Look! A Peanut!

Have you watched it? (only if you've watched will you know what I'm talking about)

I bet you haven't.

I did, last saturday, with Wei Jian. It was more on a whim. We were having lunch with the cell group, and we two were loners left.

Wei Jian: Eh I feel like watching movie.
Min: Ya me too.

Both looks eye to eye. A spark of understanding zapped between...

He even treated me, as a present. Thanks man.

IT was good!!! So, so nice.

Ending's sad, like what Amanda said. But sweet.

ANYWAYS.

I'm addicted to this online vids watching lah.

CANNOT CANNOT.

Oh man. There's a lot of things I'm addicted to know.

Sab's right. When one has nothing to do, one tends to think a lot.

SIGHS.

Nobody knows who I really am
I've never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along
Who's gonna comfort me and keep me strong

That's from Bleach, the ending theme song.

Ya, ya I started watching Bleach. I know I'm abit slow larh, but I didn't really have the time for it. Until recently.

Okay not really. I had a lot of time during that 6 months holiday but I never really spent those times on the computer. I spent them out. DUH? Which goon will spend that happy time at home?

I think my brother will, though. But he IS a goon.

I have nothing to say about my recent week.

It's been so good and yet so, so bad.

I've never been so stressed about an assignment before. I've never been so angry about one before, either.

But now my list of problems is considerable shorter already, so I thanks God for that. Phew.

But I didn't say it's empty.

You know, I'm really thinking about this problem. I've had it ever since I was born, and I just freaking don't get it.

If you have a problem that lasted for so long, you'd start to think as crazily as I am thinking now.

I mean really, the problem MUST lie with me. But I don't see anything wrong at all. You know, I need some... enlightenment.

On a happier note, they're speaking to me again. Not all of them, but yes, they are.

It's really tough having 'I' as your dominant profile.

The rejection really takes the heart.

I know I can get around this.

I always wanted something.

I wished that there's something that could directly link my thoughts up to Blogger, and blog while I walk around during the day, be it in school or while I'm travelling to school, or whatever.

Seems like my life now really revolves around school.

Well anyway walking around I get a lot of inspirations about stuff and I really like to share it, but everything I'm home I don't think I remember it anyway and I'm bogged down with lots of work. No time to really remember and blog.

Like now, I'm gonna rush through this post, because FBfun is due tomorrow.

You'll see a lot of this 'FBfun' word around, especially on Mondays. Cos it's always due on Tuesdays.

I have 3 tests scheduled this week, all of which I have not prepared for. Shoot me, now.

Yea. Cos on top of all the heavy school work, people like to dao me for no particular reason.

This is even worse then in secondary school. At least in secondary school people only hated me after a certain undefinable period of time. But I'm in TP for barely 5 weeks (actually today is week 5), and this kind of.. crap caught up with me.

Thought I left it all the day I took my results.

Why the hell did I choose TP?

Cos I wanted to get away from YISS as far as possible, as far as I could. I succeeded, since I only know 2 other people from TP that are ex-Yusoffians.

And all I have been doing for the past 4 weeks were to sing praises about how great a class 1H10 has been.

Don't get me wrong. They are a great class.

I'm just not a good friend.

I knew something like this will happened when they picked me for class rep.

Being a high "D" is something to be proud of I guess.

But it's not really doing wonders to me, especially if the people around you don'y understand you, why you do such stuff, why do you do things the way you do things..

It's not like in Trybe, where everyone really understands.

I DON'T GET IT. CAN SOMEONE, PLEASE, JUST TELL ME WHAT'S GOING ON???

I don't wanna think about it.

I don't wanna think about them hating me.

I don't wanna think about you not talking to me.

I don't wanna think about how this is all a misunderstanding but you don't seem to agree.

You don't seem to care, anyway.

I don't wanna think about all the fun times we had and how they're all disappearing.

I'm still feeling to coldness.

It was accidental. But this problem of mine started ever since I could breathe, and it has always broken friendships.

Well. Cell group. It's great that it's the weekend and I just love going to cell group to relax and seek God.

Zhipeng is right (:

I did my nails today, with all the leftover stuff. They're red now, with nail art. Haha. I love them!

Actually this is the first time I did such an extreme colour! But they're not bright red, like those auntie kind. Slightly darker.

not really nice, though, I don't have long nails!

Hmm. I'm pretty moody today, though I can't exactly mention why. It's quite a long story.

Haha. Ivan and Terry and whoever else, if you're reading this, I was blogging already when chatting with you guys lah. HA HA!

HI IVAN! I KNOW YOU THINK I ROCK! I KNOW I DO! SEE YA! (:

see ya people (: