sheesh. i sound mental.

have you ever heard the song Don't Lie by Black Eyed Peas?

well. its a nice song right?

i was just listening to it.

and telling everyone who will listen why its not good to be in 4E1

1. you HAVE to be the best. you don't have a choice.

2. if you aren't the best, everyone in your class look down on you. however if you are the best, the rest of the level scoff you.

3. there's so many crazy things to remember. for example pure chemistry has electrolysis but combined doesn't.

not that i mind electrolysis. its just an example.

4. level of competition is high! tensions running high! people fighting cuz "his/her results are better than mine"! HOW SILLY.

if you wanna know who are these silly people are, ask me personally. i'll be glad to divulge this "secret".

5. people always like to say "4E1 what, you should be the best in everything!" HELLO, we are still as human as you are. not robots.

6. we cannot take art subs like D&T. i WANTED D&T. although alot of people kept saying "you think D&T very fun and easy arh?"

you think additional maths very fun and easy arh????

pfft.

7. we are the first to tio anything you know. this applies to all first classes i.e. 1E1, 2E1, 3E1.

see?

i'm not gonna let another y-chromosomed homo sapien put me down...

wheee!

its a happy happy day!

the princess is happy, yes she is, cheery and sunshine and all!

just that now's night time. heh heh.

sheesh i'm typing really fast.

i have a lot of msn replies to go!

okay done.

how was my day?

fine!

chinese paper was fine. the end. lol. i had quite enough time, praise the Lord.

and then went home to change then out to rach's for cell.

had a little accident.

wore that lovely pair of yellow heels.

i tripped and nearly fell...

and got my little right toe scratched.

the left toe had a blister..=(

BUT! i'm still happy. minor accident. nothing much. hee.

so. i met glenn on the bus today.

heh. xinfang, you know who right?

well, since he isn't reading this, it doesn't matter if i say that..HE STILL LOOKS AS GEEKY AS POSSIBLE.

OH XINFANG THIS IS FOR YOU: yesterday i was talking to him online. and then i showed him the pic the four of us took at far east. then the pic i was beside you mah, then i asked him "you guess which one is me"

then he say, there, on the right, beside that chiobu.

LOL! and then he asked if your boyfriend is those big pai kia!

tell you more when i can haha.

so anyway, reached rach's house, hung around, had a great bs(my last lesson! GS lesson 10!!)..watched a little CCS heh heh. rach said it was silly. but it's nice!

then had a GREAT cg, and spent sometime eatinglike a pig lol.

then david who has got his license drove us home!

us : winnie, si qian, kok quan, jin yu, annabel, rach, kaikee and me, of course. how else will i be telling the story?

then went home...lalala...

and my fav song was on 987 top ten!

beep by pussycat dolls feat. will.i.am!

this song is cracking me up. only one by yellowcard.

you know why?

cos every sat, there is this joker who likes to listen to this song and act it out in the MRT.

so embarressing...

hmm. my hyperactivity seemed to have died down.

it's a lovely day. all sun and clouds, no rain. a blue, blue sky.

well i'm not very sure. i haven't bothered to look up and observe the sky. =D

but still, it's lovely enough for me to sit back, relax a little, put my books aside, enjoy my little delicious sumptious lunch of....instant noodles?

what? instant noodles is luxury to me. you've heard of fresh food-deprived families, but you haven't heard of instant-food deprived families. like mine.

haha. yes, i'm a little crazy.

i'm having exams??? what do you expect? of course i'm under stress!

i think i'm gonna start that weird thing.

you know, when exams rolls round, everyone stays away from the computer.

instead, for me, i stick to the com. i'd be like blogging everyday.

check out my previous posts during october exams last year if you don't believe me. lol.

i'm a little sick of blogging now, though.

CCS! XD

MY DEAR CUPCAKES!!!!

lovers of CCS, listen up!

okay fine. read this properly.

GO TO YOUTUBE FOR THE EPISODES OF CCS!!

jsut type in card captor sakura episode 1 and so on!

enjoy! i'm at episode 3. ^^

right.

i got this interesting email from szehan. its FOR babes ONLY.

1. Did you know kissing is good for health?
umm. eww.

2. Bananas are good for menstrual cramps.
i didn't know that. must try. =D

3. It's good to cry.
very. girls, everytime you wanna cry, just go ahead. don't stop yourself. its not healthy.

4. Chicken soup actually helps you feel better.
well..not for me..everytime i look at chicken soup and the amount of oil floating on top of the soup, i just wanna dump the whole thing in the trash.

5. 94% of boys would love it if you sent them flowers.
gosh is this true? what has become of our world?

6. Lying is actually unhealthy.
it's a lot more than unhealthy.

7. Only apply mascara to your top lashes.
apply to both top and bottom lashes and you can forget about opening your eyes.

8. It's actually true, boys DO insult you when they like you!
excuse me? why insult someone you like? sheesh.

9. It's impossible to apply mascara with your mouth closed!
never knew that. but then again, the last time i used mascara was last year.

10. 89% of the guys want YOU to make the first move.
really? seems to me most guys always make the first move.

11. Chocolate will make you feel better.
DEFINATELY. VERY VERY TRUE. chocolate ALWAYS make me feel better. very much better. just don't think about how many pimples you'll sprout after eating.

12. Most guys think it's cute when you say the wrong thing.
uh. depends. what if you accidentally pointed to an old lady and said, "is that your ex-girlfriend?"

13. A good friend never judges.
heh heh heh. now you know who are your friends.

14. A good foundation will hide hickeys!
who has hickeys here? haha. but when you put this thick layer of foundation, EVERYONE WILL know that you're hiding something. what else than hickeys?

15. Boys aren't worth your tears.
this kinda contradicts with the above No.3. but really, boys aren't worth your tears. evil but true.

16. We all LOVE surprises!
well i don't know about you other babes, but i sure do! nice ones lah. don't hide behind a wall and "surprise" me.

okay so this is a little stupid. but i am bored. what do you expect from someone who is bored to the extent that she spent time blowing up a cushion just to do something?

i even have time to make this post a very colourful post.

see? now it's ORANGE.

what is so nice about horror movies?

i mean, you watch a movie, and then you scare yourself silly...and you feel great about that?

Accidentally In Love

YOU HAVE TO WATCH THIS. i forgot how much i LOVE cardcaptor sakura. and that guy. i forgot what's his name lol.