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_sour.

don't want, don't want.

no choice, no choice.

i just suck.

don't _{lie to me anymore go away.}

one week of not touching the computer -> no blogging + no MSN + no gunbound

that reminds me of chemical equations.

looking back a year ago this time, i was a stranger to chemical equations. now, they're like my..my...nevermind.

um. i stopped blogging awhile to pick up a phone call. OMIGOSH i don't remember doing such a survey. but i won a pair of movie tix from this survey!

i still can't believe it.

put it aside push push push it away.

i really love weekends. i know i said it alot of times. but know it : MIN LOVES WEEKENDS.

and there's a special event tomorrow.

its the birthday of a special person.

yes, birthday of my bestie, LIJIE!

happy early bithday girl! i wrote this on a saturday post cos i know i won't have time to do it tommorrow. sweet 16!

hey lijie i just wanted to let you know, as a friend, you mean alot to me. you were the one who didn't shun me back in secondary two when i know everyone did. you've been a pillar of support, listening to all my complains and other crap and you listened patiently.

remember that we must attend each other weddings and funerals. and you MUST TELL ME when you get your first BF okay????? X)

once a friend, always a friend. we will stay best of friends forever yea!

and here's a song to you ^^

we're all starting a new goal next year, opening a new book of life, unwritten in.

once again, happy 16^th birthday.

Unwritten
by Natasha Bedingfield
I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your innovations
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Oh, oh, oh

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes,
but I can't live that way

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inner visions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inner visions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten

Oh, yeah, yeah

sundays are always fun, especially when i go to servic on sunday. it is never fun when i go on saturday. sorry jin yu. but you're a little quiet. be a little more...noisy?

but here's the catch : we meet at 8 at BB mrt. thats, erm, very early on a beautiful sunday morning.

but its always fun to sit with a whole bunch of people whom you love and you know loves you too.

i know that's very cliche but its true.

i love the dance items for the past two weeks!

tra-la-la-la-la.

my physics tuition teacher is so funny.

he talks about the stars and the moon and the sun while teaching us about alpha particles, beta particles and gamma rays.

as you can see we're on the radiation topic.

how funny God can be.

today i was complaining about how useless my physics tuition is as all we do is to do exam papers then go through them. what is the point, i say, of going through, when i don't even have the basic understanding?

so then, today we went through a topic. like really had a lesson.

then i was like...diao...

then just now, i put this on my msn nick....on the italic part...i think only humans should be forgiven.

mind i was a little unhappy about something. you can guess what that little nick meant.

but anyway, after i did that..

MY COM CRASHED, DAMMIT!

and when i finally got it back, went online..and saw that my nick changed back to its previous.

so i put there :FINE.

God is a wonder.

and i wonder who would ever do such a stupid thing.

oh yea i was talking about my tuition teacher.

i find him very pro man. in terms of physics.

oh he said something interesting.

he said, back in his times, they studied much more then we do now. like 1 and a half times more.

but they were much more free, and had much more time to really think about stuff. like all the theories and stuff.

so he wondered, how come, we students now have such a tight schedule? even when we learn lesser then them.

they didn't have remedials, they didn't have to go back to school during the holidays, they didn't have tuition and sutff.

and they understand it all better then we do, even though they have a lot more to learn and remember.

i wonder too.

does it make you wonder too?

how silly it sounds. but it is all true true to the blue.

do go and see this.

oh don't worry its ain't any of those pop up scary ghosts thingie. i promise. its really cute kittens.

i had my fair share of pop up scares. thanks to jin yu.

thank you ah. next time i see you i make sure you no more father day.

go see the website!

gotta pop offline now. hols is over. enough gunbound-ing.

my 3rd post for today.

band today rules. we've completed the formation. although its in bits and pieces. at least its something.

then we had band bbq. not much of a bbq. lol. find details on other people's blogs.

pahh.

i hate it.

i know i hate it.

i thought i got over it.

so i decided to try.

i just hate doing things like that.

so why am i such an idiot, to do it over and over again?

its enough once in a year.

but twice in a week.

if it was poisonous, i would have fully decomposed by now.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay. i feel better now.

why must i feel so __________ ?

okay lah, tell you the truth lah.

i don't even know how i feel now. so i put a blank there. makethings easier for me =D

really, really. i swear.

why is it always like this huh?

i mean, seriously, i really don't know how they do it.

i feel like everyone are a mixture of magnets and iron.

while i am just a piece of paper in the midst of all the magnetic forces of attraction AKA friendship.

funny i always feel this when bbqs roll around.

all the way back in primary school.

what an extra-vert.

oh here's something interesting.

its called a Johari's window.

click here to find out more.

wow.

never gone and done so much push-ups in my life before.

punishments in band are in.

