First day of school after the holidays, and there's not OB lecture. Oh well. The only reason why I came to school so early is because daddy has to come Tampines anyway, and I don't have my ez-link card with me currently.

So I took a smart action and brought my laptop with me and came to school to watch......videos....

HO HO HO.

so off to videos, then to microecons later on.

Recent events:

1. Christmas eve @ Esplanade with my cell group members - count down to xmas.
2. Spent time in the east.
3. Appreciation CG @ Pris' with my CG.

Christmas came and went, with a blink of an eye.

NO more countdowns, I never did like them.

Welcome to the first and last edition of Things That Min Don't Like, by the (un)celebrated author, yours truly.

this is gonna be totally honest, and could be nasty, too.

1 I don't like chili. Kills my throat.

2 I don't like being with people that already know each other and clique up and leave out the rest.

3 I don't like not being in control when I see messes that can be solved very simply.

4 I don't like not being told about things that other people know about.

Like if the very-important people know Info A because it helps to run the "organisation", the not-so-important-but-still-important people should know about it, or at least the gist of it.

We can then cooperate with the very-important people and it makes things easier for the very-important people and the not-so-important-but-still-important people and most of all the very-very-very-important person.

5 I don't like people who don't follow instructions given by the very-important people and can only think of what THEY THEMSELVES want to achieve.

I can only come up with 5. Too tired.

To my dear YISS 4E1 '06 mates, I'm sorry I didn't go for the chalet. I had a camp right at those dates! I really didn't want to miss it, it's the first time I'm missing one. Haha. Oh well ):

Guess you guys had fun! (: saw the pictures through some blogs.

The power of blogs!

Been through a roller coaster ride with my emotions recently.

I'm at the top of one of those loops now. The whole scene, it's frozen, and I can fall anytime.

I open my mouth and I say this again.

I miss my secondary school mates. I know it's no point writing it here in my blog.

There wasn't much politics when I was 16.

There wasn't much backstabbing.

There wasn't so much stress.

There wasn't so much hate, nor so much love.

I miss the crazy times.

I can't believe I let it all go.

I can't believe I went to the east thinking I'll have a new life to meet with a reprise of my old life.

Harder, stronger;

Yes, hello to that left-out feeling again.

Year after year, time after time.

I love Christmas because everyone around me is happy.

While I wallow in self-pity.

I hate this!

Oh only food can cheer me up. Cos it's lunch time.

Did I mention I woke up not long ago?

I'm not fated to have a happy Christmas.

It's the 3rd year that I've spent Christmas crying.

Yeah sound dumb.

Christmas to me?

A time of giving.

I'll give you all.

You don't have to know what goes on beneath.

It's my fault for spewing all that shit out.

I'll keep on saying sorry.

OK blog la blog la.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO LIM JIN YU MY:
- BEST BUDDY
- PUNCHING BAG
- EMOTIONAL PAIL
- ACCOMPANY ME WHENEVER I WANT
- BAG HOLDER
for almost 2 years already!

SORRY LA! When it was your birthday I was being a very busy woman! I am always very busy woman! You get to see me every week, very good already!

To JY: THANKS LA FOR BEING MY FWEN :D GIVE YOU HUG OK. MUST PAY MONEY ONE.

ANYWAY. the REAL reason I'm blogging is because of OTC. Why so late? Later you will find out. I'll go day by day.

17 december
First day of Temasek Polytechnic (TP) Orientation Training Camp (OTC). I was put into FYRTHO, WOOOTS!

Fyrtho apparently signifies fear.

Well hanged out with fellow group mates, about 50 of them, and we went to play station games and yadda yadda.

18 december
What a day. Woke up to morning PT (zzzzzz), had breakfast (zzzzz), cheered a bit (zzzzzzzzz), oh well. station games, even more, and at night we had the NIGHT WALK.

In school.

It's quite scary.

Serious. I don't wanna talk about it.

19 december
Last day of OTC. Well, Fyrtho got last for points. But I think we did pretty well for wet games and hunt-gry.

Didn't go to CPF mac, but went straight home cos I have to serve the next day.

20 december
Served for the Christmas service for Children's Church. As usual, doing bus, had prayer meeting afterwards.

Service was so touching.

Children are really a source of inspiration. They neer do think of what other people will think of them, and when they set their hearts into doing something, they will achieve it.

Even if it's a small matter to you, it;s different to them. Never look down on children.

21 december
Served again. I did transport again, but this is led 2 buses! Yay! First time I did transport myself, even if it is just for childcare centre.

First time I did block saturation too.

Pretty much an eye-opener for me, this day.

Also, my uncle and his family came from KL, Malaysia for Christmas. COOL! I had dinner at home for the first time in many many weeks.

22 december - today
Vivian came over, and this time we baked a lot lot lot.

My uncle and the rest of his family and my family went to some reservoir. Sian-ed. Luckily I didn't go. But it was good weather today.

The reason I didn't blog sooner was because up to last night, I was sleeping alone and thus didn't dare to stay up alone DUE TO OTC NIGHT WALK so I didn't stay up to use my laptop.

And then last night, obviously, my cousins were over and I was playing with my little girl and therefore had no time to use my laptop. Also, they would want to use it.

And I'm so not letting them near it.

And well. The little ball of sweet cuteness (my teensy girl cousin) is fluttering around on my bed, effectively messing it up.

She found a toy dog. Ah well, she can have it.

Bye world.

I have a long day tomorrow.

and I'll end with Fyrtho's signature cheer.

One for all, all for one
Fyrtho Fyrtho number one
Fyr fyr fyr fyr
To! (clap x4)
To! (clap x4)
To! (clap x4)
We will make you
To! (clap x4)
To! (clap x4)
To! (clap x4)
Judo!
Aikido!
Taekwundo!
Fyrthooooooo......
Fight like a champion fight fight!
Score like a champion score score!
Fight like a champion score like a champion
All the rest can go pangsai!
Pang sai pang sai
PANG SAI PANG SAI DUA DUA TEI AH
DUA DUA KANG AH DUA DUA KANG!
ehhhhhhhhhhh...
THE KANG, THE KANG, THE KANG MUST KAM!

New skin. Actually I started on this skin a long long long long long time ago but never really got to finish it. Now that I'm free, why not.

I'm a little bored, but I'm quite thankful that I'm feeling bored.

Cos I've never felt bored for a long time already.

It's nice to slack around a bit for a change.

I would play the Sims, but I don't have the CD with me. Crap.

Yo Funkies, I've updated the blog. And. This is for you! (:

I have a slide show too. show you guys someday.

I decided to create a new wishlist after going shopping with Vivian and BR.

*For info of funkies, it's not viviEN. but viviAN from TP HTM. my course.

Anyway we went Bugis shopping, and I got what I needed for Christmas.

Here's my new wishlist.

1. Skinny jeans in dark blue
2. New heels from Charles & Keith/Noda/Prettyfit
3. A pair of canvas shoes/sneakers
4. Mascara - Maybelline XXL, waterproof, dark brown.
5. Concealer from Missha/The Face Shop
6. Pink-orange coloured blusher from Silkygirl
7. Liquid eyeliner from The Face Shop
8. New Urban Male (NUM) Haivanas
9. A RAISE IN POCKET MONEY HO HO HO
10. Another NUM bag.
11. A long top to match the to-be-mine skinny jeans.
12. One of those little tees that has a quirky brand on it (e.g. Coca-cola BUGIS V GOT A LOT)
13. I can never have enough of earrings that are long, dangling, and silver in colour.
14. Huge coloured hoop earrings, I don't mind too.
15. A new mouse for my laptop

That's a lot of choices already!

Min so BHB.

I love everyone.

ouch.

i hate ob.

i hate...

i hate...

i hate...

i hate late nights cos late nights = eyebags.

i should.

not only go to sleep.

cos i'm more then just tired, already.

It's that time of the year again.

I wrote the same exact sentence in my diary (yes I have a PRIVATE NO ACCESS diary on top of my blog, so that I can rant at anyone I like without hurting anyone not like someone I know) today, but the contents of my diary is different.

That had a Christmas list. My blog, however, will have a Christmas WISH list.

Yes, I'm that BHB. This helps prevent unwanted Xmas presents. You do want me to appreciate your present, eh? (:

So, in no particular order:

Min's Christmas Wishlist for 2007
by Min la!

1. Skinny Jeans in Black, blue, or brown.
2. New heels from Charles & Keith or Noda
3. A pair of canvas shoes/sneakers
4. Mascara - Maybelline XXL, waterproof, dark brown.
5. Concealer
6. Pink-orange coloured blusher

and the BEST of all...

