what have i been like for the past few days
-i cant concentrate
-bad bad bad bad DREAMS. plenty about school. won't say out why they are bad, though. or actually, can't. ask me personally.
-can't study
-distracted
-moping
-tired
-don't know whats going on in lessons (due to sleeping)
-sleep during school time. alot
-and no teacher realise i'm sleeping. *ponders*

i don't know whats happenning to me! i DON'T want to sleep in class but i feel so tired. and whatever the teachers say in scool i just can't seem to concentrate. i'm distracted. and i don't know WHY!!!!

can't stand it any longer. i feel like ending it all!

but why end when i don't even know WHY???

wo bu kai xin le. why?

i duno. even if i want to kai xin also cannot.

but. sheesh.

i feel like a pregnant woman.

I AM SO NOT PREGNANT!

but my mood has been like, UP, down, UP, down..

and i'm getting a little too big there

my tummy i mean.

i want to talk to somebody. anybody.

=(

oh

why?

i think its true

what's true?

that i'm ** **** **** ***

WHAT?! how could you??

exactly! how could i? it will be total betrayal to the lady!

what to do?

jeez...

i hate me and i'll never forgive me even if they do!

i'm going crazeee....

but still...

*sigh*

up.down.left.right.my.life's.a.mess

From The Bottom Of My Broken Heart
by Britney Spears

Never look back, we said
How was I to know I'd miss you so
Loneliness up ahead, emptiness behind
Where do I go

And you didn't hear all my joy through my tears
All my hopes through my fears
Did you now, still I miss you somehow

CHORUS:
From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
You were my first love, you were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose
From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time may find me somebody new
You were my real love, I never knew love
'Til there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart

i found out that this song totally symbolised it. whatever it is. except the the rest of the song which i cut off. to know why, click here.

because the rest was out of point.

ok. end of toodling.

i still can't forget it.

i try and i try...but whenever it appears i can't help thinking over again

whether i was wrong or i was right that does not matter as i have made my decision and that decision was already carried out.

but..

i still can't forget that day.

you try it. i'm sure you won't either.

and now only one (or two) person know what i'm spewing.

right gurl (and guy) ?

imagine trying to sleep at night but you can't cos you're crying and crying and crying and the pillow's wet and you nose is blocked and you can't breathe.

there's no one to talk to. no one who will care.

black.bubbles.heart.break

broken.

i have to forget it. its messing me up. and my life.

i have to live again.

when was the last time i blogged, man?

went to city hall today with adeline and derrick. actually i felt EXTREMLY extra. won't do it again if i had a chioce. ooops. hope they aren't seeing this.

we went window shopping. i told derrick window shopping is bad for me. very bad. as usual i am right. i saw this skirt at BUM equipment. pink. 3 tiered with a layer of mesh. it was so NICE!!!!!! it totally caught my eye!

i love it. and thanks to window shopping i found it. and now i want it!

*poutx*

*POUTX*!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it cost $33. i think.

its so nice! i'm trying to find a pic of it.

no success. too bad.

gunbound!!!!

haven't been blogging for long. have been real busy.

yesterday went out with adeline, derrick, henzy, and jia hao.

we actually wana go bugis junc. but we didn't have the time. so we went causeway.

just walk walk around lor. abit sianx arx.

oh yea. the day before, friday was youth's day celebration.

some teachers acted for us. it was pretty good but i wont go into details.

i'm so darn bored.