sometimes i really feel like life is so not fair. i mean, why is it that the friends you make can betray you and make better friendships after doing that? whatever i did to make you do this to me? why was it so good and then it turned into the opposite? i'm not jealous, i'm just wondering how come we were practically the same and yet others have chances of doing fun stuff i never got to do?

my dear audience out there, you must be wondering what the hell happened to me. oh well, i'll make myself clear. anyway, she's not gonna be seeing this. i hope. haha. anything is possible.

when i first entering YISS, i practically knew no one. okay, there were people i knew from my primary school but there was none i knew in my class. during the morning assembly(i didn't even knew it was called that then) i was like so damn lonely, along with my fear of loneliness, when all of a sudden, this girl came and said, "couuld i sit here?"
of course. the place beside me was public. anyone could sit there. boy, i was relieved to have a "friend". we got to know each other better and stuck together like you tiaos...well there's no other thing i could think of to describe what i meant. anyway, it was like, we had so many things in common. in time, it was obvious she was my best friend. i told her everything, including those that i was not suppposed to reveal. which resulted in me being "untrusted" by others. i don't know if she ever trusted my anyway.

so there. we were really good friends. until something happened at the end of that year. i don't wanna mention it. i never trusted her. only know how to give her black face. haha. so we sort of "lost touch". i made friends with people in sec3 normal acadamic when school reopened, which was this year.

then came the "heartbreaking" part. from ever since march this year, she's taken neoprints with the worst girl i've ever known(heaven knows how she tahan that bitch), done evrything i, as her "former" friend never ever did with her when we were still friends. do you know why it is such a blow to me? you may find it comical, i may even seem lesbian to you but i'm telling you there was never a friend as good as she was. until dear came along lah, that is =PpP haha...but...well...

ARG! I'M GOING MAD! I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT I WANT TO SAY! GO TO HELL MAN!


3 more agonizing days to the return of my darling...=PpP