7. A Nintendo Wii plus one more controller

Yeah THAT'S ALL FOLKS.

Study OB, no more paper le!

And the Quote Of The Day is?

See what's beneath the skin; don't assume.

And, say Thank You to your parents.

I CANNOT GO ON LIKE THIS.

WHERE'S THE "YOU CAN DO IT!" SPIRIT?!

Come on it's nearly Christmas. The world needs more love. All I have to do is to be nicer.

Don't give up, Min.

Don't give up.

Don't give up on the world.

Don't give up on God.

Don't give up.

It hurts a lot..

P.S. I want a Nintendo Wii for Christmas.

430^th post, I've come a long way. This blog's seen so much.

Sorry for the long blogiday (blog holiday). I've been so busy with school, Trybe and matters of the heart and soul.

Trybe Sports Day was a success! I know it's kind of late, but NOW I'll extend my gratitude to all those who came for the event! Thank you!

Kudos to Bingrong and Team (myself included :P) who made the event a success! We rock sehh!

And of course to TRYBE itself!

Mighty day.

Zhipeng's wedding last monday, it was SO BEAUTIFUL. I have no other words I can use to describe it.

Zhipeng and Tiffany performed a song for us. I used to love this song so much back when I was younger.


Sometimes When We Touch

Old, old, old song. So old I don't even know who sang it. This video is made from some movie of the past.

Tiffany was amazing! (:

And to current news.

Sean sent me another old song, but this is from the 90s, not so bad.


You're Still The One
By Shania Twain

(When I first saw you, I saw love. And the first time you touched me, I felt love. And after all this time, you're still the one I love.)

Looks like we made it
Look how far we've come my baby
We mighta took the long way
We knew we'd get there someday

Bridge:
They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong

Chorus:
(You're still the one)
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life
(You're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night

Ain't nothin' better
We beat the odds together
I'm glad we didn't listen
Look at what we would be missin'

(Bridge)

(Chorus)

I'm so glad we made it
Look how far we've come my baby

Thanks to Sean for the songs! HAHAHA. You ARE TOO TALL for your own good.

I miss those times.

I wanna run away from projects assignments and tests.

I'm in school, doing what could only be called CHIONGING PROJECTS with a huge S.

Destress a little, blog a little.

Do a little publicity. Here's my lovely darling SABRINA's blog! Please visit.

I love marketing. I love marketing. I love marketing.

I wish I could type so fast and so much for my marketing case study.

Sean's so funny.

Just now Sean said:

Sean Ready, Fire! Aim. ( 150 , 125 ) says (10:35 PM):
dont so like that lah
Sean Ready, Fire! Aim. ( 150 , 125 ) says (10:35 PM):
sean heres
Sean Ready, Fire! Aim. ( 150 , 125 ) says (10:35 PM):
for
Sean Ready, Fire! Aim. ( 150 , 125 ) says (10:35 PM):
err
Sean Ready, Fire! Aim. ( 150 , 125 ) says (10:35 PM):
you to whack

HAHAHAHA THANKS FOR MAKING MY DAY/NIGHT WITH THAT SENTENCE.

You know if you said that to me face to face, not over msn, seann you're like, so DEAD.

YES I DIEDED TEACHING YOU THE PRODUCT RULE, AND CHAIN RULE TODAY.

Still remember or not. Don't? I put here let you remember.

Chain Rule

^dy = ^dy X ^{du
dx du dx}

Product Rule

^dy = U ^dv X V ^{du
dx dx dx}

UNDERSTAND OR NOT I TAKE A LOT OF TIME TO TYPE THAT OUT OK YOU BETTER PASS YOUR EMATHS!

OK SEAN TEO CHEE MENG!

SCREAM!

_{Okay let's try that one more time}

SCREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

_{Feeling better?}

I DON'T BELIEVE THIS.

PEOPLE TALK ABOUT YOU IN THEIR BLOGS. IT'S OK IF THEY'RE YOUR "FRIENDS", AND THEY DON'T DARE TO TELL YOU FACE TO FACE ABOUT.

SO THEY'LL TALK ABOUT YOU IN THEIR BLOG. THEY'RE REALLY SUBTLE ABOUT IT TOO.

I HAD FOUR YEARS OF THAT, WHATEVER.

TO HAVE SOMEONE LIKE THAT TALK ABOUT ME? HOW COULD YOU.

I can't even feel hurt right now.

I'm gonna have an earlier night. Screw BCS, Marketing, and BCS again.

I'm back from my blogging break.

The trees are still green, but the leaves are turning yellow soon.

The weather's getting colder, and the atmosphere, too.

School's still busy, but it's slowly decelerating.

My friends are all free, and I'm still chained.

I like to read, but sometimes the books just don't agree with me anymore.

I can't believe it but everyone was right. I just didn't want to admit it.

Sentences form at the back of my head everytime we meet.

Sometimes they don't form anymore, because there wasn't a need to, already.

OK OK. I'll stop.

Check out this video man. Weird lyrics. AND FREAKY VIDEO LOL!


Cupid's Chokehold(Take A Look At My Girlfriend)
by Gym Class Heroes

Ba ba da da
Ba ba da da
Ba ba da da
Ba ba da da
Ba ba da da

Take a look at my girlfriend
She's the only one i got ba ba da da
Not much of a girlfriend
I never seem to get a lot ba ba da da, ba ba da da

It's been some time since we last spoke
This is gonna sound like a bad joke
But momma i fell in love again
It's safe to say i have a new girlfriend

And i know it sounds so old
But cupid got me in a chokehold
And i'm afraid i might give in
Towels on the mat my white flag is wavin'

I mean she even cooks me pancakes
And alka seltzer when my tummy aches
If that ain't love then i don't know what love is

We even got a secret handshake
And she loves the music that my band makes
I know i'm young but if i had to choose her or the sun
I'd be one nocturnal son of a gun

ba ba da da, ba ba da da

Take a look at my girlfriend
She's the only one i got ba ba da da
Not much of a girlfriend
I never seem to get a lot ba ba da da, ba ba da da

Take a look at my girlfriend
She's the only one i got ba ba da da
Not much of a girlfriend
I never seem to get a lot ba ba da da, ba ba da da

It's been awhile since we talked last and i'm tryin' hard not to talk fast
But dad i'm finally thinkin' i may have found the one
Type of girl that will make you way proud of your son

And i know you heard the last song about the girls that didn't last long
But i promise this is on a whole new plane
I can tell by the way she says my name ba ba da da

I love the way she calls my phone
She even got her very own ringtone
If that ain't love then i don't know what love is ba ba da da

It's gonna be a long drive home but i know as soon as i arrive home
And i open the door take off my coat and throw my bag on the floor
She'll be back in my arms into my arms once more for sure

Take a look at my girlfriend
She's the only one i got ba ba da da
Not much of a girlfriend
I never seem to get a lot ba ba da da, ba ba da da

She's got a smile that would make the most senile
Annoying old man bite his tongue
I'm not done
She's got eyes comparable to sunrise
And it doesn't stop there
Man i swear
She's got porcelain skin of course she's a ten
And now she's even got her own song
But movin' on
She's got the cutest laugh i ever heard
And we can be on the phone for three hours
Not sayin' one word
And i would still cherish every moment
And when i start to build my future she's the main component
Call it dumb call it luck call it love or whatever you call it but
Everywhere i go i keep her picture in my wallet like you

Take a look at my girlfriend
She's the only one i got ba ba da da
Not much of a girlfriend
I never seem to get a lot ba ba da da, ba ba da da

Take a look at my girlfriend
She's the only one i got ba ba da da
Not much of a girlfriend
I never seem to get a lot ba ba da da, ba ba da da

Looks like everyone I know is stressed out over something.

See, poly life ain't heaven even when compared to the poor JC1 kids who still have classes in their so called holidays. We have proper holidays but MAN we work hard for it.

it's nearly 930, I have half an hour more to complete my un-started assignment and I'm blogging.

BLOGGING.

I still don't get it, see. I know it's not good to hide, but this is dangerous. I mean, it's like giving a baby ba kwa to eat. Poor tyke will choke to death, see, just that this one's gonna choke from anger. Or something. Tantrum throwing?

I want a something that can let me record my voice. Well actually my laptop can do that. But whatever.

I wanna record everything out, so that I won't feel like I'm swimming in words, or something.

Or swimming in OB, marketing, CS2, C&E, Jap and BCS assignments and projects.

See, I'm a verbal person. I like to express myself verbally. You know?

I feel absolutely stifled, now.

And what's worse? I know I said I wanna spill it out, but when I open my mouth? Nothing comes out. Cos there are many things you just describe it with words or show it with actions or blog about. Then when you are one of those I-have-to-say-it-or-I-won't-die-in-peace sorta person, well, good luck.

I'm looking forward tothe weekend. It's a tiring but relaxing weekend.

But who the heck stresses themselves about the weekends???????????????

Oh my goodness what's wrong with me? Geez.

This is devastating. I hate it when nothing goes right after I planned it like shit. It's time to immerse myself into silly songs by Mika.

He's trained in opera, that's why he can sing like that.

What a darn cute song.

Makes me forget all insensitivity.

Or maybe it's my fault. Maybe I should bring my D higher.


Lollipop
by Mika



HEY What's the big idea?
Yo, Mika!

I said sucking too hard on your lollipop
Oh, love's gonna get you down
I said sucking too hard on your lollipop
Oh, love's gonna get you down

Sucking too hard on your lollipop
oh love's gonna get you down
Sucking too hard on your lollipop
oh love's gonna get you down
Say love, say love
oh love's gonna get you down
Say love, say love
oh love's gonna get you down.

I went walking with my momma one day
When she warned me what people say
Live your life until love is found
'Cause love's gonna get you down.
Take a look at the girl next door
She's a player and a downright whore
Jesus loves her, she wants more
Oh, bad girls get you down.

Singin'!
Sucking too hard on your lollipop
Oh, love's gonna get you down
Sucking too hard on your lollipop
Oh, love's gonna get you down
Say love, say love
Oh, love's gonna get you down.
Say love, say love
Oh, love's gonna get you down

Mama told me what I should know
Too much candy gonna rot your soul
If she loves you let her go
'Cause love only gets you down.
Take a look at a boy like me
Never stood on my own two feet
Now I'm blue as I can be
Oh love come and get me down.

Singin'!
Sucking too hard on your lollipop
Oh, love's gonna get you down
Sucking too hard on your lollipop
Oh, love's gonna get you down
Say love, say love
Oh love's gonna get you down

Say love, say love
Oh love's gonna get you down.

I went walking with my momma one day
When she warned me what people say
Live your life until love is found
Or love's gonna get you down.

Singin'!
Sucking too hard on your lollipop
Oh, love's gonna get you down
Sucking too hard on your lollipop
Oh, love's gonna get you down
Say love, say love
Oh, love's gonna get you down
Say love, say love
Oh, love's gonna get you down.

Mama told me what I should know
Too much candy gonna rot your soul
If she loves you let her go
'Cause love only gets you down.

Woaoa woaoa woaoa lollipop
Woaoa woaoa woaoa lollipop
Suckin' too hard on your lollipop
Oh, love's gonna get you down
I said suckin to hard on your lollipop
Oh, love's gonna get you down
Lollipop

I think I got no classmate yuan fen.

No really. From primary school until now. I don't know about kindergarten cos I don't remember.

But from primary school to now my close friends are so not my classmates. Well except for a short stint in secondary school.

that's all I wanted to say. Back to Japanese presentation proposal.

but tell me michael he's so hot.
tell me quando quando quando!

I like the cover with Nelly better, though. It's on my imeem, right side of the page.

MICHAEL BUBLE's so hot. The moment he goes, "Tell me when..." my heart goes NOW!

Geeeeez.


Quando Quando Quando
by Michael Buble and Bonita

Tell me when will you be mine
Tell me quando quando quando
We can share a love divine
Please don't make me wait again

When will you say yes to me
Tell me quando quando quando
You mean happiness to me
Oh my love please tell me when

Every moments a day
Every day seems a lifetime
Let me show you the way
To a joy beyond compare

I can't wait a moment more
Tell me quando quando quando
Say its me that you adore
And then darling tell me when

Every moments a day
Every day seems a lifetime
Let me show you the way
To a joy beyond compare

I can't wait a moment more
Tell me quando quando quando
Say its me that you adore
And then darling tell me when

Whoa lover tell me when
Oh darling tell me when
Oh come on tell me when
Yea tell me when

I realised something.

Being in an east side school, a polytechnic, didn't take me away from my secondary school friends.

Nor were they the one who stayed away (but how true is this I don't want to know).

It's me who wanted to run away, to a new place, have a new story, create a new life.

Hide the truth and the lies of yesteryears behind me.

But looking at them, now.

I don't know what to say, or how to feel. I don't feel anything, I guess.

Everyone went (well nearly) went to the same JC. Or even so, they went JC. Poly has different holidays.

I would have gone JC too, but there would probably be nothing left of my brain cells. Then again, it's not a lot of difference in HTM.

I miss secondary school. There wasn't this many politics to scorn at or be scorned about.

There weren't many cute guys who would have your attention all the time.

There weren't many cute girls who whould have the attention of the cute guys.

There weren't many things to think about, and many projects to do.

Food isn't so expensive, haha, in secondary school. But I'm not complaining about the 5 canteens and a foodcourt I get here. Food is love.

Alex met a certain ex-Yusoffian over DOTA who knew me (I swear I don't know him) and that guy spread some nasty stories about me. I've yet to know if they're true, but Alex apparently won't tell me what that guy said.

I look at my ex-classmates' blogs and they're all still in contact. I'm the loser who thought she could run away from all that.

Why, what happened in secondary school?

Nothing. I just messed up my life, that's all.

Simply put it. I know I made a lot of mistakes. People didn't like me for them. I knew people didn't like me for them. So at the first chance I got, I jumped all the way from Bukit Batok to Tampines.

But I did have fun in YI. I did have love, and I did have joy.

I just didn't see it.

It's probably too late, now, since the ties are strong.

I heard this on the radio while coming home after ministry. I was so tired, I don't think my eyes can close anymore.

I always pick up nice songs on the radio. No particular meaning, but I just like the mood of the song.

I don't know what to do, or say, anymore.




First Cut Is The Deepest
by Sheryl Crow

I would have given you all of my heart
But there's someone who's torn it apart
And he's taken just all that I have
But if you want I'll try to love again
Baby, I'll try to love again, but I know...

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
But when it comes to bein' lucky, he's cursed
When it comes to lovin' me, he's worst...
I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
And I'm sure gonna give you a try
If you want I'll try to love again, (try)
Baby, I'll try to love again, but I know...

OOHHH,
The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
But when it comes to bein' lucky, he's cursed
But when it comes to lovin' me, he's worst...

I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
But I'm sure gonna give you a try
Cuz if you want I'll try to love again(Try to love again, try to love again)
Baby, I'll try to love again but I know, OOHHH....

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
When it comes to bein' lucky, he's cursed
When it comes to lovin' me, he's worst

OOHHH, the first cut is the deepest
Baby I know (baby I know)
The first cut is the deepest
Try to love again...

It was going to rain.

At the block where the student lounge is, there is a walk way leading back to the school's main building. It has this wooden garden roof, with bougainvillea on it. Red, pink, orange flowers littered the floor.

It's nice to watch the coming wind pick up the flowers as it swirled through the masses of moving legs. It would go this way, and stop, and one could see the flowers suddenly moving from another way, which showed a change in wind direction.

The flowers would spiral, stop, spin the other direction, stop, suddenly swept to the left, and then swept right back.

And then suddenly, everything went still. It was as if the tv was muted - just for that split second.

The raining started pouring, and the wind is back, only fiercer. The flowers no longer float along with it, but, drenched in the rain, lay forgotten on the ground.

Ominous thunderclaps filled the air, and darkness came upon the school. People moved quickly in groups, huddled for warmth against the biting cold.

Why this post? It was what I saw as I walked from theSDC to the library.

People say, look beyond the grey clouds for the silver linings.

I say, hey, what if I don't even see the grey clouds before the cats and dogs come?

HOKAY.

TPRawks is over. Actually it was quite a bit ago. But I hadn't had time to blog.

I had so much fun. I knew I would regret not going.

Got myself a henna thingie at CCN day on Friday! While the Rawkers were F&E walking around campus.

I'm tired though. Mentally and physically.

It's back to school, Monday, lots ot catch up with.

Went over to Jill's place for potluck to celebrate Nigel's birthday!

But we didn't have pictures cos no camera? Something was up with Jia Wei's camera, I think. Nevertheless we had a laughy time.

They cracked lots of jokes.

I haven't laughed like this is eons.

