do you know what it feels like to have your heart broken?

to feel your chest being torn apart, your heart taken from the ribcage and thrown carelessly on the floor?

trampled upon by beasts of all sort?

well, not that my heart has been broken yet again by another y-chromosomed homo sapien, but this is how i feel when i go into a shop on sale and see something i know i can't buy.

thus, to save myself from pure torture and pain(i am getting good with words), i decided to buy SOMETHING as i went shopping in town today.

FINALLY! RETAIL THERAPY!

and a good time too, with the great singapore sale and blah blah blah.

with my shopping queen, tan lijie!

i know she won't be reading my blog anyway. so she won't know i called her a shopping queen. unless you tell her lah.

i'm just a shopping princess. novice at the game.

and henzy, kim teck, lan zi, kok, jy were there.

anyway, i didn't just get something. i got 2 things. haha.

from fox, a jacket. only cost 10 bucks. i think i would have cried and rolled my eyeballs around wisma atria if i didn't get persuaded to buy it.

this is like, perfect. this jacket goes perfectly with all my jeans. and my denim jacket can go with my dresses and skirts.

the giodarno one? reserve. it goess with everything.

and the black one? when it is a cold day.

there. got it planned prettily.

oh and bought a tank from BUM equipment. lijie has one too, she got hers yesterday. but hers is white. mine is brown. which is good, come to think of it. my cupboard already looks very white.

i think 70% of my tops are white. the rest are like one of each colour. one yellow, one light blue, one green, one dark blue. and one brown.

two now, then.

and your know whats so great about this tank, other then the fact lijie also has one?

my mom WON'T wear it!

cos the words in front are to fancy for her, apparently. GREAT. SHE WOULD SPOIL MY CLOTHES ANYMORE.

i mean everytime i buy something tight fitting she takes them and wears it and makes them all loose for me. not very lah. my mom is nearly the same size as me.

but she still makes them loose. and i end up giving them to her. sheesh.

and it's ok if i raid her cupboard, since (obviously!!!) i can't enlarge her clothes. she won't even know/remember i wore them.

that's where i got my bad memory too...

so anyway. there's my shopping adventure.

off to...nevermind.

Yesterday, during BS, I finally understood what meditating means.

Okay it is kinda my fault that I didn't make an effort to go find out.

First lesson of Christian Lifestyle! I'm glad I'm making progress.

How funny it is that I just updated my wishlist yesterday morning and then in the afternoon my good friend can come and tell me, "Eh, your wishlist haven't update."

*makes annoyed noise*

I want to start playing Sims 2 again. LOL. That icon on my desktop is attractive.

Man, it's raining cats and dogs out there.

I feel comforted by the fact that I'm at home, safe and sound and dry.

Physics tuition on Sundays is really, really a spoiler.

awwww crap. SIMS 2, I AM BACK!

i love that starry starry night(vincent) song.

hey you guys guess who this song was portrayed after.

clue: it's a HE. and HE paints.

i think it's highly obvious.

wanna hear how the song goes?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uLGY0DXMMH4&search=don%20mclean

it's a beautiful song with very beautiful lyrics.

and it's a very beautiful painting.

*winks*

i wished i have something to numb me.

or something to occupy myself

so that i won't think too much.

thinking isn't very healthy, when too much. it's just like having an overdose in panadol.

i watched x-men 3 on thursday, with kaikee, james, weijian, chris.

pretty cool. but where's the angel action.

nope. still haven't got it off my chest. i want angel action!!

and i rented sky high and monster inc yesterday, and watched sky high.

i realized something.

they ALWAYS use the geeky/not handsome ones for the lead role.

for example, harry potter. daniel radcliffe still looks a little geeky to me. even though it's alot better now, definately.

and don't get me started with the guy who acted ronald weasley, rupert grint.

and in sky high. i don't even remember his name. the offspring of the world's 2 greatest superheroes.

he looks geeky, period.

and in x-men.

who wanted to look at hugh jackman(wolverine) anymore???

and always, all the hot guys either sit one corner, be the enemy or die.

like in harry potter. CEDRIC DIGGORY CAN SHIVER ME TIMBERS!

but he died lah. and made me cry while watching HP4.

and in sky high, the hottie was that fire guy. but he's the archenemy of the lead.

although in the end he does become the lead's best friend.

and in x-men, the angel guy is like WHAO!

but i think he only acted for a few minutes.

and the fullest sentence he said was, "i heard that this is a safe place for mutants."

and a couple of other sentences but whatever.

well i won't spoil the movie any further for the other honeys who haven't caught the movie.

ooh. i've updated my wishlist. it's the holidays.

okay so that's not an excuse to start a new list.

but whatever.

off to BS!

Starry, starry night.
Paint your palette blue and grey,
Look out on a summer's day,
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul.
Shadows on the hills,
Sketch the trees and the daffodils,
Catch the breeze and the winter chills,
In colors on the snowy linen land.

Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.

Starry, starry night.
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze,
Swirling clouds in violet haze,
Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue.
Colors changing hue, morning field of amber grain,
Weathered faces lined in pain,
Are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand.

Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.

For they could not love you,
But still your love was true.
And when no hope was left in sight
On that starry, starry night,
You took your life, as lovers often do.
But I could have told you, Vincent,
This world was never meant for one
As beautiful as you.

Starry, starry night.
Portraits hung in empty halls,
Frameless head on nameless walls,
With eyes that watch the world and can't forget.
Like the strangers that you've met,
The ragged men in the ragged clothes,
The silver thorn of bloody rose,
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow.

Now I think I know what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they're not listening still.
Perhaps they never will...

so so so many things to blog about.

today we had this STUPID chinese mock exam. we have to do another 2 more papers, tomorrow and the day after.

totally sucks. i wished i didn't take chinese. or that i take chinese B.

wheeeeeeee! watched CCS move 2 while ironing today lol. LOVE THE ENDING!!

here i go again...

lol. ok. no more CCS.

YEA RIGHT.

wait til you see my next skin.

probably in june.

okay. this is something i wanted to type out for a long, long time.

okay not that long lah. since my birthday, anyway.

my list of prezzies!

Prezzies Min Got For 2006
in order of when she got them
1. Lovely, Sweet 16 perfume from Lijie, Sze Han, Xinfang, my dearest mates! nevermind that you didn't get the adidas one. i love this one. lol.

2. Robinson's voucher from relatives.

3. ang pao from my dad.

4. a trip to sentosa with a bunch of the wildest people i know! "from" kaikee, james, jinyu, and chris!

5. 2 pairs or earrings. from somebody. which nobody reading this knows who.

6. another 2 pairs of earrings and nail art from qiaoying and farhaan, my oka-san and oto-san. haha.

7. Hillsong CD. from Henzy. thank you thank you! haha. wanted to get it. haha.

8. Reliant K CD. from my beloved cell group! whee.

9. laced denim jacket from my beloved mummy! even though i chipped in a little. haha.

there. see. effects of tithing.

tithing is important, my dear friends.

so if you haven't started, i hope you will take a step of faith to do so.

good night.