have you ever had a day where everthing just doesn't seem to go the way you wanted it?

well, i just had a week of those days.

like i never meant for such things to happen.

and it HAS to happen.

for instance, band always gives me "good" luck.

and of all the times i had to get sick, it was on a beautiful, beautiful friday. yesterday.

oh don't worry i'm pretty ok now.

i'm just banned from going out.

that's pretty ok with me, seeing that the only thing my mom lets me eat(porridge) doesn't give me any energy to last through the trip to expo.

and i actually have band today. one of the few days i actually LOOK FORWARD to go to band. i even wanted to rollerblade to school.

you know, sort of warm up a little.

but yea. whatever.

and my homework is piling and piling and piling again. chicken feet lah. NOT.

that guilty feeling is coming back. its intensifying.

everytime i fall, i seem to drag people down with me.

not that i want to.

i mean, who would?

well. hi. i am back. with a vengence....

no lol. just kidding. its just that it always seems to go that way in movies.

speaking of movies, i watched one today. i not stupid 2.

to sum it up, the movie is funny, emo, crappy, lame, whatever!

lol. that was from the movie.

okay okay. here's what i have been DYING to say.

HAVE YOU EVER SEEN HOT HUNKS? SEE IT NOW IN I NOT STUPID 2! SHAWN LEE AND JOSHUA ANG ARE JUST HOT, HOT, AND HOT! wooo!

there. got it off my chest.

won't go into details about the movie though. i hate doing that. lol.

well. i should award myself with the longest ranging mood swings prize.

stick with me 24/7 and you'll what i mean. seriously. i can laugh like mad all of a sudden, and the next moment, total shut down.

whatever.

i can't get the movie off my head! i mean, its like, SO DAMN TRUE! i encourage, appeal, plead, pester, persuade you to go watch it!

i wonder what the prime minister thinks of it, though. pretty sensitive issues there.

well at least jack neo has an outlet for his frustrations. i mean, as frustrated as i can get, which is always, i don't really have an outlet for it.

oh did you know in the movie, shawn's character is good with blogging?

hehehe.

hmm. i always have alot to talk about. and when i want to blog it out i just never have the time. now i am staring at this bloody computer, unable to string two sentences together. pfffft.

x-sml. hey if you guys really want to do that skin, we should get a move on. remember that monkey bar idea! let's work on it! okay?

Dream
by The Cranberries
Oh my life is changing everyday
Every possible way
Though my dreams, it’s never quite as it seems
Never quite as it seems

I know I felt like this before
But now I’m feeling it even more
Because it came from you

Then I open up and see
The person fumbling here is me
A different way to be

I want more, impossible to ignore
Impossible to ignore
They’ll come true, impossible not to do
Impossible not to do

Now I tell you openly
You have my heart so don’t hurt me
For what I couldn’t find

Talk to me amazing mind
So understanding and so kind
You’re everything to me

Oh my life is changing everyday
Every possible way
Though my dreams, it’s never quite as it seems
’cause you’re a dream to me
Dream to me

this is that song from the citigems advert. thanks to jem for sending it to me! =)

its a nice song.

one word to describe what that has been happening since january 25 2006 : AAIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

one word to descride my feelings now: AAAAAAAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

i don't know how many times i have told myself repeatedly i must not fall down i must not fall down i must not fall down.

hmm. looks like i gotta record my voice down and play it every night while i sleep.

stupid people do stupid things.

since i do stupid things, i am stupid.

that reminds me. i wanna watch i not stupid too. apparently shawn and joshua looked like some beach hunk that has been elongated in the movie.

someone recently told me all the stuff on my blog is rather depressing.

i don't agree. i mention about happy things too.

like how i am finally handing up my homework on time(while sacrificing online time thus the reason barely posting).

and how i LOVE differentiation.

my name can be differentiated!

y=min²

_dy
^dx=2min

get it?

nevermind.

so here i am on a friday afternoon, on the computer while i am actually supposed to be cleaning the house, ironing and doing homework so that my weekend is free for me to go out(what a long sentence), pondering over what i have done.

what have i done? that is for me to know and for you to find out.

oh. by the way. my surprise is ready. i am just bloody lazy to "transfer" it over.

and if anyone of you out there wants a good laugh, watch cheaper by the dozen 2. it knocks your socks off. you'll burst your fats laughing.

just kidding. =D

maia lee's song, big girl, is playing over the radio now.

had your chance but you blew it again! sorry but i need someone more like a man! cheat on your girl and you tell all your friends! i'm a big girl now!

man. i wonder if its sly who cheated on her. haha.

you know what i'd do if i could live from secondary one all over again?

i think. i'll still be in yusof. won't tell my dad to transfer me to bukit view or something.

cos it won't be fun, i like know so many people there.

but. i won't join band lol. sorry xinfang. but you know this.

and i'll make sure i follow my aims.

if anyone lived inside my brain they'll be laughing at me now.

wahahahaha!

no i must NOT get depressed.

=D seeee i am not.

ooooh i can't wait for friendship day! LOL it's like april fool's day came early!

wahahahahahahahahahaha you are SO D-E-A-D!

DELIRIOUS ROCKS!!!!! yes they do! they came last sunday(i'm abit slow haha) for praise and worship and i was like OH MAN SO COOL!

pffffft~

the lead singer looks like owen wilson!

just that owen wilson is younger. i think. and more good-looking. haha.

they're from the UK and they are really good.

hmm. just read the nick of somebody.

lol i can't believe it has been this long and this person still has a crush on...well, her crush.

i mean it is like totally impossible. and if i was her crush i would totally be embaressed.

whatever. it is not my problem anyway.

Because You Loved Me
by Celine Dion
For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

school=tests

tests=stress

stress=must de-stress

singing=de-stress

thus, i am using the computer, bursting lungs with celine dion and kelly clarkson.

the surprise!??

.. its not ready..

cos...............

i have no timeeeeee!!!!!!

i'm sooooo superrr busy this week lah...

have so many tests...

so i'm studying real hard..

wish me best..