Sometimes all the past anger and hurts come rushing back, like rapids nearing a waterfall. They're unstoppable.

But right at the end of the waterfall is a little oasis of clear, sparkling water of peace and serenity.

The cycle goes on and it leads to the sea.

Wide, unrelenting, over the horizon.

I wanted to acheive this, but now, I don't know if I can.

To my dearest everest silliest funniest cutiest friend Tan Lijie.

HAHAHA. So glad to see your name on my tagboard la. You know when I saw that I was like OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH LJ!!!!

Anyways yeah we HAVE TO MEET UP. I've got so much to tell you and I'm sure you've got lots too. Oh as you can see a year ago we were freshies at TPRawks and now I'm one of the weird and crazy PLs!

I'm so sorry though, my schedule's pretty tight! Sms, ok? I tagged your blog, anyway. (:

Cheers, babe. Hee. :D

Oh wow. I have to say this.

I'm tired. Worn out. Beaten down. Exhausted.

Sleepy!

But it was a wonderful first 2 days of TPRawks!

Quite amazing to see how I was one of those Secondary four students just a year ago, involved in all the activites that the students now are having fun playing with.

I don't regret this, no matter how much work I have. I know I would totally regret it, and not forgive myself, if I did not go for TPRawks.

So there. I don't have much to blog, but just wanted to give an update.

I've got to go on and and be who I am.

That's a line from a song. I think lots of people know what this song is, so I won't bother to type any details about it.

I'm in BCS now, and the best thing about being in this class is that we get to use computers and the teachers don't really care about what we do. So long as we do our stuff on time.

Doing some dumb stuff about Excel now.

I'm so excited, though. Excited for class to end, I mean. Sadly, I still have 2 hours and 20 minutes to go.

So many things are going on now, and I'm trying my very best to catch up with all of them.

I love movement, I always have. I can't take it if I have nothing to do. That's why I seem so busy. But whenever things get out of hand, I start complaining again. And I'll drop stuff, and not be busy. I'll start getting too free, and the vicious cycle continues over and over again.

A perfect Christmas.

What would yours be?

Mine?

White Christmas. Maybe in Switzaland. Ice-skating. Skiing. A fire in the fireplace. Chimneys. Real ones. Many cushy sofas. Presents. Plenty. A good lunch and dinner. Reindeers.

And friends. Definitely.

But that's pretty impossible.

My To-Do list:
1. Complete new blogskin
2. Create A&B timetable
3. Do Jap presentation
4. Do C&E assignment
5. Buy all textbooks! (it's freaking 3rd week of school already)
6. Go Pasir Ris park for TVSD Meeting
7. Do CS2 online
8. Do CS2 Project
9. I lost track....

SO MANY THINGS TO DO!

The spirit of a youth!

(Okay I'm bullshitting)

When I was in the car today on the way to ministry, I heard this song on Class 95. I love Class 95. Awesome songs.

Well anyway this song is from really way back, but this version's from 1989. Still pretty old. But it's a lovely but short song.

Talk about old loves! I used to sing karaoke at home when I was younger with my mom, and this was one of the all-time favourites. As a kid I never knew what it meant, but of course I do now.

But I still like it for no reason whatsoever.


Sealed With A Kiss
By Jason Donovan

Though we’ve got to say
Goodbye for the summer
Darling, I promise you this
I'll send you all my love
Every day in a letter
Sealed with a kiss

Yes, it's gonna be a
Cold, lonely summer
But I’ll fill the emptiness
I'll send you all my dreams
Every day in a letter
Sealed with a kiss

I'll see you in the sunlight
I'll hear your voice everywhere
I'll run to tenderly hold you
But darling you won't be there

I don't wanna say
Goodbye for the summer
Knowing the love we'll miss
Oh, let us make a pledge
To meet in September
And seal it with a kiss

Yes, it's gonna be a
Cold, lonely summer
But I’ll fill the emptiness
I'll send you all my love
Every day in a letter
Sealed with a kiss

Sealed with a kiss

I still have 2 other songs I wanna post! But never mind. I'll leave them to other days. I have up get up early, meeting bR later! Hello Br! I'm meeting Thomas and Richard too!

TVSD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just had to blog. I can't help it. Somehow, typing random things just make me feel better. Even though it's not related to what I really wanna say.

Influenced, no doubt.

Playing on my playlist now is Something Stupid. So not fitting.

CAN YOU BELIEVE I'M HUNGRY AT THIS HOUR?

GAWDDD what is wrong with me. Compare Min to when school started and now.

What happened to the "bubbly" girl?

Burst a few bubbles, I guess.

I bursted a large one just now.

It started with the swirl of a skirt.

Little, fiery, colourful explosions that rocked one soul and left one tingly from the experience.

There were first times and there were first times.

And always the seemingly everlasting feeling of peace, eternity, forever.

It revolved around the components that make up this huge reaction.

Slowly the excitement ran out, and the spark fizzled.

Distances increased while the words strewn all over like the stars in the night sky.

There never was a starting if not for an ending.

This makes one wonder about all the little things.

I feel as though....


Michael Bublé - Me & Mrs Jones

Me and Mrs Jones, we got a thing going on
We both know that it's wrong
But it's much too strong to let it go now

We meet ev'ry day at the same cafe
Six-thirty I know she'll be there
Holding hands, making all kinds of plans
While the jukebox plays our favorite song

Me and Mrs, Mrs Jones, Mrs Jones, Mrs Jones
We got a thing going on
We both know that it's wrong
But it's much too strong to let it go now

We gotta be extra careful
That we don't build our hopes too high
Cause she's got her own obligations and so do I
Me, me and Mrs, Mrs Jones, Mrs Jones, Mrs Jones

Well, it's time for us to be leaving
And it hurts so much, it hurts so much inside
And now she'll go her way, I'll go mine
But tomorrow we'll meet at the same place, the same time
Me and Mrs Jones, Mrs Jones, Mrs Jones

So I was being this innocent girl today (DON'T YOU DARE LAUGH) going to children's church for busing, and as usual got onto the bus, hand out bus tags etc etc...

And something, a conversation with a PRIMARY FOUR 10 YEAR OLD KID got me wondering WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH PARENTS NOWADAYS.

First thing. On the way to church, daddy was rambling on in the car about how parents who brought up their children to thinking that going to RGS, RI, VS, SCGS, and so on and how he didn't really enforce that on me.

And actually I could pretty much tell he regretted it too. But I think he'll reget it even more if I turned out to be some snobby ugly know-it-all geek from one of those really-really-expensive-autonomous-famous schools that is always, somehow, located near town.

So anyway. I met little Kelly from Hong Kong on the bus, and talked to her as the bus went around picking up other kids and finally heading to church for children's service.

We actually spoke in Cantonese for awhile, until I gave up and reverted back to English. Do you know how tedious it is for me to speak in Canto? I have to interpret the Canto into Chinese, and process it in my brain in English, before deciding what I want to say in English, translating it to Chinese and from there to Canto....

Yeah. That's why I just speak English now.

Kelly: Teacher min, so how old are you? (All helpers are known as teachers. SHADDDUP don't laugh at me)
Me: I'm 17!
K: So means you're in JC now?
Me: No, I'm in poly
K: HUH MEANS YOU CANNOT BECOME DOCTOR ALREADY?!
MIN: WTH?!

No I didn't say WTH. But I was so going on about it in my head.

Kelly went on to explain how not going to JC means not going to university which leads to not being able to be a doctor. This caused *gasp* number one.

Afterwhich she said she didn't know whether to be a doctor or a lawyer(*gasp* number 2), which then I pointed out laywer for she has exceptional speaking skills for a 10 year old.

She said, however, doctors are more in need in Singapore now, compared to lawyers *gasp* number 3.

HELLO? THAT'S A FREAKING 10 YEAR OLD.

When I was 10 all I cared was about swimming, my roller blades, piano, my roller blades, food, my roller blades, friends, and my roller blades. I love roller blading! Loved, I mean.

This is obviously the work of her parents.

Now imagine this, "Ah mei ah, grow up already must go Raffles Girl's School, okay? Then must study triple science, cos that's the best class! Then after that O levels must get 2 points okay! CCA minus 2 points, higher Chinese minus 2 points! Of course, you have to get all A1s! Then hor, JC must go Hwa Chong institute, must have good chinese, cos now China very strong! A levels hor, girl, must get all As okay? Then go NUS, study to become doctor or lawyer, then next time can earn a lot of money!"

Have someone say that to you everyday ever since you were born, it'll really happen.