BE LATE YOU'LL BE PUNISHED, BE WARNED!

please don't complain so much. really, if you don't wanna do them push-ups, drag your friends back before the break is over. and if you wanna drink water, bring a big bottle into the field so that you don't have to even go out of the field.

as for the sun, we'll have to be under it anway, so you might as well stay in the field instead of running of to shade and coming back late, causing everyone to do 50 push-ups just because you were late.

wanna know the total push-ups we had to do hmm?

naw, it was nothing. just some 172. very simple. NOT!

well anyway. good things come out of it.

i have pretty shoulders now.

although they're still sore.

and my knees are strong.

although they still have cuts.

i pity the guys. i can't imagine doing push-ups the guy way.

"my knee pain sia! cannot do push-ups!"

tra-la-la-la who's knees don't hurt yea? please.

we're nearly done with the formation.

come on. we can do this. prove it to mr hong and the school. we can do this.

this is a happy princess.

i had one of my best weekends for a long, long, long time.

i need more of these weekends.

saturday

had the hariprasad thing. whatever you called it. boring. i am so sick of ushering. and i'll do good to humanity by not boring you with details

well after that event went to west mall food court with huimin, tsing xiu and james.

so bright sia. but whatever.

and we met yun peng and xiu jing there.

and here's the funny part.

after finishing our food, we were a little bored.

poor james. everyone was talking in chinese.

and then xiu jing left, and yunpeng said let's play that knowing personality game. is that what it was called? i forgot.

well it was like somebody asked a question, like how old is my mom or something.

and everybody had to give an answer.

but it got abit boring.

so i started on what i called the "sa" game.

learnt it from cell. its like the electricity game.

we actually had fun playing silly games! like the animal game. and this guess the number game.

we even combined them. lol.

in short, we acted like a bunch of ungrown kids having a ball of a time in the west mall food court, laughing like we've never laughed for years.

it was so embarrassing! lol.

ohhh and it was my mom's birthday.

rather funny. my dad messed my mum and me up. cos i was wearing one of my mom's long skirts and she was wearing one of mine.

sunday
went to church. i didn't go on saturday cos it was my mom's birthday.

well that day was a rather short service, that's all i could say.

after service we went to have lunch.

i shouldn't be so self-centered, i realized.

it not only harms people, it will destroy me too.

i thank God that i am able to help my friend. so maybe that was the reason i was put through it again huh.

well that's good.

after lunch we went to that new...what do you call it? clubhouse? country club?

whatever. that new thing opposite the BB polyclinic and has pools and a bowling alley.

we wanted to go bowling, but there was too many people.

and on sunday, i was freaking tired. slept through tuition.

but when i came home, and bathed, and suddenly i felt hyper again!

actually i was typing this post on sunday. but i went halfway to play an MSN game, and then i had to go off the computer.

and obviously i was online yesterday. but i was playing gunbound, having a good time thrashing somebody =D.

so sorry. but you're very pro. after we solved your "can't see" problem you actually won serveral times.

and i had to do housework and stuff.

and i have band today =(

nevermind. i'm gonna stay at home and do nothing anyway, i might as well go school.

PLAY IT and enjoy this song. its been stuck in my head since i don't know when. I LOVVE IT! Corinne Bailey Rae rocks!

Let Your Hair Down
by Corinne Bailey Rae
Three little birds, sat on my window.
And they told me I don't need to worry.
Summer came like cinnamon
So sweet,
Little girls double-dutch on the concrete.

Maybe sometimes, we got it wrong, but it's alright
And nothing seems to change, and it all will stay the same.
Oh, don't you hesitate.

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.

You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.

Blue as the sky, sombre and lonely,
Sipping tea in the bar by the road side,
(just relax, just relax)
Don't you let those other boys fool you,
Gotta love that afro hairdo.

Maybe sometimes, we feel afraid, but it's alright
The more you stay the same, the more they seem to change.
Don't you think it's strange?

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.

You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.

Just more than I could take, pity for pity's sake
Some nights kept me awake, I thought that I was stronger
When you gonna realise, that you don't even have to try any longer.
Do what you want to.

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.

