Weird people listen to weird music, that's all I have to say.

Talk about blogging twice in a day.

After talking to my twiny Joann (who was MIA for awhile -_-), I was reminded of many unpleasant things. No it's not your fault, I have to face up to reality too.

So here goes a little rant post that, if you have objection to people being emo, you can go on reading. If not, skip this and go to the next post.

You guys always talk behind me, and I know what you say, who does she think she is?

Always skip lectures, now skip tutorials, then in PW don't know what shit she is sitting there staring at people for?

Nothing to say at all, give useless information.

What kind of class rep is that? useless la.

Did you ever think I wanted to do this?

Who in the right mid would want to skip classes that cost more than a thousand bucks per semester?

Who would want to fail their modules?

I'm not showing of here, but as students of HTM, this means you and I have some form of good O level grades already, and somehow our attitudes should match our grades, ey?

Would O level students with my results want to skip classes?

WHY THE HELL WOULD I REALLY SKIP CLASS/LECTURE/DO NOTHING IN PW?

Cos I can't take it.

I hate being alone, stared at when I'm alone, stared at for being alone, stared at for knowing nothing.

I hate sitting in class and not talking at all to anyone, when everyone around me is happy about something.

Call it childish behaviour, but what she did was even more childish then my 13 year old brother.

I hated it, being alone in tutorial rooms. I hated it when the teacher said "now go into your groups, and discuss the following questions."

Because I would be invisible in the group anyway.

If I said something you would disagree

If I said nothing, you would ask me what

And if I said it was really nothing, you would tell me to stop it and just say whatever I want.

And if I did say whatever I wanted, you would shoot me down again.

And the cycle repeats.

I hated it when you said I can trust you. WHAT THE SHIT.

I hated the way you treated me, like I was some small kampong girl with no brains at all.

I hated you for not standing up for me at all

I hated you for not telling me what really is going on, and what went wrong.

And I hated the rest of you, for not even caring at all.

And thus, I hated being in the room at all.

Try being in the room with someone whom you thought cared, but actually never did, not even as a friend, and now stare at you with disdain.

Yes, I can't stand up to it, I'm a scaredly cat, yadda yadda yadda.

I hated going to lectures cos of the same reason too.

and nobody, NOBODY can really understand how this feels.

BECUASE THIS. ISN'T MY FIRST TIME.

Take all of the above, and multiply it with 4 years.

Somewhere, somehow, it must be something to do with me. It has to be, because it's happening to me. There must be something different with me.

After the exams, the real part comes back.

And I try to bury myself with activities, but it's still there.

Yeah, that's why I'm so "busy". Cos I don't want to have time to think.

WHOOOSHH.

Exams ended on wednesday, and I definitely had a BLAST of a time.

After my paper, I met up with JY and after this and that and this and that we ended up at Downtown East NTUC chalets, where only 5 people (-_-) were there to stay over.

We (or they, actually) had a good time talking, and really fellowshipping and getting to know a lot more about one another. I was the only girl there (another -_-) but it didn't really matter, because I had the protection of my brothers who have undergone transformation after going through M³!

Yes! They have benifitted from this event, and I seen many changes within the brothers of W450. CONGRATS to david for winning the Transformation prize!

On Thursday, David, Daniel, De Shun and your truly were left in the chalet as JY had classes in the morning (poor guy didn't sleep) and we headed to Mac to eat breakfast.

AND I STILL HAVE NOT GOT TO EAT MY BAGEL.

WHAT IS THIS? HOW I FEEL? (A.K.A. Alex the new LJS poster boy)

Oh if you guys go to Long John Silver (LJS) to eat and see this poster off 2 guys promoting something for LJS, the one in blue and on the left (pointing at godknowswhat) is my friend and Scythia GL, ALEX.

So proud of him ey. HAHA.

Anyways, at night I went for the final M³ session, finally headed home.

I was so so tired laaa. But I wanted to complete a book.

Wild Swans: Three Daughters of China
by Jung Chang

This story is about the auther herself, and the 3 generations of women (her grandmother, mother, and herself) living in the time of Kuomintang and the Communists, and how they had survived.