Just that I don't think she's happy. Well she is superficially happy. She's fine. I mean, aiming high is good.

What happened to friends, and love, and fun?

I asked her what she liked to do in her free time. I don't think she has any.

All spent studying, so that she can go Nan Hua Sec? That's her aim, or her father's, actually.

Why? I think I lead a pretty good life. I don't wanna be exceptionally rich. I wanna live a normal life, a free life, a life with God, where I have time to do God's work. Not study like some...

Geez.

School second week!

I'm pretty fine, done with quite some assignments already, YEAH!

I re-arranged my timetable too, fwahaha.

I love school man. I'm in the student lounge now, blogging as I see the hordes of people going for the OTC/FO interviews. I'm glad I settled mine during the first week of school.

I was so hungry today! This is important ok!

I ate a serving of beef lasagne, and then ate cai fan after that.

Now I'm really full. And really bored.

Sighs.

Once upon a time, there was a very cute girl called Min...


...and a big bully called Jonathan. One day Min was happily eating her bisuits when suddenly...


Jonathan snatched her biscuit away and ate it!


"Haha! Nanny nanny poo poo! You cannot catch me!" Taunted Jonathan.


Min was very sad at first, but then she decided to take revenge...(hahahaha)


So she told Jonathan to play a game with her. If he lost, he would have to do a forfeit!


Apparently Jonathan lost, and has to be kissed by De Shun as a punishment. Tears rolled down his eyes as he said, "I've lost my first kiss!"

Oh, the fun we have in cell group! :P

HAHAHA. I posted this in the W450 blog also. But I think more people should read this.

Ok la, stop disturbing Jon for a change. SO funny. HAHA. This is for all the times you:
-Tricked me
-Bullied me
-Poked me
-Stole my food

HAHAHAHA Jon is my good brother la! YOU ROCKS LA JON. LOL.

Ok I saw this recently in the newspaper...

Raising 3 Supersmart Kids
"School is a waste of time"

Like HELLO?

School's a lot more then being just smart. So what if your youngest kid's in university? I bet I live a much more enriched, loved, wonderful life then he/she does.

Cos I don't just STUDY, for goodness sake.

What is the world turning into? Geez.

School. maybe 40% studying, 10% CCA and other activities to enrich a child's life, but it's 50% people.

You have to interact with teachers, other students, friends, good friends, best friends!

I bet their IQ is amazing but EQ is suckier then my IQ.

So what if they have 10 times my talent? I have 100 times the number of friends they have, I bet.

No life, this is what I call. No life. Succesful in the brain, relationship in the drain.

Shhhh.

Think about it. If things always went the way we expected it to, LIFE WILL BE NO FUN LA!

So, have an open heart, see open a bit! (in chinese)

Crud.

Here's some random sentences that will only make sense to me.

I deleted everything, cos I know what would happened if I chanced upon them again.

I'm glad for my friends, my wonderful friends.

I never knew it could hurt so much.

My Jap tutor is.... CUTE SIAH.

Project work first thing at CS2 tutorial. Sighs. I, uh, adore, absolutely adore project work. (yeah.)

Yay I have 4 friends already in Jap tutorial, 2 are current friends.

Last time was 2 years ago.

Thing is I never..... never mind.

HAHAHAHAHAHA!

Yes, I feeling like laughing.

HO HO HO?

My bed looks good.

But I can't sleep. I just can't sleep.

One last thing.

Girls are spelled S-E-N-S-I-T-I-V-E-P-E-O-P-L-E.

Sighs. School has started. I love TP. I love my school.

Really! I love TP, I love walking around my school.

I love my friends, all of them, so woderful. I mean it. I'm the horrible friend.

But I really don't need this marring up my happy life.

Lazy man.

Wednesday & Thursday: Trybe YCDI! run at PRSS, Friday a run at BLSS. Nothing much, except a slight change in the slides and the way you run the whole thing. Many thanks to Joel and Dy who were so encouraging!

I must say it's terrible to have to talk in front of class with

1. A blocked nose
2. A cough
3. Both

But I DID IT, even though I completely collapsed on Friday after 3 runs in a row. I thought camps were tiring, Trybe volunteers, wait til you try 3 runs in a row + really fun kids + a lot of talking + waking up at 6 repeatedly

Then again, it's the You Can Do It! (henceforth YCDI) programme, so if I Can't Do It, how can the kids Do It?

^{that sounded wrong....}

Anyway, tomorrow, school starts. I really don't know whether to look forward to it, or shun away.

I know. I'm back from Malaysia already!

I don't have pictures. DON'T ask why. I mean it.

But all I have to say is Cherating is beautiful. The beach resort isn't 5 star but it was amazing cos it was right next to the South China Sea.

Have you ever seen the sky meet the sea in Singapore?

If you head to Sembawang Park's beach (where I spent quite a bit of childhood there, God knows why seeing the fact I live in the west) you'll meet with Johor.

Same goes for Pasir Ris Park, you'll even see some islands.

Sentosa? Indonesia.

I've never seen the horizon before. Or this up close. Or this perfect. NO boats were out there, nothing was disturbing that perfect horizontal platform.

Actually in the 5 days I was there I only was at the beach once.

There was a total of 7 cars (huge MPVs!) there, so many people was there. But all I wanted to do was to be alone, for a change.

I'm not emo, or anti-social, or whatever! It's just that back in Singapore I have such a busy schedule I meet people everyday and I never get to finally sit back, really relax and spend time with MYSELF.

I finished a book lounging right beside the pool, and it was one of the most calming things I've ever done.

Breakfast was buffet style and I loved it.

Had a great rest and renewed my mind, soul, and body.

Oh here's the website for the hotel that I went! Holiday Villa Cherating.

School's starting next week, I just checked my timetable today. I got Japanese for CDS! oh WOW. But now I think of it, I rather learn French. Oh well. I have to choose one more CDS, apparently, according to dear Sabrina.

Fearful of what's in store next week. I know we don't have tutorials first week. But.

Why did I go TP?

Cos I won't have to see all the west side people....

And I can hide from all the east side people, when the need arises.

Sighs. When would I stop running, isn't it enough to run from the age of 10?

WHEEE going off soon. Thought I might blog a bit since my laptop is turned on already.

Blog about what?

I also don't know.

Yesterday.

Where to find chinese lyrics arh.

WAH MIN WANT CHINESE LYRICS FOR WHAT!

I not only want chinese lyrics, I want chinese songs also. I think I blog too much English songs, I wanna blog some of Sun's songs. But cannot find in Youtube. And I can't type Chinese, also.

Anyway, bye world. For 5 days, anyway.

Ouch. ):

OH man.

You know, what a guy can say to a girl to actually manipulate her?

Okay, maybe that may not be the intention of the guy. But all males out there, do you know you have the ability to melt a female's heart just by the words you say?

You may have a certain goal by saying certain things to a girl, but she may percieve it in a different manner from you.

I'm just trying to say males watch your words, you might make a girl like you by your words. or even, vice versa.

I got this from the latest (okay, latest by min's definitions) SG drama that I'm watching from Crunchyroll. Jem says it's from last year, though. I didn't watch much tv last year. O levels?

Ahaha, shitty excuse. I wasn't at home much to watch tv.

Anyway, I didn't lawyers can get that tou ru in their jobs that they would hold "court sessions" to determine matters of the heart. Then again, it's a TV show.

Did I mention I was going to Malaysia?

This coming Friday to next Tuesday, going to Kuantan. FINALLY GOING TO CHERATING BEACH!

Hello, I told my dad I wanted to go when I was sec 3. That was eons ago, when I was slightly shorter and had no sense of dress.

Oh man, check out my phone bill. A whopping $87.

Daddy ain't saying nothing, I'll just go and watch my SG drama.

Oh man. I totally messed up.

1. I NEED TO PLAN MY SCHEDULE PROPERLY.

2. I NEED TO WRITE DOWN EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE GOING ON CLEARLY.

BUT MOSTLY IMPORTANTLY:

3. I NEED TO CHECK MY SCHEDULE BEFORE PLANNING ANYTHING ELSE.

What is this man.

I'm so sorry.

Whew. What a day/night/day.

Watch Beyond The aXis Of Truth II on crunchyroll.com. It's super nice, here's the synopsis:

Edmund Chen and Ivy Lee reprise their roles respectively as a forensic pathologist who believes in supernatural science and a police superintendent who questions the existence of unexplainable forces. Together they tackle six mind-blowing cases involving time-travel, human cloning, a man with a half-brain, electricity-zapping red-haired women, latent genes and plant-human hybrids.