I LOVE FRIDAYS.

why?

1. its the weekend!

2. school ends at 12.30!!

3. i have cell group/bible study! yes this makes me happy, whatever you say.

4. i just LOVE fridays!

had that emergency exercise today. like, whatever. we were totally prepared.

got my report book back. man. what a bunch of shit.

went to david's for cell group. pretty cool today. prayed for rach. something i haven't exactly done before. took a step of faith and TADDAAA!

then had dinner with kk and angela.

i have two favourite perfumes now!

like last year, i went out towning with lijie and we got this Jean Paul Gaultier sample of the Gaultier². i loved it so much!

and on wednesday, i found my second fav, Adidas!

and they both are going on my list of wants. definaetly.

i've updated my wants. =)

man. i'm so hyper now, with no outlet for my energy!!!

aww. don't worry. so long as we learn from our mistakes. and we'll do better for o levels okay?

you and me know she's always like that. maybe we just have to accept it.

unless you want to tell her straight.

i hope you're doing fine cos it seems like you still got other problems. i won't probe deeper.

but do remember you still have two friends who are willing to help you with your problems =)

retail therapy WORKS WONDERS.

school ended early today, 11.40. REJOICE!

shot off right after school back home and then to town.

like, finally.

lijie, henzy, and me.

we went to suntec. and the area around.

retail therapy really helps. took all my stress off. like...pheww..

why must we blog about happy things in our blogs? blogs are for me to rant and swear and shoot people.

if even for my blogs i have to act happy, then i'll need alot of retail therapy.

so. WHATEVER. don't read lah..

sheesh.

so back to shopping. i didn't buy much. just window-shopped. even though i said i hated the feeling of seeing something and not buying.

but i needed that feeling of seeing something and not buying to take my mind off things. like how my homework is piling again, and the files we have to submit.

but i bought a couple of cucumber masks. i am just too lazy to shred fresh cucumber.

and when you use fresh cucumber for you face, you have to be in resting position.

at least when i use a mask, i can do whatever i want.

do you know whats a good way of relieving stress?

do childish things, like stepping on people's shoes when they walked.

yes, i did it to somebody today hahaha, and the feeling of success is good.

I HAVE A NEW WANT!

=(

i KNEW this shopping trip came with a price.

i want that adidas perfume!

i can't even remember what its called! but i just WANT IT! and its cheap okay. 19 bucks.

what's it called, lijie? floral-something? something-fresh?

i'm trying to search it out on the net.

so far not working out.

still not getting much.

i didn't even know adidas had a perfume line. but whatever.

i need a new school bag. soon.

marina square is sure cold.

aww. gotta go eat dinner.

_{see..i told you so..}

i told you so...i told you this in december 2003..

i told you this in january 2004...march...april 2004..

i told you this again, in june 2005....

and yet you would not listen!

and i was patient, wasn't i, i told you the same darn thing in december 2005, january 2006, february, march 2006, and yet listen you would not!

see what you have done? see the mental lacerations you've caused?

what is the use of crying over spilled milk?

when are you going to learn?

i will tell you again.

no more nonsense;

no more goodbyes;

enough crying;

just live your life.

don't just promise;

don't just swear.

for its no use;

they'll just die.

you know its true;

you know its right.

why won't you listen;

and give up your pride.

you don't need them;

you'll just hurt them;

no more messing up;

just live your life.

what do you call something that can cause hurt?

me.

no i am not upset, i am NOT. crystal clear?

in fact, i am happy.

my anti-highlight script finally has a use!

i have never gone and read so many blogs at one go in my life before.

i realise alot of people have alot of troubles now.

wonder wonder. who doesn't have troubles.

like me. i have troubles everyday. it is quite IMPOSSIBLE to not have troubles.

there's no such thing as tong hua, fairytale.

but really. how can i let myself be affect by this? i mean, i would understand if it was a huge thing.

BUT I'VE NEVER FELT SO INSULTED IN MY LIFE!

=(

i mean, yes, i AM short.

but you FREAKING DIDN'T have to rub it in.

OVER AND OVER AGAIN .

and i don't even know why i'm so pissed.

you're all nice guys...come on..don't be so mean can...i'm just this pooor little SHORT girl..

I STILL CAN'T BELIVE WHAT I JUST DID.

no turning back. lol.

after all the times i told myself to think through and not just do something cos my friend asked me too. what a waste.

i'm in such a terrible mood, though i try not to show it.