It's really intersting to read about them, and the brutality of both the Kuomintang and Communists when they wanted to make their different ways of living work in China.

This book belongs to my dad (who would be appalled at the way that I'm treating this book, heh heh) in 1994 when I was a wee toddler at the age of 4. Pretty surprising as my dad doesn't really buy books and I'm usually the one spending money on books.

The author's parents were pro-Communism, and had participated actively. Therefore they had high rankings, and the author, together with 4 siblings, have lived in immensely good care.

However, danger was imminent everywhere, as the Communists had suspicions of nearly everyone, and to me (I hope no pro-communists people are here), I think Mao zedong was a bit too full of power to make right decisions, and when mistakes appeared he did not take the responsibility of them.

People were punished simply for reasons like not sharing food.

Good book. But still not done with it. It's damn thick lah. And it's not like Harry Potter where I can read real swiftly, this books really got content.

If only I can read my notes like this -_-

Oh well. Anyone has a copy of Titanic? Cos I just watched teh trailer and I REALLY WANNA WATCH IT AGAIN.

But lazy to go rent.

HAHA.

YOOOOOOUUUUUU HEEREEE THERE'S NOOOOOOTHING I FEEEAAARRRR!

WAH LAO, Celine Dion eat what grow up one lah. INHUMAN YOU KNOW, THIS SONG.

fantastic voice. sighs.

ohmigosh in the mtv jack and rose are sinking sinking sinking SINKING SANK.

I know I put this song up before.

BUT as I've said before, yet again, THIS IS ONE OF MY ALL TIME FAVOURITE SONGS.

See what I said about singing when I'm stressed. I'm stressed about RHT. Although it's the final paper. Which means no more exams.

Don't wanna think about sub papers.

Come What May
by Ewan McGregor and Nicold Kidman

Go search the lyrics somewhere, haha...

Oh man now I'm like so emo!

DO YOU REMEMBER WATCHING THIS AND CRYING.

I so did man. I'd love to watch this over again.

OH MAN CAN I ADD A NUMBER 11?

11. I LOVE SURPRISES! PLENTY PLENTY!

I just read my dear one and only Korean friend JAMES LEE'S blog, and found that even though I haven't met him in eons and zeons and beons and leons and whatevereons, HE MENTIONED ME IN A POST!

Okay even though all it was for was to do some weird random thing, but I'm so honoured, and decided to take time off from studying to dedicate this post to him, and also to do the weird thingie he asked me and others to do!

So here goes.

10 Weird things/Habits/Little Known Facts About Min!

1. I like to read. Not many people know that. I read A LOT, actually. You should see me read. YISS people would know.

2. When I read I HATE PEOPLE TALKING TO ME.

3. I have 3 pillows large medium small, 2 bolsters one big one small, and 4 soft toys on my bed. And oh my blanket.

4. I have a certain fetish for tofu. I like, LOVE tofu. Many many.

5. I always wanted to be a princess. Up to now. HAHAHA. (I always knew it'll never come true, too. What prince is there left on this Earth?)

6. I have a tendency to sing randomly when I'm stressed.

7. I love naruto and bleach!

8. I don't cry easily. In fact, unlike many females, I don't cry often. I'm not affected easily by emotional things, or matters of the heart.

9. I don't like taking zhi lian pictures, seriously.

10. I can bake?

Okay. Now to pass it on to the people to do it...

1. JY (cos James didn't put him. YOU BETTER DO. I SAW YOUR TAG ON JAMES'S BLOG)
2. Sean (I know you're reading my blog and you have a blog NOW GO DO)
3. JemX (HAHAHA.>
4. Vivien (self-declared holiday eh? YOU HAE PLENTY OF TIME)
5. BR (YOU TOO, YOU HAVE NO EXCUSE =P)
6. anyone else who reads this, tag me if you did it! I wanna see!

BACK TO STUDYING...POM AND FBFUN.

DAMN SAD LAH.