So there. Very mysterious indeed. I think it's not bad (:

Sometimes things go different from what we expect, because everyone has different expectations and goals.

And then, with a positive mindset and willpower, we will achieve our goals, and be satisfied with life.

Whatever. :P

FRIENDSTER IS NOW AVAILABLE IN TRADITIONAL CHINESE. WOW.

That's something that totally does NOT involve me, at all.

Anyway Friendster is taking a million years to upload my new photos. Grahh.

Here's a little countdown: 17 more days to school reopen.

Aw crud. And it's dinner time.

Cool, my 400th post. Maybe I should throw a party. Like, celebrate all these nonsense.

I don't need this right now.

Woke up, and I never should have turned on my laptop, anyway.

First thing Seaner said to me when I got online was EH MIN HOW'S YOUR RESULTS.

Okay, so I failed RHT again. I'll just retake the whole subject next semester.

If you knew me for long, you'd known I don't let things like this affect me. I don't stay sad for long. Why for?

No use blabbering over spilled milk, I guess.

I think I'm like this because I'm afraid to turn out like those freaks whom commit suicide if they don't get their 9 A1s, or in my case, GPA of 4.0

MY GPA IS 1.33, LIKE IT OR LOVE IT.

I'm proud of it. I passed, see.

So I'll work hard the next semester. I'll push myself. Not letting it affect me doesn't mean I don't care.

On the surface I don't let it show, but it torments me inside. I have feelings too, you know. I hurt inside, and I blame myself for not putting in effort too. WHAT MAKES YOU THINK I DON'T CARE????

I so do not need this right now.

Well since I just got the pictures for this day, I thought I'll blog about it again.

Saturday, 22^nd September 2007

From left: Nic, Min, Daniel. Bingrong, you pang seh us again okay. Always like that!

I tell you I'm as tanned as a chocolate cake now. We reached Sentosa around mid day, and chilled on the whatever-mat-that-it-is-called for half an hour, turning over and over like meat on a bbq pit.

After tanning and cleaning up, we went around the island taking pictures! The first picture was after tanning at the little island we swam over to. The one directly above is after swimming and tanning, at the steps leading up to the Merlion Walk.

Another picture at the Merlion Walk. Nic used his camera, but forgot to charge it. So our pictures are like, really hurried. This was one of the nicer shots.

These two jokers.

Doing one of his b-boy moves, again. Cool eh! Haha.

Yeah that's all. But that day I was so, so tired la.

TODAY! Went to watch movie with Jem, Balls of Fury. I tell ya it's HILARIOUS. haha. Tiny balls. Hahaha. Go watch! I won't spoil it for anyone.

After that was dinner with Henzy!

Ok. Lazy to elaborate. Hee. Good time hanging out with an old friend! (:

Time to go, people!

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me

Break my heart from what breaks Yours
Everything I have for Your kingdoms cause
As I walk from Earth into eternity

Hosanna, hosanna
Hosanna in the highest.

I now have butterfly-ed nails. Blue butterflies.

Spending the day at home, for a change, is really soothing.

Last week was so hectic.

Monday
Actually I think Monday I didn't do much. Cos I don't remember. Oh now I do. I studied for RHT.

Tuesday
I further studied for RHT -_- Anyway this was the test day, and I stayed out late after the paper to do visitation. Was tired out fully.

Wednesday
Whew! Sentosa, even though there wasn't much of a sun. With Jem, yeah, plenty of pictures! After that was his class bbq AND SOMEONE LABELED ME AN EXTRA I saw that.

After which a whole bunch of us stayed over at Jem's house. Played card games for awhile, before going to sleep.

Jem I know I've said this A LOT of times but your brother is seriously, seriously too cute for his own good. He sure will have a lot of girlfriends one. HAHAHA.

Thursday
I slept the whole day. the WHOLE DAY, PERIOD.

Friday
Children's Day service! WOOOO. Did busing for 2 services, after which I was totally tired out. I still had cell group! ahah. But I still went chalet, and I totally didn't regret that.

Met up with Henzy after cell, and we cabbed to Downtown East since it was nearly midnight.

First night at the chalet? Games, drink, games, drink, games. Poor Daniel got totally drunk. HAHAHA.

Who was there? Okay, in order of first night's sleeping position, Ryan, Cheryl, Ivan, Henzy, Daniel, yours truly, Michelle, and Nic. Henzy left the following day and BR came.

Saturday
So tired. But they made me go to Wild Wild Wet. It was fun la. I'm glad we went cos the slides reopened the day we were there! Even though I couldn't play since I wasn't wearing swimsuit (I forgot to bring heh heh) and it was dangerous to go in clothes.

But I got to play the huge-assed slide, where everyone sits in the huge float and go down the slide which is really bumby and twisty!

After that, back to the chalet. Sleep time cos everyone was so tired!

Lazy to finish blogging....

Sunday go church, and that's all. I'm lazy to finish. TOOO MANY things to say la.

I hope this week will be quieter.

Instinctively doing something isn't a habit, I realised. Maybe it's just different definitions.

These words are my own

I tell you, I'm in love with that song (refer to previous post), and I just love Natasha Bedingfield's voice!

I've been so ever busy, but it's been a great week (:

Not much to update about, well, not now, cos I'm so tired, and I have to be up around 8 for ministry tomorrow.

But my itchy hands die die want to blog.

Sometimes things just don't go our way, and when we force it to happen, it doesn't end up the way we want it to be.

To you who is troubled, know that no matter what happens keep your cool.

Things will just turn out fine, because that's just the way things are.

We were never meant to have a bad life, it's the results of our decisions.

I heard a song today on the radio, and I just had to blog about it, even though I have a huge day in front of me.

These Words
by Natasha Bedingfield

These words are my own

Threw some chords together
The combination D-E-F
Is who I am, is what I do
And I was gonna lay it down for you
Try to focus my attention
But I feel so A-D-D
I need some help, some inspiration
(But it's not coming easily)
Whoah oh...

Trying to find the magic
Trying to write a classic
Don't you know, don't you know, don't you know?
Waste-bin full of paper
Clever rhymes, see you later

These words are my own
From my heart flow
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you
There's no other way
To better say
I love you, I love you...

Read some Byron, Shelly and Keats
Recited it over a Hip-Hop beat
I'm having trouble saying what I mean
With dead poets and drum machines
I know I had some studio time booked
But I couldn't find a killer hook
Now you've gone & raised the bar right up
Nothing I write is ever good enough

These words are my own
From my heart flow
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you
There's no other way
To better say
I love you, I love you...

I'm getting off my stage
The curtains pull away
No hyperbole to hide behind
My naked soul exposes
Whoah.. oh.. oh.. oh.. Whoah.. oh..

Trying to find the magic
Trying to write a classic
Waste-bin full of paper
Clever rhymes, see you later

These words are my own
From my heart flow
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you

That's all I got to say,
Can't think of a better way,
And that's all I've got to say,
I love you, is that okay?

Enjoy, people. Tata!

I don't believe it.

You know, studying's so not for me. Oh well. I'll just have to pass this paper.

Have you ever tried doing something for someone really important to you?

And then you'd realized it wasn't working, and after struggling awhile, you'll give up.

And just at the point of giving up, it all comes back, the memories return momentarily, and you're right back to square one?

The things they'd do, people around us.

A small action might be so to you, however it might not be perceived the same way by others.

In the beginning of courtship, it is always sweet. The sweetest actions, the loveliest words. The hints drag on.

After two people get together, things change a little.

The ecstasy is slowly used up.

Don't give up hope, for love is all around. Whether you want it or not.

I just wanna go and sleep. RHT is killing me.

Did I ever mentioned I got my results back weeks ago and got a horrible GPA of 1.33 and I failed RHT and I have to retake it and if I don't pass the supp paper I'd have to retake this whole subject again and it'll be another semester of chi-square and one-tailed tests and research methods which I still know nuts about?

Not to mentioned I'm feeling terrible stretched out with my hectic schedule, I don't even know what I'm doing at times. And to think I'm so selfish to leave out my friends and family.

I need you.

Almost 400 posts already!

I believe I can do it. Everything in my life now.

Why can't I do it all at once? Everything.

Church, ministry, God. Friends, girls, boys, relationship, Trybe. Family, extended family.

All of it, every single day planned nicely.

If you want to ask me out, I'm so sorry. You'd have to plan a week before, and it's not because I'm some bloody big shot, I just have a lot of things to do. I apologise before hand.

I'll get my ministry schedule right first, cell group and church is fixed already. God is forever, and everything else falls in.

My weeks are planned weeks before the actual day.

You think it's fun being busy?

I love it, but it's caused my body to fail, like today.

I seriously need to plan my time out.

Oh crap, and money too -_-

If you disagree with me, and say that I spend too much time there and not here, you're welcome to raise it up with me. That will help me improve in my time management skills, and discipline myself into knowing what is priority in my life.

First up though, RHT paper this week, no going out. My week's packed already, with Children's day services and the chalet in the weekend.

And of course, sentosa with a special someone.

(:

Sorry people, anything has to be on next week.

Also, I'll apologise to Naios people for not turning up for the outing, I was totally knocked out today. I slept like, whoah.

Woke up to a splitting headache, too, but I'm better now, definitely.

Sorry to Henzy for the last minute cancel, things like that should not happen. It's just that church ministry has to come first. And anyway I was told last minute -_-

Sorry to Bingrong for the ever-continuing turning down of lunches and dinner!!!!!! This one really must say sorry, but really, I can't make it for last minute things anymore ):

Sorry to Sabrina for seeming like I don't have time for you! I really can't make it if you call me last minute ):

Sorry to everyone else who deserves a sorry!

I can't mess around no more, I'm 17 already.

It's time to be a Big Girl now!

Blogging is like?

Yeah, what is blogging to you? This is a mini English lesson I'm going to use as an introduction to my blog post today, just to spice things up.

You know, people always give descriptions like, I'm tired like shit, or this is as yellow as a banana... these are called..?

Okay I forgot what they are called. Help, please. But then, you get the gist of what I'm saying, right?

So, tagboard now, what is blogging like?

To me, blogging is like, eating something you love to eat, let's say, chocolate.

When I eat chocolate, I tend to think a lot. About everything possible, while enjoying the wonderful taste of chocolate inside my mouth.

And then after I'm done with it, I want more and more chocolate.

After which I fall sick from eating too much chocolate, and then stay away from it for awhile.

Therefore because I stayed away from it for awhile, I start to crave it again, and the cycle repeats.

NEVER MIND ME, HAHA.

Second visitation today, and it really inspired me. Well, David, not David Choo, the person whom I'm helping, really inspired me.

Wow, I don't even know where to start. Ask me about it.

Off to do songsheet now.

Anyway, about my previous posts, don't worry too much about it. I mean you guys should know me by now, I'm very emotional (HIGH I LA!), if I'm happy the world knows, if I'm upset the world knows, so, don't mind me, this is my blog afterall, hee hee!

LOVE TO THE WORLD!

3rd post for the day? There's something seriously wrong with me. I just crave for writing, can you believe it? Like how a thirsty man craves for water.

That's not the worst thing, I have a song stuck in my head on top of all the splitting feeling my brain's going through.

But it hurts, when I think, when I let it sink in, it's all over me
I'm lying here, in the dark, I'm watching you sleep. It hurts a lot.
And all I know is, you've got to give everything
Nothing less, cos, you know I give you all of me

Right off the top of my head too, them lyrics. Gwen Stefani's 4 In The Morning. I've been listening to it all over and over again, but the song's stuck, not even when I was watching that AWESOME Bleach movie.

Don't get me started on Bleach! Geez, Byakuya is just THE BEST LA. Why must anime characters (okay, the male ones) be so darn good-looking? Even though it's just fake.

Those.. huge-assed.. anime eyes. WTH?!

And his sword technique. That is just sick la, but it's cool.

And the way he protects his sister Rukia but is so cold to her!

I'm not going to stop at Byakuya, since from the beginning of this post it was perceived as meaningless already, and no one will read this far so I'll just rant my way through.

I've not started on Toushirou! WAH LAO shortie with the mean look and the ice. I love anime characters that make use of ice. Or water. Or snow. Whatever. It's all sparkly and nice and no blood spills, unlike using that scattered blade technique of Byakuya which is just gross la, just sick.

I don't get why anime girls have to have such huge boobs. Don't they get in the way?

I think they would. Geez.

My headache's not helping.

It's nearly 10. Darn. I so wanna.........

What a game.

It's just, damn.

I woke up twice in a row early already, my eyes decided not to work with me today.

Stupid contact lenses. Made me so tired I slept all the way home from Chinatown after buying moon cakes. And it was ONLY 6+ in the evening.

Two words were on my mind when I reached home : SLEEP NOW.

It's just, damn.

How can cluelessness get any worser then cluelessness?

I know, cluelessness repeatedly?

I wanna clang on my piano until my fingers are swollen.

I wanna strum on that guitar until all my picks break and my fingers bleed.

And I wanna type on this keyboard until the laptop breaks, but this laptop costs more then my life, so yeah.

Draft autosaved at 9:04 PM

Shit, I don't even know what I'm going on about.

Can't get to sleep, though, that's why I'm here.

Oooh crap, I feel the beginning of a very sore throat.

Maybe, just maybe, I'll feel better if I study RHT now.

oh my gosh, did I just say that? I think I'm feverish then, too.

Since when did Windows Live Mail provide 5 gb of email space?

I have only used up 1%? Gee.

OH, the woes, and I have no where, no one, to spill it to.

My heart just wanna break but I'm too busy laughing. See how confused I can get?

HEY, HEY, IT'S ALL OK.

Guess what song is that. Only CHC people will know anyway. HAHA. So, JY, fire away.

SHUT UP about the photos though, you didn't do very well, don't rant on me. HAHAHA.

Yums.

Oh man, I'm in a dilemma now, I hate them.

Always have to decide between doing which 2 things I love.

I'm sleepy already.

Wake up so early. Darn, you better be appreciative :P

Obviously. As anyone can see from the pictures, I did a little baking today. One of my most successful times today!

Some are reserved for you dear vivien! (:

Used the new biscuit gun I got in Malaysia EONS ago, didn't have time to bake until recently.

Getting a toy like that, to me, is like how you give a 5 year old boy a new set of trains or cars.

I love baking. I hate the cleaning up, though. Sighs.

Today is a slow moving day. I love days like this, where I don't have to worry much. I even enjoyed doing chores today.

Only another month before my peace is gone. GRAHH.

(:

What a night. Day. Whatever.

Friday was the rehearsal for the competition, and I kind of screwed that up cos of gastric (stupid lunner).

And of course, saturday was the real thing.

Expected not to win, anyway. BUT DAMN COOL they gave REAL MONEY. 50 bucks inside them envelopes.I know, cos I saw David's prize of 200 bucks.

DAMN COOL. CONGRATS TO DAVID (:

So tired.

Oh man, supp paper...

WHY IS IT NEVER ENDING.

What is with that individually-bordered-post that is so popular now?

Me, self-declared queen of HTML (note: SELF-DECLARED), have no idea how to do that, and to find that thomas and vivien both have things like that I INSIST ON KNOWING HOW.

After Saturday, though, and I only have 3 hourse left to :
1. Redo my nails
2. Eat what's left of lunch
3. Sing, sing, sing.

NEVER AGAIN I WILL JOIN A SINGING COMPETITION.

I think I've stressed enough on that.

And seems that there's a lot of blogtivity (blog activity, heh heh) going on, all those pass-around chain posts about your favourites this and that.

The latest one is hilarious, check out Thomas or Vivien's blog, both under Trybe

List of activities I have upcoming:
- Monday is stay at home. I have things to prepare for Tuesday
- Tuesday is a day of sand, sun, sea, wind, and love. AND FOOD.
- Wednesday, Mummy's taking me to Chinatown to buy mooncakes, YUM. Or there might be Naios outing!
- Thursday's reserved for Henzy la. I think he will start killing me if I say no to dinner one more time.
- Friday's for BR, Thomas, 2 people whom I have to keep turning down due to SYTYCS.
- Saturday? Sunday? OH PLEASE, I NEED RECUPERATION?

That's how it's going to be, unless there is last minute changes, which I highly anticipate.

Cos, that's where life really comes along, and blow you away, with little surprises that are tucked in every possible corner.

Ooooh, flowery language. Time to cook lunch (more like lunner - lunch + dinner) and do my nails will practice my stage mei li

Please pray for me. :D

Saturday, Riverwalk at 2 pm, I'll be bring my own rendition of Frank Sinatra's Fly Me To The Moon for the So You Think You Can Sing competition.

We even have a video, to prove it to you.

Sms 96494359 if you wanna come (:

I NEED MENTAL SUPPORT PLEASE COMEEE!

I think my currently skin is so flexible lah.

I just change the background when ever I want and call it a NEW SKIN.

Wooh, Min damn smart.

And damn bored.

Let me see what spring is like in Jupitar and Mars

WHY NO LOVE HINA ON CRUNCHY ROLL???

Oh well, some people might find Love Hina a bit erotic and WRONG, but the storyline is just so different. I really wanna know what happens in the end, but really...

Stuck on watching videos again! Oh well, it IS the holidays. But I haven't had much time to watch, with the SYTYCS competition this saturday, fan club things to do.. and a certain need to meet (:

OH well. I want to watch so many many.

And I need to calm down on this singing thing too.

REMIND ME TO NEVER EVER JOIN ANY SORT OF COMPETITIONS THAT REQUIRE ME TO DO SOLO THINGS LIKE THIS.

SYF is perfectly fine.

This is different!

NEVER AGAIN.

NEVER EVER AGAIN.

I mean it! Geez.

I will never stress myself out like this again.

And so, the best was to destress is, ironically, listening to songs (including the one that I have to sing).

I think I've posted this up before, but it won't hurt to do that again! It's a nice song (:

Cry On My Shoulder

If the hero never comes to you
If you need someone you'e feeling blue
If you're away from love and you're alone
If you call your friends and nobody's home
You can run away but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I show you there's a destiny
The best things in life
They're free

But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven where we'll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh just call me and I make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay here by your side
I promise you I'll never hide

What real love can do
What love can do

I'm so happy, I can wilt a sunflower just by standing beside it.

I know I haven't blogged for so long! So many things happened, plenty of which I wanna say and some of which I don't wanna mentioned (something to do with a certain vocal training that happened over the weekend)

It's been, lets see... more then one and a half years.

Surprised? Shocked? Amazed? Windswept?

Happy.

This is from Vivian, whom tagged me to do this..

List out the top 5 presents you wish for:
1. A new pair of jeans
2. Liquid eyeliner
3. 2 way cake
4. concealer
5. this is a secret

Answer the following questions:-
The person who tagged you is:
Vivian

Your relationship with her is:
Good Friend

Your 5 impression of her:
1. damn tall la
2. damn skinny also
3. study hard for exam
4. got bf (:
5. my good friend

The most memorable thing he has done for you:
uh... share salad with me? HAHA

The most memorable words he had said to you:
eh, how was your paper? HAHA!

If he/she becomes your lover, you will:
HELLO? SHE'S ATTACHED!

If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she will have to improve on:
She's gotta be more lovong to her deardear LOL

If he/she becomes your enemy, you will try to salvage it?
NO WAY will she be my enemy.

If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
STUPID QUESTION

The most desired thing you wan to do for him/her now is:
uh. Be a good friend for her.

Your overall impression of him/her is:
Lovely outgoing girl!

How do you think people around you will feel about you:
damn noisy for someone so short

The characteristic(s) you love of yourself is/are:
make people feel at ease

On the contrary, the characteristic(s) you hate yourself is/are:
too direct

The most ideal person you wan to be is:
uh. somebody...taller?

For people who care and like you, say something to them:
YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL. whoever you are. In your soul.

Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to noe how they feel abt u:
1. Jem
2. BR
3. vivien
4. CY
5. seaner
6. JY (as much as you say you don't like and...)
7. Ja Mess
and wah lao anyone else lah.

So cold.

I mean the weather.

I hate this period of the year. I hate it when it rains, and it wets my shoes when I go out, and when it gets so cold.

I hate it when it rains during the holidays, and I can't do outdoor activities. I can't go roller blading, I can't go swimming, and worst of all I can't go sentosa!

It literally dampens my mood, if you get what I mean.

The only time I like rain, I guess, is when I'm in a car. Not if I'm going to drive! Daddy always has a problem driving when it's raining. But when it's raining, and I'm in the car, it'd be lovely to watch the rain.

I'm still learning how to play Xiao Yu Li Ke Bai II on the piano, and I must say, Jay Chou must have extremely large hands to be able to keep playing in octaves. I can handle it, but after lots and lots of ample practice and "sour" hands, if you get what I mean.

But playing it over and over again is like, WAH LAO. Firstly it does get a little boring. Secondly, it's such a sad song! You can just get emo by playing it!

Not that I am! But repeating it over and over again, part by part, hand by hand, is kind of taking a toll on my fingers.

I don't think I've ever needed to spend so much time on a piece.

Oh, except my grade 3 piano exam pieces. Those were killer, I tell you.

After watching 1 Litre Of Tears (and crying along with whoever who cries in the show, haha), I'm struck by this thought.

If, let's say (CHOIII TOUCH WOOD) one day, you are diagnosed with a terminal disease, what would you do?

Would you have time to do all that you want to?

I would, on contrary to what I told someone, haha, do all my favourite things.

I would read, and sing, and play the piano (unless that disease reduces my movement, like the girl in the show), roller blade, play pool, play this, eat that, read this, have that.

Well, in my neng li, that is.

And I'll do all that with everyone I know. EVERYONE. From the left to the right from the front to the back (hahaha), from primary school if they remember me, from secondary school, OF COURSE FROM TP LAH.

And Trybe! VERY IMPORTANT. I'd go for as many Trybe runs and camps as I can, and help Jasmine in logistics in every camp that I can.

I'd go out with everyone I know, in church, in wherever.

Most importantly, I think I'd forgive everyone who had once hurt me, and I'd apologise to everyone whom I've hurt.

And, if it's REALLY terminal, I'd spill all my secrets. HAHA.

I'd even let Jonathan (I don't think he read my blog, but yeah), who keeps on pestering to read my diary (LIKE, NO WAY) to really read it.

It's a pretty juicy book. It's your honour if you do get to read it, cos it amounts to the trust I have in you.

So far, not even JY nor Sabrina has read it. IN FACT, only me.

_{When it can't get through.}

ATCHHHH what a cold day it was, could stop raining

Sunday
So You Think You Can Sing?

Held between WYZ and LYL zones, this year's competition even includes cash prizes, and auditions were held right at expo hall 8 for all interested participants, which nearly reached 200.

Well my number was 122, and there were groups and solo categories too.

Yes I joined a singing competition. Don't make that face.

Jonathan and I sang Something Stupid, Jy and I sang Way Back Into Love, Jonathan and Cheryl sang An Jing, and there were MANY others from W376 and W450 who joined, too.

Jonathan and I both took part in the solo too. Honestly we both did better for solo lah.

AH well. Wait a few days more, and I'll tell you about the whole thing.

A sidenote - many thanks to Jem and CY who came down! Thanks many many many for you help la. seriously.

AND today.

FIRSTLY a message for mr LJY you know who you are. IT'S NOT THAT I DIDN'T WANT TO CALL YOU FOR THIS OUTING. I know you have school. And you have to do your assignment too. I've told the others that you'd be free on fridays (YOU ARE, RIGHT), and we'll have another outing then. DON'T GET EMO COS OF THIS PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE.

We still love you, me james wei jian and kok. HAHA.

People named above met up today after EONS AND EONS AND EONS (this is too much. we have to meet up more often) at west mall, before heading out to west coast park for a time of fun and excitement!...

...Only to be hampered by the rain -_-

Rain is called ame in Japanese, and when used in large doses, can make the user fully drenched, and in need of shelter.

Which came in the form of McCafe.

SO BORING LAH SPOIL MY MOOD THIS STUPID RAIN.

But James you're so smart eh? Last night when we were on the phone you were like, so do we need a Plan B just in case of rain? And I thought it WOULDN'T rain at all, and just carelessly suggested ice-skating.

We ended up ice-skating.

SO COLD!

I got pink gloves! Haha. But it's been SO LONG since I've ice-skated. Even though the ice-skating rink is in the west (HAHA SOMETHING FUN THE WEST FOR A CHANGE), the last time I went must have been when I was in secondary 2!

Anyway. Had pretty much a cheery time trying to get wei jian to move away from the railing, and try ing to skate backwards.

It's a lot easier to do that backwards thing on ice I must say.

We had plenty of pictures! But wei jian isn't online yet, only James sent me photo, and I wanna blog everything together, so too bad. haha.

It's been great to have gone out with you guys, really. It felt like secondary school again. HAHA.

But one looks forward into the future, and not turning back for the past.

I hope it doesn't rain on Wednesday, I wanna go Sentosa!

I wanna go LOTS of places this holidays. I don't know if I have time to go back to M'sia already ):

Miss my cousins loads!

Oh man I'm the slower blogger. -_-